Ten Thousand Buttons

..... there is this phone that I thought was completely impossible for me ever to have in my life.. ever... then yesterday, I get a call from the phone company.. and they say that I can get the phone for a little less.. a little than I imagined it could cost... and I want I really want it... a real iphone... for me... !

.... there are things in my life that are working..I was just thinking about how the all jobs has been doing well, also which is really great, also I have managed to feel better..much better than before.. which is really cool for me!!

.... I am feeling right now... I am feeling good about me.. I am even feeling good about Mr. Angue.. I which is great.. also.. .. I have forgotten my train of thought...

.. am not feeling panicked... I am not feeling panicked about Mr. Angue.. We talked yesterday and he was a little menacing... and as a result I felt a little insecure and meditated and felt better.. and slept... and the house I thought I could live in, is available.. and I have 5 days to make the move.. money is in place, people things.. Ooh ooh ooh... I got that number.. remember hat number that was making me crazy.. I got it this morning.. again... I was quite happy with me...BTW the pay raise I received is legit!!

I finally did it, I finally told Angue that I want out, and it went better than I could have expected,  also there was a dispute about money, that I was handling, I was requested to give back some money, but the person who had given me the money made a point to give me a detailed list of the accounts... so they had to return. :-)... there is this girl in the office who is really awful to me, she goes out of her way to say really mean things to me... yesterday the person who signs her contract requested that she get a pay bump,  the overall boss said "No!!!" he he he he, don't forget he has agreed to increase salaries for  everyone else... but I also note I was happy when I saw that she was going to get an increment, I also felt that it was a good thing and it meant that I would also get the same, I did not get jealous or feel bad, I just got angry when she was mean to me, but I didn't feel bad about her impending increment.. but today!! Woo hoo!!!!

...  I have noticed that 2 people in this office have received salary increments without them asking.  They are just about to receive these huge ass pay hikes and they didn't even ask.  Also there is a guy who has gotten a  job with VERY good money and to be honest I am not sure that he knows... I am figuring ... I might be next!!!! Also I might have received another answer to question... of weight loss... I discovered some time back that I love, to the point of obsession dancing.. when music I love is playing I cannot help but jump up and dance... also I was thinking this lunch time that as with weight loss and exercises I really wanted to get an exercise  that I can do for hours that I love and that I can do without sacrifice and strain.. and I already have it and it came to me... as with that leaving Angue will be the same for me... it will be and it will be  as easy, and it will have all the characteristics that I love .. and finally...

..... in the last 7 days... or soo...  This morning.. I felt no bitterness or anger toward Angue.. I said the words, I forgive you.. and I felt much better about him, but when I considered going back with him, I just felt "No" but still peace .. I finally feel as though I finally have permission to leave and that feels soo good.. I think I stayed so long because I didn't feel worthy .... interesting... I also did some work at lunch time and I am feeling really amazing!!! which is really cool, I even have released some weird feelings toward a be-hated one... I also this morning, something fun happened to me, I was on my way to work and some guy stops next to me and asks me if we work in the same general area, I say "yes", and he offers me a lift, and I say "okay" and away we go.. he turns out  fun, and he tries to get my number... kind of insists, which  I like... but for some reason it doesn't come through... but it is okay.. or at least I will ...

.. Let us start with Friday.. no Thursday.. I was looking for new tyres for my car.. I happened to go on to a site that joins sellers to buyers, and just then I happened on a guy who is selling tyres, and he is offering  tyres for less than half of what I got them before!! It is a very good deal!!  Then on Friday I had the privilege to take part in a very good training for trainers.. something I have been wanting to do for the longest time..  (the 2nd one) then I got to my car to go home, and I had  a flat!! so I removed the things and I just sat there, not really knowing what to do.. I even cried a little. I tried to call people who could help me and no one was able or available... and then this guy out of the blue.. just walked up to me an helped me!! I couldn't believe it.. I was just there, star struck and shocked that this was happening.. then I had a lunch with this chick and it went really well, really well, it was fun, really fun.. and great!!! I am the one w...

.. who really I was feeling was undermining me and generally making me feel bad about myself. I really wanted revenge, I calmed down about the whole thing! and now guess what?!! She is not going.. she has some other important thing to do!!! woo hoo!

... I to tell someone who came really early to do some work at home, and I was soo in the vortex that she accepted easily to my request!! Also some the boss agreed for me to spend an extra night at a nice hotel.  This also means that I don't have to do that thing of waking up way too early... :-)

... of old..  you know... Guess, what I am viewing reasonably priced options!! This trip totally made it possible. I remember many times, I would stress, and if and when I could forget, it would go away, and even exzema is going down, I finally got the money... when I relaxed about all things.. and also I learnt  many things that otherwise I would not know.. especially having to do with this training things, it is possible it is possible. It is actually possible. I can actually do this.. for a living, and even a good living!

...  I was open to going to but I was going to be really busy might not have minded missing it.. guess what I received a call to say it was postponed... someone is sick!! woo hoo!!

... a  place which is positive even in the morning also one of the first things I am reading are words of praise from someone I worked with to my boss!!! :-) also something interesting I no longer have to post to receive visits on the jobs page, they come regardless.. which is sort of cool no? also I have this payment that has to be done for me to travel to SA., the person who was supposed to approve it had travelled and I had no idea how it was going to be done. I  thought about frantically calling the approver.. then I forced myself to relax then allowed the universe to just do this, and I got the idea to write an email and within a really short time everything was set and it was solved.. also an old case, someone asked me to lend them money, and for some reason, it was easy for me, I had no doubts, everything seemed alright, and it wasnt even someone I can say I know well, but my insides were okay with him. Even last month when he said he wouldn't be able to pay on time, I ...

... I just got a free banana. Also I managed to do a little work, also last night I had a fun night last night, also this afternoon the boss asked me for a document and I could get him a doc, it turns out I had done it badly and he had to run to somewhere for some reason, then I got a chance to retrieve my bad doc and replace with a good doc, also I had for the first time ever, It is fin

.. I have discovered why I have been feeling money all this time.. I am getting some money.. also I have some free perfume, I got free perfume... also after fretting for such a long time concerning something and finally giving up, the authorization came for me to travel!! and I did all of Bob Marley in one morning!! :-) although I am not all there... I am really enjoying the joy I have been feeling today in my heart.. also something I wasn't expecting is working out.. interesting thing is that it started working out after I relaxed.. :-)

... I finally had dumplings... also on this day I have learnt how to call numbers that are away from Nairobi.. also something really cool, I have managed with help to finish something that was really giving me head issues... also I enjoy very much that I did some clean up and ended up a little clean.. I also did the things that really I felt were quite urgent.. and it went quite well..

