Ten Thousand Buttons

 Today, I woke a little earlier than usual. But it was the same time I woke up yesterday so.. maybe I have a new waking up time... which is cool. I meditated and prayed. Which is a new practice for me. It is important.  I noticed that the thing that I have been using to measure the amount that I am loosing might not be the most efficient... because it is discouraging!!!! And that is a useless emotion!! So I am using something else which is good.  I went to town to buy some supplies and it was interesting to me that though I am on the broke side I got the things that I needed in respectable quantities too! ALL the things that I needed.   Next I needed to send yarn to the lady who is making the sweater. I went to the transporters and after a while, they gave me back 50/-!!! Soo cool!! And it came at a time when I was doubting my manifestation prowess so that was super cool! It  has gone into my space of manifestation!!  I got home and the lady help had n...

 ..... I woke up feeling as crap as I have been feeling since Sunday. Yesterday before I slept though, IB told me to do the relationship thing for Sedona Method and today I did and it was amazing. The crap feelings left!! I was able to carry on with the rest of my day.. which is so cool!!! Having access to good feelings is sooo amazing!!  I still haven't shifted my sponsor but that is work in progress. I will get there... Maybe I will write on her tomorrow.  The other thing is we have internet back and that is good. Maybe back. But all the same... I am having a good day so far. With delicious coffee, freshly died hair... 1/3 retied... Money in the bank, food in my belly, beautiful music... Life is good.  Gratitude - I am grateful for my HP - I am grateful for music - I am grateful for "Thank you" - I am grateful for love - I am grateful for new knowledge - I am grateful for forgiveness and that I have access to it. 

I wrote my first blog post in more than 14 years which is really good (not for this blog)  I managed to get the shopping out of the way… thing is that I wanted to go at 3pm and the lady who helps me finished at 3pm… which is cool because for as long as I have known her she always finishes at 4pm even when I ask her to not finish… cause I have things to do.  Also I got all the things that I wanted quickly and easily and I got a profit of about 170/- !!  (thank you God for that) I was got discounts for transport… although I was ready to pay full price on the way back!!! Sooo very  cool. Internet is being a bitch so today I get to listen to Lana Shlafer again.  Life feels good right now. And I am grateful also that it seems that I will only have one meal today… which is good because I have been doing really well for the intermittent fasting in the last 3 weeks!  With many days of mostly protein and only complex carbohydrates!! I am very happy and excited.

... and it went weird...she basically told me I didn't have a real shot and that it was doubtful that I would get the job...OK cool...but something happened when I was there..I discovered that it is important to continue with things..very important to not give up on things.... someone started a sight and now has an office in Dusit2 and mine I am just let mine lie...I currently have access to 31,000 Kenyans I could be working with and I am not...I am just looking at me and feeling sorry for myself. Aso, I started thinking about employment...I can work with the things that I have instead of things that I don't have...continue with my world instead of looking for things that are outside me. Also..I am still in a bubble...a bad bubble but a bubble all the same.

Someone sent me a link to join a platform that deals in forex that had USD 30 already loaded. I was so anxious and of course had no idea what I was doing ..finally, I just hit an x and stopped all trading and I made some money! 24cts!! I made 24cts!!!! That is 100% free money! 100% free money!

I am feeling better. I am feeling soooo much better. I have been feeling so afraid of everything lately. Today was a good day. I wrote twice. And each time I felt actually better..  (It has been a minute!!!! I am happy that I felt better than when I started. That feels good. Really good. Also one of the puppies chose me as a favourite... He adores me. He always follows me everywhere. Today he actually relaxed in my arms and started to sleep.. That was solo cool. ...I had to let him wake up cause I was cooking.... But I appreciated the love. Also today I listened to Laura.. It was weird. It was really good. It helped me with a few things. Spaces I had about places I have..perfect.

I made a crochet blanket about 3 years ago loved making it. .and I have been wanting to do it again. I thought about making the blanket for me, cause it is soo cute!!! Yesterday, an old friend got in touch, she said she wanted something like it. I said someone else could make it. Something kept nudging me, contact her, let her know you can do the work. I quote. She gets back and says she wants a smaller one.. I say will calculate and get back. Many hours later, I get back with a quote, and I am ready for the work. She accepts. Then I realise I already made this blanket. Never sold it. (With the good yarn) (just need to find it) !!!! WHAAT!!! Recommended someone else, she chose me!!! The work is like 70% done!!! WHAAT!!! Also rest of day... I had an appointment to make hair. (Miracle in itself) I prayed for fast work.  I couldn't get me to get out of  the house.. Kept procrastinating. Finally got out. Made it on TIME!!!! Got a Forward SACCO driver who is nice (can you bel...