Ten Thousand Buttons

... and it went weird...she basically told me I didn't have a real shot and that it was doubtful that I would get the job...OK cool...but something happened when I was there..I discovered that it is important to continue with things..very important to not give up on things.... someone started a sight and now has an office in Dusit2 and mine I am just let mine lie...I currently have access to 31,000 Kenyans I could be working with and I am not...I am just looking at me and feeling sorry for myself. Aso, I started thinking about employment...I can work with the things that I have instead of things that I don't have...continue with my world instead of looking for things that are outside me. Also..I am still in a bubble...a bad bubble but a bubble all the same.

Someone sent me a link to join a platform that deals in forex that had USD 30 already loaded. I was so anxious and of course had no idea what I was doing ..finally, I just hit an x and stopped all trading and I made some money! 24cts!! I made 24cts!!!! That is 100% free money! 100% free money!

I am feeling better. I am feeling soooo much better. I have been feeling so afraid of everything lately. Today was a good day. I wrote twice. And each time I felt actually better..  (It has been a minute!!!! I am happy that I felt better than when I started. That feels good. Really good. Also one of the puppies chose me as a favourite... He adores me. He always follows me everywhere. Today he actually relaxed in my arms and started to sleep.. That was solo cool. ...I had to let him wake up cause I was cooking.... But I appreciated the love. Also today I listened to Laura.. It was weird. It was really good. It helped me with a few things. Spaces I had about places I have..perfect.

I made a crochet blanket about 3 years ago loved making it. .and I have been wanting to do it again. I thought about making the blanket for me, cause it is soo cute!!! Yesterday, an old friend got in touch, she said she wanted something like it. I said someone else could make it. Something kept nudging me, contact her, let her know you can do the work. I quote. She gets back and says she wants a smaller one.. I say will calculate and get back. Many hours later, I get back with a quote, and I am ready for the work. She accepts. Then I realise I already made this blanket. Never sold it. (With the good yarn) (just need to find it) !!!! WHAAT!!! Recommended someone else, she chose me!!! The work is like 70% done!!! WHAAT!!! Also rest of day... I had an appointment to make hair. (Miracle in itself) I prayed for fast work.  I couldn't get me to get out of  the house.. Kept procrastinating. Finally got out. Made it on TIME!!!! Got a Forward SACCO driver who is nice (can you bel...

Today I woke up late, really late. I had a meeting and woke up about a minute before the meeting was to start.(I work from home so this is possible) The other meeting participant, called and apologized  because she had to fulfill an obligation so to reschedule!!!!!Woo hoo.... I need money, my usual sources are being difficult so I have to use new sources... then I realized that someone has been offering me money for a few days and I haven't been noticing...Woohoo!!!!  and I also have a chance to earn some money! I also managed to save up some dogfood from yesterday so I don't have to struggle with it now!!! cool!!!

Last weekend I got a bit of money. But it was more than I expected and seriously easy to get. Much easier than I expected. I love that I was able to pay a micro loan completely. I didn't think I would be able to and I was and it was solo cool. I love that I was able to pay it completely. That was very cool. I also love that I was able to pay a big portion of another loan I have. That was very very cool. Really very cool. Now today I started a YouTube Channel. I also posted one video. Just the one. I was afraid that it wasn't good, but I just watched it and it was actually kinda good. I don't know why I didn't expect it to be, but it was good. Really did.  No views yet. But I love so much that I like it. Very much. Ooh ooh... I also realized something I have enough money for food up to the end of the week. Enough food. I am extremely grateful for that!!! (it explains why I couldn't get water to save my life, today!)

......I wanted to make eggplant chips and the celery was for chicken stew. I had no designs for making them together and then today by chance googled the two and I can  make a delicious veggie stew with it!!! Looking for it. I have been looking for foods that are interesting and nothing like what I usually have. And I think I have found it.. I think it will be alright.