.... I am grateful that I have something to put in my mouth that will wake me up!!  Also something else that is working... I  have a follower on Twitter, and someone asked to join my group without any further advertisement from me.. Also meeting with an interesting lady went easy... she took my doc and it went well, I even got a few nice quality sweets.. which are my official freebie of 12 pm also I got to sleep and rest and I now I am feeling  awake and things. Also I have restarted saying 'thank you" and as a result all of my things are working out... 14 Nov. 2012 Today it seemed a little as though I had lost a letter that I had to make corrections on.. starting again would have been a little irritating, guess what, I found that although I had not saved it, I had not closed it either... woo hoo for me!! Also last week I got invited for a bash and had an interesting interaction with someone who is sort of sure he likes me! and today hearing the jang'o music and watch...

... very nice calender, I am back to music, I have my list of things to do ... also there was a play list on youtube I was looking for and now it is here in front of me... also all the things I am supposed to have done are done!!! Woo hoo! Also soon I will be able to go home!! Woo hoo!!

Someone close to me has been owing me some money and I have waited many months for it...  and today I called him and he said that he had in fact forgotten.. and would refund the money soon... also this past weekend my Inner Being councelled me on picking clothes from the line 3 times, twice I missed and ended up with wet clothes... he he but the freaky thing was being told about the elec coming back and it did, with such precision ...

... I am really feeling like my dreams are really big.. and I am beginning to feel ready for the to achieve them, also the more I work the more the website works for me.. also on the good side, people are joining the page without my help, also my world is  becoming really busy...

... I am back to doing the hider, with my computer. I am reading about an amazing guy!!! Yesteday I was blessed with freebie money.. got a great idea for the solar thing for moms... also got good advice on how to really help her.. which is really cool! Did I tell you I got a free apple?!!! :-) I got a little scare and in the end it turned out okay.. the ticket for my boss came through!!! Woo hoo!!!

.... I was getting info that I would have to do this bad and boring thing.. then last email.. no action needed!!! woo hoo, also I discovered yesterday that someone added some people into my page, and I have the paper for jobs already for work at home, and my heart is really buzzing for the house, and I am seeing  all these possibilities, so I have time and money... I cannot believe I am living my dream, as in  having a convo with an in the vortex fun!! Also I have discovered that parts of my travel are super dupa easy!! Also just had free lunch, free advice.. did I tell you that the lunch was amazing!!!!  Free Sauti Sol! Also I cannot believe it is already time to go home!! Woo hoo!!

.... yesterday I asked for the afternoon off to apply for my passport, then it want really bad, but I soothed and soothed and soothed and soothed and eventually I felt good enough, and I managed to finish something that was important to getting it done, and guess what, I managed.I had been wanting this morning to tell the powers that be that I wanted to do something for me before I got to work, but my inner being said 'no' to just go and finish then get to work. Then I got another idea to take the car, made everything easy, I managed and I was only normal office late!!!:-) Something else that is really cool I got a free CD, also realising that Cyrile is better than I think! I also continue to do really well in the money blog that continues to give me money and now it is time to go home!

... I got a free DVD on Saturday... I hadn't acknowledged it  but I did... and it was great!!! also I am talking to Earl and he is flying in this weekend... this weekend the weekend after Cyrille flew away!!! Can you believe that!!! amazing!!! also today I was looking for a number and for the life of me I could not find it and finally I did, where I was looking and managed to break a date, just the way I wanted to.. also I have been feeling weird the whole day and finally made peace to stuff and then I felt good, really good.. and also for the life of me I cannot figure out why I am feeling like I don't have to get the specs... I don't know why, especially because I have been getting really strong, Cyrille will give me money vibes.. also issues with passport .. and got enough money  to pay for new passport .. and also chicken and UG and also I can be really weird around Earl which is cool but I am thinking that I want to be happy this ti...

more money for me!! woo hoo!! also I am telling the truth and it is working... there are some money things that I have been wanting to do for a while but been putting it off for a while.

.. but not with the hardness, and now it might happen.. which is great.. although I might have to run.. I am also enjoying some extra money, and I have relaxed about my weight and I am finally loosing some.. I also believe that it could be because I have stopped wanting to make a point.. :-) also I have a wonderful breakfast waiting for me.. and last night I was really surprised by the result of the result.. and that funniest thing... I was having a hyper paranoid about something and it turns out it doesn't even matter.. and the it doesn't matter part came to me AFTER I stopped freaking out... and went general..

... I have another opportunity to wow myself and I will take it!! Also I have 3 days to me!1 Just me..also I am at 333 in my jobs page.. also this day is going well, I am finding that it is not yet 11.00 and I have done most of what I had to do.. just one more.. and I am back to reading emails for a living. And in other good news for me, salo is soon, and the end of this week is a holiday and also next week.. So, at lunch time I got some one to walk with, then I got a low fat, low cost delish meal.. then I got a ride back to the office, and was generally feeling good. Also I managed most of the things requested for by my boss. Also some that were not, and even other people and also got a little money from money page... life is good...  I think!!

..... I have this whole day seeing money signs... all day... I got what I wanted, I got the car for half the day... drove around...I discovered I had more booze points than I expected and was able to buy huzzy   darling something for him... I was pleasantly surprised, wanted some ogbono and got it in plenty and I discovered that lady is coming back so I better stock up on that  good stuff!! bought bacon jana, then discovered that hubby darling loves bacon... it was quite by accident... I got the call to buy bacon yesterday, and I did without siasa and he likes it... actually  I bought it for me... to add on to my cheeseburger to make it super special and as it turns out.. I discovered a place I can get cheaper meat pizzas!!!! and I made some bacon this morning and he loved it, he said that he had been wanting to buy but could never get it... thank you God.... also all of this day.... all of this day I have been getting the message that Cyrile would give me money... specif...

..... a  little visit from a lovely bird! .. nice and I have just discovered that soon, one or another, I will get a new phone, fully loaded with credit and all.... also later in the day, I was feeling quite awful and was not able to really get back my mojo, and went to the supermarket to get some booze and just as I was walking out the door, all of it fell, and most of it broke,and they asked me to stay and they would not let me leave and eventually they replaced everything that broke... thing is that the last time such  thing happened to me, they made me pay, and I got nothing back. So for me this was quite a thing.... a big free thing...issue of loan money resolved... which is great

... about the way people have been treating me, and wanting to clean up on it urgently... then I just thought, stop thinking about it!! and hey presto I feel great!! Also this morning I opened up my computer and found this program asking me to log in.. and I quickly uninstalled it!! forthwith!!! only to discover it came from our headquarters and that it was mandatory to have!! I just laughed... then I saw a little while later, an email giving instructions on how to download and install it manually!! So all was well.. I am grateful that I am feeling this good!! and I am still getting free money, from my  main page!! Also I was asked to wash some dishes, I am yet to start it is okay I can still do it tomorrow morning.. :-) also yesterday I had a dream that I had to adopt two children as they no longer had people to take care of them, one was really young, about 1 year old, and the other about 4 or 5 and at first I really didn't think I could make it especially with the older one, and...

.... more time to read those emails I have been wanting to read... also I have been having an issue with other family members and I calmed down on the whole issue and as a result they have come to my way of thinking.. and they have sort of come to my way of thinking.. Also my beloved pen is running... running... :-)

... first of all I am looking really good today.. I might take a photo of me :-)...also I am feeling good about things that are about me... and I am enjoying that also all visible workmates are away so I can watch youtube loudly to my hearts content, also boss is away so I can catch up on his email.. yesterday I got two miracles, I was leaving town after making my hair and something kept telling me all would be well although I was getting late and the matt I was in was stopping for really long periods and nothing seemed to be moving (BTW got info I was looking for) and when I got to the stage, I got a lift... from my boss, also I had a meal, got annoyed, got 100/- extra!! :-), also on Friday for the first time in a while I realised my IST doesn't have to come to me through buying!! also on Saturday, someone showed the exact car I want to Cyrile!!  ha ha also got good exchange with Earl.. also again I am feeling restless, really restless.. also there is this doc I didn't make la...

... I am feeling soo in love with boyfy!! Nice weekend all

... yesterday I got more than 800 page views and  many of them last night, I like that I got a complementary money :-) also something big.. there is no water at home, in the morning enough came from the tap so that I was able to have enough to heat, what was remaining was water to cool off the heated water, I had a little but might have needed more, I really made peace with the little water, then Cyrile darling gets more water... twice!!!! So even the maid will have a little to wash up stuff at home!!! Also there was talk from him to reduce drinking which is great. clearer head, cheaper.., also I had wanted someone to stay at home till the maid comes home and he was soo tired he was asleep when I left woo hoo.. I got the sitting space I like in the matt.. also someone is giving me the opportunity to earn 1500 for being alive.. and I have been really feeling that if I have to do this job then I should do it elsewhere and earn more, other people are doing it more and more.. I think i...

... someone was actually here... as in hits grew, grew!! Also, yesterday I managed to walk and this morning I  did some fat blasting cardio for 10 minutes, yesterday I washed panties, I am rich, I have been  meditating and doing processes, also I don't mind working hard for my website... also something nice, vids are flowing easily!! also time for home!! I am at home now!!! With internet!!!!! can you believe!!! and it is working internet, not just anything.... and it is working... in fact I am working the way I said was impossible.. really a chooser of tools is not a worker... truly. Also I just got a pity money like 9 Kenyan cents... he he.. and I am at home, doing nothing, just typing, also I walked successfully for the second day... with big pot and all, I wonder if this will help... also I wonder... I hope that all of this will be well.. also I am sooo very sleepy and the good thing is that I don't have to cook... not really and at the same time I don't have to wash d...

... 300 people being in my page and every time  I got near someone left the group! Finally today, I got to 300 then 3 more people joined, and also I am making more money and yesterday I learnt that I have another opportunity to be with Cyrile while things are hard, and just enjoy life! Also I have now an answer about my bundles at Airtel!!! Also now it is time for home!!! and that is great!! Also last night was a little fun, we drunk some bottles and just talked...  that is when I realised that I had gotten  another opportunity, which means that it is time to meditate and processes so that I start loving life again...I have also discovered that I can tell the truth and still make money!

... less than one hour to go home. also I managed to NOT have lunch today, which is ubber cool, so I am starving... I am looking at a car that I love and that I have intentions for..  got to go for home!!

... woke up, put water, managed to halfway meditate... (also noticing the odd thing that when I sleep with TV, things go bad, when I sleep with meditation, things improve... ) relations were good, I woke up in the middle of the night and horrific thoughts on  and read Prison to Praise and it really calmed me, even enough to go back to sleep and in the morning things were cool, hits are coming in WITHOUT my help in the jobs page, also I had a delicious 7-10 minutes with this guy from the office who is fast becoming my favorite workmates, it was soo easy and light and fun.. I think he actually likes me.. and on this day when I was looking good!! :-) and the thing that I thought was mandatory and was stresssing me turns out to be optional!!!!! woo hoo and 2 hours overtime!!!!

... I checked from yesterday that I got some money... I even got a new idea on internet that could be useful. also I have lost a little weight... Some old clothes are fitting better... :-)

.. and really it felt like it is all over.. then I talked to him this lunch time and he was nice, for the first time in such a long time.. and I actually have been feeling better so much better, he even sort of apologised to me.. a little ... he even did something for me

.....got it and all bosses are gone so I can go to!! this early!! too!!

... because I think I have escaped something.. anyhoo, I should not have been going there to begin with.. it reminds me of last week... I got lots of money from boyfy, and bought some clothes I look good in.. also I discovered today that he weight I had lost, remain lost, till now... also I have finished writing 2 reports... woo hooo to me!!!

.... surprise for me... yesterday I had a sort of  'vision' about a blue cheese burger.. and guess what Cyrile gave me a K this morning for lunch... so guess what.. my surprise to me is to have the blue cheese burger for lunch!!!!! and it was wonderful... also my jobs page has just earned a little money... though really there was no click.. also jobs again are coming easily and again people are joining my page... which is just perfect!!  also, I have received like 10,000 jobs.. he he he ..and 2hours overtime!! I am on a role!!! might even travel!!

... my jobs page is becoming regular... as in the hits are coming even if I don't advertise or try to get people or hits... :-)... maybe it is time to try a little.... also got some money from Cyrile after seeing sign... then just seen birthday greetings from Abraham-Hicks... also in the midst of doodling I solved a problem I was having... also there are more jobs  that are still valid than I expected... I am even getting  request to post on my page!! :-), also, something nice.. for the first time in a really long while I was smaller.. yesterday, I felt a fatty "stone" in my boob while I slept and today no... also the fitting of the dress I am wearing is soo much better.. also I am feeling like I can walk much faster than before.. and I think I will walk a little.. I like that... also I am finding that the things I have been doing are working... also, I woke up this morning  and instantly started criticizing Cyrile, then for the first time in a very long time I ...

... I got my credit for the month... so now I have some credit... for me!!! also I got a good conversation, also feeling a little better about my life.. I was just thinking about the way everything is shitty, but that is really ok now, I am not feeling great but now  I am feeling better. I am thinking even if my life is about to end, doesn't mean that I have to cry about it. Also things always seemed shitty before with Cyrile but they always have worked out so maybe all will be well.                                                                                                                                          

... at lunch time nothing was working my way cause of many delays... then I discovered that, actually everything was working my way!!:-).. alsi

... I was very very determined to get the eggs for breakfast, then when I got to egg buying place the guy was not there ( first time in 6 months) then I get to office (on time by the way) and still no boiled eggs... then I remembered that I still have the tuna with flavor so a sandwich was an easy answer, also I got a very nice job today!! also, finally my boss is in a big hurry to leave so this means that I can leave at exactly 4.30pm woo hoo!! then I got snacks... I love that!! I might be able to shop early today.. and get dropped home!! woo hoo!!  I stayed but.... I will reach 13,000!!

.... the insurance money has come in... money is also streaming in from my jobs page... also jobs are also streaming in... also I was just now taking a nap on my chair, and then the bossman came in and I got message to open my eyes and check that direction.. just in time!!

...,I  kept seeing money signs and in the end, I got forgiven some 1200KES by sis.. then on Sunday I saw 080W  X2 and Cyrile, gave me KES 50...:-) also I am feeling better about my anger... I am really feeling better about my anger... I am feeling quite happy right now.. which is great!! I managed to buy all the noodles and tuna fish I can muster and some juice... and I walked a little, ate a little, thought good thoughts,  also the number of clicks on my jobs page has gone up!!! So money is streaming in!! I am listening to this  stream of vortex... also I am thinking, as the page for manifestations becomes smaller and smaller, maybe it is time to just read my own pages... also I have access to all these free Abraham vids but still I want to buy!! :-) I know it is time! Also, I love where I am, I will be grateful... today I can leave at exactly 4.30pm!!!! also I am thinking of letting this whole thing go, just let it go,

... and had some of the breakfast yoghurt and it disappeared  so I finally managed to have the rest of the sexy egg sandwich which quickly inspired sameness... I have money for the weekend!!

... I barely managed to wake up on time.. which is alright, got a car to help me to cross the road, which was cool, I managed to walk quickly to the office, a nice lady gave me credit on the bread, then I opened my desk and there was this money from yesterday that someone had paid for the contribution, I also saw all the things I am supposed to see, that have to do with money... so maybe this anger is the right thing.. and even Cyrile was okay, the keys have been found... also I got a check, my FREE MONEY check.. and remembering that I created that money out of thin air! Youtube converter is back on!!!! Woo hoo!! also this day I have seen this successful looking blog from Nairobi.. also I heard a rumour of the travel of my boss, and my impending travel, and I have soo much work it is making me excited, also there is something I have been ignoring... and guess what I didn't have to worry, it is already done!!!!!  and now  it is time to say goodnight!!!

... still angry, but now I am feeling better, I am practically elated!! so I wanted breakfast, and had no money  and I kept going to the coffee station and coming back... he he then finally someone gave me their donation and suddenly I had enough to buy breakfast... also I managed with much difficulty to collect coins for busfare, then went to the stage and got a lift, my money page is improving in pageviews and numbers, so far 8 people have joined in the week.. and so far I am getting jobs, and hits and money, also money cars, those I have been seeing plenty of... and also Cyrile's money car and yesterday and today...

... feeling money... also was doing genuine work research and got a vacancy... and a valid one..

.... someone has added like 35 people to my page... which means that I am already at 200!!! without even trying!!! also there is something I have been wanting for a  while... something big, and it happened, I also made a little money yesterday, and I am working today.. and that extra food I ate, totally cured me, I am great now!!! also old boyfriend invited me to dinner, which was a fun thought, also I got a marriage proposal yesterday.. and didn't even know it..

... is done

..... Someone has proposed marriage. also I have been quite stressed about this jobs page, and today without making a real resolve to, just to do the fun parts of my jobs thing and its beginning to respond

... 170!!! I have reached 170 and my hits yesterday were 940!!! almost the magic figure of 1,000!!! and its time to go home!

..... I am already at 150 members in my jobs page in FB... it is growing really fast...which is fabulous!! also yesterday with Cyrile was perfect, in that he wasn't there, I kept him some food, (which he didn't eat)... also we are still playing our games.. also last night I managed to journal which made me feel soo much better about being alive

... I noticed my boss was annoyed and thought it was about me... just realised it is about him... also there is  a workmate who is back to being my friend, which is really cool.. also I knew some stuff... also I continue to grow, in leaps and bounds.. and the money is also coming in... it is actually working this things of mine!!! I might reach 170 today which means that 200 by end of week as an aspirable possibility also I am edging closer to 10,000 page views in the month.. also jobs are not  lacking, I am thinking of things I can do, and also finally brethren,  It is time to go home at least for me!!

.... I realised that I relaxed about something that terrified me ( a loan I haven't paid) I decided to relax, and later discovered that it had nothing to do with me... also yesterday my Inner Being made a note to remind me that about all the times I have relaxed about things and they worked out... also I have finally found a job on my own, from a website.. you know like I am supposed to in general.. also I have access to this blog that has all this info on power... one of my most favourite things in the world.. also looking for and finding jobs is an actual possibility!! I  might be  in a position to go LIVE!! I am also just feeling the utmost joy in my heart.... also I remember the last 2 nights and they are great!

I am in love... and there was this amazingly beautiful, YOUNG man today who was staring at me at lunch.. also finally just had the most delicious convo with my love...also getting them jobs.. them jobs... woo hoo I have also almost finished these minutes...

... Earl talked to me for a while and we laughed which was great, I am at 10,000!!! which is great... also at the tea, my boss did a revenge thing... seemingly just for me.. :-) also I have the car so transport will be easy, also  I have finally managed to get that internet thingi so now business should be LIVE! it is 4 minutes to home time, also I had somethings to do, about 5 renew access, pay elec, withdraw and deposit extra money buy the internet thingi ( that was a by the way) and I managed,.. and the boss got in 5 minutes after me :-)

... I have a little flutter in my heart.. I wish it was happiness for happiness sake but it is not... and that is also okay... I got many requests to join my page, one more and I reach tripple digits.. also many referrals, infact most requests were referrals.. I have also discovered a function that can post jobs on the site during the day.. even if the actual work is done at night... which is the direction I want to go.. also I am at triple digits.. BTW.. there is even a number (1) next to my page on the list... :-), meanwhile, so much activity, talk of passion.. much much passion.. also lunch time managed to pay rent and credit card, there was only one person at the counter while I was there, then after that there was just me and service was just for me... I was in and out in 5 minutes, I even had a little time to shop... also there is soo much activity in my page which is fine.. and really cool... also many referrals still, it is a full time job, I tell you!! also I have car...

..how to do this jobs page thing.... I already got this morning  more hits than I got all of yesterday... which is great ! think... also I got my revenge, it was action mixed with emotion... I am getting the jobs.. which I am enjoying a whole lot!! Also did I tell you, a makanga gave us back money in the matt!!  also today, so far, more hits in the new page than ever before.. also already money, also almost 100... just nine left!! also I have the car so I can travel far and wide! :-) and I have it again tomorrow!1 :-)

... as I was going home I realised that I had found what I was looking for in terms of a dream man... and he already says he loves me!! It is sort of surreal and also I didn't have to work for it, also last night was a good night with boyfy, and had an interesting night.. also this morning he ironed my clothes so that I could sleep more in the morning... then I got to work early enough to get breakfast, and later someone washed my cup for me, so that I didn't have to, and the thing I thought was bad, turned out quite OK and it included all the things I wanted... and I have sold one already.. also I cannot believe how relaxed  I am about everything... also this morning I was quite upset about the juice buyer, and it turns out, it is okay, it really okay, and the things she brought are the ones I wanted... also the facebook jobs page is working sooo very well!!! so very well!! I am beginning to get constant hits... I also have a solution for my weird hair...

...good happened to me today.. but I cannot remember what... also, the electricity bill came and it is soo much lower than expected, I am still getting requests to join my page which is still awesome, also something really weird has happened, someone has gotten me into a business without my knowledge, I was upset but now I am thinking I will just sell the stuff... also I am talking to someone I like a great deal..now I am off home.. to do good things.. 

.. sad and blue about the vacancies I was receiving... and now guess what  I got a super juicy one ... private.. many... my little page of jobs is beginning to work!!! Also last night.. delicious meal... I am desperate to get people to join my page.. and I managed to distract myself for six seconds and there it was someone asking to join!! Finally!! Also I had been having a little trouble getting jobs to post, and now they are more than I can.. and I have been consistently... :-) and Earl Simmons is blowing up my FB!! :-) also sometime back I got an invite to attend a game in another country and I couldn't mostly cause, well I live currently with Cyrile... but yesterday I discovered that it was supposed to be a free trip... the break I had been craving for...Also I am finding new places to get jobs... which is sooo very cool!! Also my boss has left on the stroke of 2.00pm... which translates to... home time!!!!

.... I managed to get  to the office on time, though my boss was not in the office, also there was something that was stressing me that doesn't need to be done!! Woo hoo!! I get free lunch today! good lunch too! I just got 2 pieces of chocolate and so did a well thinking friend, did I tell you on Friday I went to the  commisary after shopping was feeling tired and lethargic, and just wanted a lift to the stage... guess what.. I got a lift to my home!!!! and last night I had a small pre-paving and the evening  with Cyrile was fun... I didn't even complain in my head!!!! (for me this is really big!!) also last night and this morning I was dreaming about the time when I was the girlfriend of OOC and the magical times we had, and guess what? He just walked to me to give me a bit of chocolate!! :-) I have found a fun solution to promoting my page!! Also my elec bill finally came and there is a balance of 761.66, I just had a free lunch, for the longest time I have been wanting...

.... is a big week for me... already by salo is in, I have already had 2 free lunches this week, also a wink from God, Cyrile might travel.. if we are able to raise 80K... I found something really easily for a friend.. my page is getting soo many requests to join!!! AND they love to view pages... as soon as I post there are soo many page views!!! Also walked out of the house, was not feeling well and didn't want to walk.. guess what, I got a lift, right to the office.. Also yesterday I was away from the office, and I was asked to confirm information from my email, which would have been  difficult and expensive,   then I got an urgent call, asking me to change the information I was looking for... thereby confirming the information!!! I walked home, mostly and I kept seeing all these money signs and then I discovered that my salo was already in the bank... in  1.5 days!!!! I managed to pivot on an issue and now it is sorted,, also something that causes me stress, has been r...

.... I am succeeding... I am actually making money, my jobs thingi, it is actually working... I am actually making money on it... soon I will receive a cheque, soon I will be earning actual extra money from this... this could actually work, I was listening of a the passion of a man for the thing that he  does for a living, and it is a difficult thing that requires patience and

.... becoming normal!  also I have discovered that I have lost a little weight, I had a good evening with boyfy who even sent me some phone credit. I am having a wonderful morning, I have  someone actually ask to join my jobs page, and someone sent me a request for a vacancy.... :-) I think it is weird but they did ask... so that is my driftwood!, also I have 9 new people in by jobs page... I just had a really delicious convo with old Patrick.. I cannot believe how good I have been feeling of late!! So I have finished one minutes.. 2 to to go!!

... something a little vengeful, and my Inner Being has no problem with it!! Also I am getting the things that I want!!! ( the jobs postings that is... ) also I have made some small money which I am finding quite encouraging and also today I have a hit post!! Also someone who has been stressing me might be away from me in 6 months...  I finished, finally the looong. meeting minutes.. tomorrow it is just to read through and send!! Woo hoo!!

..... I have been thinking about something.. yesterday I walked, I was in a crisis, and when I left, I heard a voice in my head, that to go ahead and walk ( I was changing my mind) that at the end of the walk I would be all right, and I was, I was even encouraged to apologise to someone and I didn't feel it was my fault.. and it solved all things. I was informed that my method was approved of. Also someone has been causing some stress, but now I have found a way to solve my issues without him which is perfect!! Also yesterday, I discovered this series, which I had previously dismissed was good! and I like that. At present I am exhausted, therefore I wish to go home.

.. during today's meeting I noticed I was getting my swirl moment... also I have lost a little weight, also I got une espece d'apology from my Mister... also today I discovered that I received money from my money sites, I am grateful I didn't give up, also Meester was nice managed to do something small..

.... nice night last night... it was okay... then this morning ( I was up since 2.30am..) and at some point I decided I wanted a little cuddle, I even imagined it a little, and then I let the whole thing go and just thought of other things.. then I went to the bathroom, and I thought, I should tell him to come to bed... ( he was sleeping on the couch...) then I instead asked.. he took some few minutes.. he came back to bed, then gave me a cuddle... and this thing is that it was something I actually created!!! in those few minutes, I created it,... also I picked money... :-) and I have been seeing my money signs everywhere... like 5 yesterday, so far today seen one, and I also I have just discovered that I made 'finally' some money!! 1600 hits later... and it is really great!! It feels good, also I have paid the first part of my electricity bill, also, you know my two ' friends ' well they have reformed... they are now great!! positive and fun!! Can you believe it???!!  ...

I am feeling free again.. also people are taking time off, maybe I can do that too.. may be it is my time to do that.. So this past weekend, I had a thing with this chick where she made me feel like a boob, then the next day, I cured myself of a disease so that I could meet a cousin, who also made me feel like a boob!! then later Jimmy made me feel like a major boob... (funny I didn't still make the connection) anyhoo.. at the same time... I have been making money,

... first time in a while my stomach is not super bloated ( just reasonably sooo :-)) also this morning, I rediscovered some truths about me... :-( also, I decided not to worry about something and it sorted itself out... also I am listening to a whole new list of musics!!!!  and in general I am feeling a little lighter.. which is quite great... I am also having a great day!!!  Also  I think that I have to clean clean clean, and imagine and imagine and imagine, I went to lunch with my workmate who normally irritates me, I imagined, and she was great!! Also the other friend.. she was great!! AND it is raining hits, hallelujah, its raining hits... Amen!!!!

... interesting... so to speak.. I have been so happy, Cyrile is being soo great, we are actually happy... this morning I got money back...

... I didn't have the intention but I set the record on largest number of hits in a day....  637!! for the new jobs blog... which was really quite cool.. I got a hit post for admin asst... 108 individual views.!!! then I managed to finish paying rent and card, and something very interesting is unfolding.. I haven't yet posted a job yet and it is already getting hits :-)... also this morning after morning glory Cyrile was amazing, he put for me water to wash, he even ironed my clothes:-)  he further offered to be doing it daily.. :-) also something... I have this month many things to pay for but I have the money.. I have the money!!! Also I can go home!!!

... I have today a hit post... a post that all people like that they recommend to others.. I think that so far, my hits are nearing 500 or have surpassed that figure... I managed to pay for rent and it was relatively easy and fast, I even made it on time to eat!! Also I am noting that my boobs are fitting all into my bra :-)

... started late because I woke up angry... :-) but finally at about lunch time things started happening (actually they started in the morning when my boss didn't expect me to go for a meeting I didn't want to go to... ) then I managed... barely to finish typing a meeting report.. :-) then suddenly everything I needed to do was ready.. even a document that had been given to a boss who had it, (I had to steal it back from her office :-)) and all the things I had to do, suddenly I did in about 10 minutes, then the great  I started to feel better.. and I managed to talk to someone I usually have such great trouble with so easily, I met people from a long time ago and it was weirdly super easy. Then I worked hard to make things easy for the friend I was meeting for lunch and she asked me where I wanted to go.. I said Mediteraneo!!! Of course!! Lunch was amazing... and free, and I was 45 minutes to get back to the office and guess what, boss not there!!!!

.. my work life and realised  that I have always, ALWAYS! had relaxed jobs ALWAYS!! where I had plenty of time to just max and so nothing.. which has always been great! Which I think is why I am having so much trouble now, :-) but things are getting better, I am thinking up ways for a better life :-) also I have been having the nicest, fun positive conversations with Olga.. also this weekend, I remembered that all my life, I have been having these ideas that later.. 5, 7 years later become real hits, consistently.. so now I am thinking that, this weekend, it was easy getting on with Cyrile, even yesterday when he came home completely annoyed, I tried to do as little as possible and tried to think positive thoughts and froze as I went to sleep, and guess what we talked about it in the morning, and it went well and he changed his mind about things, and soon he was chatting happily... wink, wink, nudge, nudge,

... this evening... for food!! I already have the baby bok choy, and fried rice and chinese pepper steak... that is it, it is also almost time to go home.. found some ingredients I may need, and they are not as expensive as I thought.. it is 6 minutes to home time and my holiday is officially over...

... I checked the new site and  there were 2 pageviews!!! :-) very happy, also I am ooh.. thank you for indulging me dear!

... yesterday I was looking for jobs, and couldn't find any, today, my email is  awash with jobs, even from job!!!!  and also (aldo) I have found the place from which I can work today.. also...  I am over 1,000 pageviews ( officially) in the new jobs page.. It is time to go home.. it has been a wonderful day.. I am cleaning up... I am feeling really good and now it is time to go home!

.... sooo wonderful this morning... I woke up, and had issues but by morning I was feeling fantastic about that... and I am loving it, also I started saying " thank you " first thing!!! and since I have been feeling really good, I have food and coffee and things, and guess what, all my work " neighbours " are away so guess what I will be doing all day... watching real Abraham at work!! also this morning on my way to work, I borrowed money from Cyrile ( which is a story for  a different sentence...) and in the matt,(BTW I took a 070) I gave them 100KES and they asked me if I had 10KES and I am wondering if they want to charge me 30 (and I wanted to complain but I changed my mind... and guess what?!! he gave me back change for 90KES!!!!!!!!!!! I paid for the first time in 2 months 10 shillings... I also I have been feeling quite good, also I have been noticing that ever since I gave up the girl, that I am doing more work.. I am doing more work, and I am feeling better...

.... applied my secret way to the new site and it is already going well, and I am lovin it!! I love how from day to day there are many changes, I love how easily the new site has changed and how everything now is just easier..and for once.. WORKING!!!! I even have made some KES5.05!!!! Thank you very much, Father... also yesterday, that thing that I wanted happened, after I let it go, and made arrangements to live without... also today Cyrile offered me the car!! :-) also, I really really believe that I will NOT earn overtime!! Maybe :-(, I am actually enjoying just the posting.. not just looking at the stats, (which by the way is beginning to stress me...) but just the posting... but all these things they are so much fun and I am discovering mystery, secret jobs.. I am praying that I can leave NOW!!!!  

.... I have been having issues with Cyrile of late and I have been wanting him very much to 'go away!!!!!!'... guess what yesterday he told me that he was going away for work for 2 days! he he he he, I  am feeling clear about the things I want to do, and I no longer feel afraid.. I have a new youtube digest... that makes me feel happy! Also getting where I am wrong, oh sooo wrong... I also discovering how successful she really is.. and it is sort of cool!!! I even got another job that I was looking for... and finally... hits... also I got a chance to get that thing I wanted... and said 'no' also the person I have been wanting to avoid, was not in today  :-).. as has been the usual for a bit, I have been having trouble with Cyrile, and something that helped was a focus wheel... of all things..

... what.... someone sent me an application for one of the jobs I posted... he he he, wrong.. but that means that someone is looking at the adverts.. :-) I managed again, to do the focus wheel, BOPA and RoA!! and I am feeling better.... aussi... I am earning legit overtime!!!! Also it is confirmed, I am not paying elec this month! So... now have now things to do during weekends... when I am not sleeping... yeah that is it.

... getting money... much money from my job sight... much more than any normal time!! so much so I am feeling guilty... but now I know it is time, I also avoided someone I really wanted to avoid and now for the first time in a really long time I am going to do a process... to soothe me.. and I have time and space!!! I managed!!! I managed to get my vibration cleaned up a little I did a process..... AND I am feeling wonderful!!!!!!!   I am making more and more money!! AND I am having the wildest time listening to Abraham!!! What a day!!!! did I tell you I have finally... time and money.... fortuitousness.. got to me in a way that makes me laugh, but still I have it... and I tried to give it to someone who refused it!!! 2 people actually.. I can do this... I can actually do this...

.. I wish to list my achievements this morning.  Well I had something to organise fairly quickly and I in the morning and at the same time I had to attend a training... so you know what happened we couldn't go on with the training cause the website would not load, and we were asked to take a break.. in the end it was moved to Wednesday, and I had a little time to quickly organise the thing I had to... also I have had a click this morning, and it seems I also got some more clicks last week, so that is succeeding which is great!! It looks like this might work... this might work.. I only spent 2K this past weekend.. which is perfect.. also I am thinking that, again it has come to me, I know ... also I am feeling more confident about these things that I want... AND I can take 30 days off, I have enough money (cash money) for 2 months.. that is 3 months.. I can actually take 3 months off and work on these things I think are soo great... also the furniture I have at home.. I remember tha...

... that I have a break!!! there is this thing that has been stressing me and I have  just discovered that the 1st meeting I have to set is for Wednesday, not Monday as I had thought :-)... today I drove to work... just drove to drive... and it was sooo great! Also, again I am getting all this good info on the things that I feel I want to do.. :-)

... it seems to me I got the greatest no of recorded pageviews for a day.... EVER... it didn't translate into money but still EVER!!!! even the new jobs page got soo many hits,....also the old page I changed the settings a little and now it looks quite good, also I have hot water at my disposal, which is quite cool, also money is abounding, also someone yesterday told me how confident  and self-loving sounding I was, and sure about the things that I am ..my car is getting repaired today... I love that I have possibility to repair my car further... also I realised that if Cyrile looses the car, then I get money back (maybe) :-)... this is my year for money back!... also I have been hearing to all these stories of thriving!!!! I managed to get the money in to the FDA...

... where to get traffic, I actually already have a few hits on that my new page... my new old page, I am really feeling like this is really going to work for me, also this very site, after the posts became many then the page views started growing on their own, and it always happens that when I add a new post... so maybe it will be the same with this... also I posted the the job in that market place and I am getting soo  many page views :-)  also something I like about this, is that it is really easy for me, I know where to get the jobs, I know how to post them the way I like, I know how to get one or two extra hits a day, I know how to do it, I really know how to do it, and there ways I can find out all the things I need to find out about  that I currently don't know.. Also I am ridiculously good at getting cool free pens and money for alcohol!! Also I had a very interesting call from someone who wants to make me a millionaire... also was told I can make me int...

It is coming true.. all this is coming true... the money is coming in, and has been for a while  only I have not been noticing. I thought it would come from Cyrile, but it has not been, it is all me.. and it is pouring... :-) also, the money for the fixed deposit is coming soon... ( there was a whole lot of push for the hurrying, and me me I was waiting and now it seems to have been the correct decision), also I have a new funky cup that holds more water, so more hot water for me...I also just found the email address I was looking for... and I have finally started working!!! :-) ... also yesterday, I decided to let go of that desire to be a serogate west African and just cook food that I know... and I did, and it was great!!! (at least I liked it!) also last night was a little fun, just the way I wanted it... also I got really angry at Cyrile today and although it wasn't spiking... you know... I didn't let him know.. even when I said bye, my voice was even was steady, als...

.. I am going to make it be more positive.. also at this second I am feeling so much love and love for the ECF!!! and that it is more successful than ever.. also it is 11th of June and I checked electricity and I owe - 7.43KES!! he he he, also things are great with Cyrile, also I am loving how much love I feel for the things that I want... this thing that I want.. I am grateful  that mid-week will be end of this week.. also did I tell you the amount owed to me by google is €40!! only 30 to go before payment!! also I was having trouble with what to write inside my evaluation and I put it off, and Friday, I found the right everything.. the right everything.. and now all is well, I even remembered today to do all my personal admin stuff, also I have completed all my work for today!! All of my work for today.. and I believe I can go home now... maybe.. :-)

... really near me, lovely birds, big ass birds. (see left :-) I spent sometime there, really enjoying them.  I really loved enjoying the birds.  Also  barely managing .. but all is well..

.. I have been having this quote in my head  You cannot have a happy ending to an unhappy journey. --- Abraham, yesterday.. and guess what it was the quote of the day yesterday!! I have just seen it today... also yesterday I was having a celebitchy morning.. and started getting angry about something, then I realised that I had felt this before, then I started to thank God and a few minutes later I listened to a bit of grid work in Abraham, and I realised all was well, and it ended up quite alright! Guess what I saw today... a chipmunk... I thought I was mistaken but I saw a reddish brown bushy tailed rodent with black and white stripes!! also I have managed to settle my debts, then something that was making me lethargic is not happening any more, also my contract is being renewed, I might get proper car insurance today.... things are better than I think... also I was in the middle of writing and email  pre-answering a query, and I get an email about the same in question form...

There is something I discovered last week, there is someone I have a crush on who visited me last week, and according to the things someone was telling me he has interests in me!!! woo hoo!! It is nice to know... also my Cyrile likes to take care of people... that is his thing he requires to take care of people, he needs  to be needed... just an observation,... then this morning, I came to work feeling really positive an ampt!!! Also this morning I carried food and I didn't know if I would get space inside the small fridge as all the people who use it come to the  office earlier than me... then I checked and it was empty and I didn't have to have the food lopsided....also I managed to meditate, also the afternoon, I was working.. I have actually been working the way I pre-paved... all in all, perfect day.... also I am getting something.. if you want to be caught.. you will be, every time! I can stop looking to catch and those that are trying to hide will find better ways...., ...

.. that I am enjoying my miscellaneous pics and I enjoy that although I thought I had stopped I hadn't and the new ones are just marvellous... like Arunda... also the other day, Sunday, I put on a tight ass sweater and it fit well!! Woot! also I am forgetting to mention, I finally received money for salo, which is great! Also, I finally got money this month from ECF45... € 0.26! And something I was thinking about, this morning on my way here... here, I  had been worrying about Cyrile and his intentions, and I realised it didn't even matter, all I have to do is make a decision and align with it.. and it doesn't even matter what that decision is.. something good for me, Ah... guess what the money is ready!!!

... while I was listening to CD No. 6 of the Sedona Method, I discovered that what I was doing wrong, I was wanting to change things so quickly and so hard, it is time for me to accept things as they are, make peace with where I am.. make peace with where I am, make peace with where I am.. it seems to be thing that is missing in my current programme, also I have been listening to Dolly Parton and Kenny Rogers.. lovely music!! Also just received info about business, helpful, a place to start... also did I tell you, yesterday.. not a drop of alcohol!! also I am feeling particularly in love right now... I am liking that I know so much that, also I wanted to let you know the overtime money for April is coming through in a few days :-), also something I am finding really very exciting, I have discovered a new series!!! It sound so exciting with all the things that I want!! also  I really wanted a soda to go with my free noodles and I remembered that during the change of desks,...

I have just discovered what ails me, and it is not what I imagined... and I have some work to do, also that money is on its fast track to me, and of course it feels like money, which means that I have to thank God!, also I am just remembering many moons  ago, I was collecting pictures and I happened on a picture of banana passion fruit and I spent some time thinking good thoughts about it  and that weekend I happened on the market and there they were, at an affordable price... also the time I started obsessing positively about salmon and that weekend I got a meal just for me, salmon salad!! It was one of the best meals I have ever had,. Also this morning there is thing I am applying for and the whole application process was easy...

On this day, the day has mostly started well... also received news that there is no way I can be here after 2.30 pm even if I wanted... woo hoo, it is time to sleep again!!!! I am  remembering yesterday seeing this beautiful bird of which I wanted a picture of a bird and I actually managed to capture it and at the same time it appeared in the picture.. :-( only now I cannot find it :-( , I am appreciating so much  that I have lots and lost of meditation videos I can download and  meditate on.... and I have found  a way to get the music I want today, not some other day in my phone!! It is officially 5 minutes to home time, and I am listening to the most beautiful music!!! Love, Me!

... seeing the old car for the boyfriend and it seems he will get it today, it really seems that he will get it today!! It is wonderful... it is beginning to seem to me that he will get all these things... all these things, and I have a part to play.. as in a big one... also I am thinking after I take care about him, I can take care of me and my houses!!!! Also guess what I have finished the section of the course and I got 100% twice!!!!  Woo hoo! I

I thought really thought that I wanted to do something outside the house, and guess what, an old and fairly crazy ass friend (=  much fun!)  has invited me to do something, also my sister has invited me on Sunday, I hope that I can go, (hey I can use that trip to go see the old house!!!) And you know what else, I make up for niceness with craziness!! :-) AND I am beginning to believe that it is ok! :-)

I am sleeping!! I am literally sleeping on my desk right now, how is that great? My boss is away on mission so he cannot see me sleep on my table, also I have been listening to the grid process more and I like how I am understanding it more... I am also grateful that I know exactly where I am and I am grateful I know what to do about it. I also like that soon it will be lunch time and I will be able to hide in the office of the boss and sleep a little  and I managed,

Well for one thing I managed to pivot on the subject of, Cyrile this morning, I kept wondering why I was angry to begin with..I only remembered later, when I had already forgotten about it and was already liking him and feeling better about him.. and things.. also I am happy I managed to pivot... also I knew life was getting better when I passed a shop and guess what they had, coke light!! at KES 60!!!! Also yesterday my sister gave me solutions... there was something I thought would be thoroughly painful, and she is thinking up new painless ways for me to do this.. and all is well.. also I invited people for a meeting and gave wrong info... it turns out it was the right info!! All is well.

... in the evening, I got home and my boyfriend handed me 2000KES!!!! You see I have been doing my shenanigans on money, and  I have been asking specifically for Cyrile to give me money and he did, he gave me money!!!!! I said to give me less, he decided to give me more... also my latest creation thingi has been his car back, this morning one of the first cars I saw was one resembling his... at least from the front... and then someone else is selling a car, and guess what... it is the exact same car!!!  I am officially re-starting my shenanigans for his car!! Also this lunch time I went to get take away because  I was in a meeting during our lunch our, a colleague was also ordering from the counter and guess what he even gave me money to pay for my lunch!!! And there was even diet coke!! Also something fun and interesting, yesterday I noticed something weird with Cyrile, he was sleeping quite close to me and faced me for most of it, quite intimate and nice....

... really annoyed at someone, I feeling as though they are meddling, and as a result  I don't have to feel guilty about not having lunch with her.. I have just noticed respite, the person I owe 500 bob didn't show up also one last present of today, it is now 4.31pm and my boss is already gone for the day!!!! Woo hooo!!

... good news!!! My boss says he has an engagement outside of Nairobi the whole day Friday!!!!! Woo hooo!! I can leave at 2.00pm!!! Also Cyrile is a weird talker... yesterday  I told him that I can ask anyone any question and after some insisting he said that he would like to join my cult!! :-)  Also I have been thinking that it is great that I am getting my relationship with Cyrile to be good, also it seems that I maybe getting my act back together.  Something that is out there that is really cool is that there is a market out there, a place where I can put my adverts, you know for my situation, and  something else, it is growing, so there are like even more people there.. and I today learnt what I was doing wrong, I can make and effort to do the write thing and at the same time work more consistently... it is good, and free!!! Oh yeah, and I have hot water! and the wink wink, nudge nudge thing I ordered for in November last  year is here! :-)

... I am feeling better.. I came in this morning with a hangover... I drunk too much.. but now after many cups of water, I am actually feeling alive... this evening my boss has a meeting at the time when we are  to go home... so maybe I will have the opportunity to go make my hair... maybe what I could do is just go to the neighbourhood salon so that logistics are actually okay.. I want the hair cut so that it looks a little different, and colour my nails.. also I like the fact I have a place to sleep and wake up in, I also like that I have been making an effort to be better at getting money, also this sato, my Inner Being sort of forced me to go to town, to look for a suit, then I couldn't find something I liked so I went to a department store, and I got a shift dress at dirt cheap, and a top and a skirt which were regular priced but really good! I am very very happy with the purchase....

.... my boss has realised how little work I have been having :-)... which is actually a manifestation... also I still am manifesting money, maybe I should start investing or something like that... all is really well,

... because my journey is beginning to feel better, and also that issue I had yesterday with Cyrile has been sorted, we sort of talked about it or rather he talked and  I listened and I learnt.. again.. that the world doesn't revolve around me! I also discovered that we have soo much more in common than I previously thought, it is amazing, shocking... he was telling me yesterday about signs.. you know signs.. like if you see this and feel this, it means this!! He said pay attention to the signs!! :-)... I used the signs to get him back!! .. Also I have just realised that my boss is away and I can listen to my youtube digest!   I have also discovered that the meeting I was invited for, I was actually invited for it!! Also there is something interesting, with my new boss, I have been working really hard for  a really long time, then sometime last month I decided I wanted a day off per week, and I got that, then I felt that was bad, but I wanted a lighter work load and I am ...

.... Yesterday I had to make changes to the itinerary of my boss and the new times I wanted were fully booked. My boss decided that really wanted  the original times, and I called the agent and she said she would try her best to see what she could do, but honestly it looked quite bleak!!  Then this morning she calls doesn't get me, she then sends an email, it is possible to get the original dates!! wooo hoo!! I am very happy, also now it is lunch time and today honestly I am not in a place where I can entertain people, and one person who requires lots of entertainment asked me out to lunch and someone else responded!!  It ended okay, as in  we both had to do other things, I had to get my whisky and she had to tend  to a client!! I got my whisky easily... got my money back... only that  I worked too hard for it.. I worked too hard for it... :-(... but it is the 1st money I am to receive! I haven't been the best today... all...

..... I have been doing something right? I have been soothing myself in subjects without knowing I was doing it... also I have realised that the reason I was feeling so odd, was because I was... I am quite fragmented, I also remember yesterday when I was going home.. I was reminded to go back to the basics..  whenever I work very hard to control things, I always get scattered.. but I feel as though my parts are coming back together, also today I saw a Nissan Primera.. which means to me that Cyrile's car is coming back soon... also today in the morning it looked sunny, but still I put on stockings and a sweater.. and now 4 hours later.. it is freezing!!  I am thankful that I have lots of hot water in the office to keep me warm.. I am also soo thankful that I can be thankful for this.. also I am thinking about the way the stock I bought a few years ago is doing very very well, good news.... I am getting the belated money on Friday or Monday!!! Woo hooo!!!! So question....

.. I have been trying to manifest money and I managed... someone gave me money, it was money given for me to do something, I didn't get it but.. it was money for me!!!  also the milk I was supposed to buy was bought!! Also  don't have to feel guilty about sister and spending time with her cause she is happy with her boyfriend, also I have, may have found a place where I can advertise, also I am back to my old avoiding ways, today the lady who I sometimes like to avoid is having lunch with other people!! in money news, I got a bill paid for me, AFTER I had asked that it not be paid :-), and I earned 2.56KES on my credit union account.,I also got another message regarding my maybe coaching...

... and I realised that I have had a few manifestations that I didn't acknowledge, (1) the other day I was at the salon and the lady who made my hair charged me only half to make my hair, you see she had done it last week and it was horrible so I saved half, and also (2) a few days ago, I requested for a credit on some snacks and today when I went to pay I realised that the person who had given me the credit wasn't even there!!  also the meat that Cyrille likes is soo much cheaper than what I normally buy... and I have already cooked so I don't have to do that again... also today is Friday and I have already done 1.15% of the day.. :-) and old loves are coming back... also I am feeling like I want to manifest more money in my life... also I have been trying to make a decision  whether or not to go to town, now there is a warning not to go there... also it is officially raining men, so far 3 long time men who want serious things with me have contacted me in the last 24 hou...