Ten Thousand Buttons

This night I spent with George bottles. I remember thinking I have a thing for you,  how is it possible that you don't have a thing for me. ... and this night I was with him! !! He is amazing!  Really and truly.  He meditates, he knows about the subconscious, he knows that happiness brings money! I think I am very into him. 

I was afraid very afraid of money issues.  But it all worked out.  I got the two monies promised by IB...... I am grateful.  Very grateful.  I can even afford to go to hospital now. ...

God helped me to get 180  KES and then 10 KES.  Biggest miracle of the day!  Esp the 10 KES.  That was big. I picked it up from the ground!  It was huge

This day I went to town  to start works on selling my shares. It went interesting. .. I went to a cyber. . Did the Medical thing... then waa so weak and tired got this heavy desire to eat chips and a soda.  Felt so much better.  So much so that I can go on with work.... I went to the bank. .. got frustrated. . Went to the loan office. . Got the cheque. .. it was the first big money I have had in a while.  It was less than I expected but it was still good.  Later got enough dough for entertainment. .. could not believe it! !!!   then this evening I got a call from my sister. .. the message on free money from the Sacco had come! !!!!  I cannot believe it!  I am finally in the money!  Also I had a thing to get in touch with a person who had requested for my help. She turned out to be such a bitch... unbelievably so.  Almost could not believe it.   So there I have my answer.  And I am taping love.

I have lost weight!!!!! I wore a trouser that I haven't in 2 years.  I have. My Jean. ... my Jean. ... it fit really fit!!!!!

On this day. ..... I thanked God all day and I got 2 more days. ... 2 days! !!!!! Happy Me!!!!

Last week I asked my IB for money.  Just money.  I had before asked for a job that could get me money. IB came through. .I got this big 10000 shillings order.  It was really cool!  So now last week I asked for just money.  And then I got the idea to get a loan on my insurance.  I called the company and the amount approved is so much more than I expected.  And there are 2 more sources. . And just now I have discovered a new source which I don't even have to pay! !!!!!! Woo hooo !!!!! I had asked for money more or less thinking that it was possible.  And now it is here. And by sitting here, listening to good music and at the end of it I will have booze money.  And maybe even dinner.  It is over!  So early! !!!

Received a new order!  I'm sooo excited! !!!! Also. ... I had a really fun moment with a really fun guy! Which was so great and loads of great fun.

.. I decided that I would use the money I made to try to live happily ever after:-D. .. I was going to pay all my bills then use the rest of the money to live. I spent most of the afternoon waiting for a service.  So I spent the time writing and thanking God for all things. ..  By the time it was my turn they told me they couldn't help me anyway.  I called my insurance lady and she told me that I may not need the document anyway and that by balance was way less than I had thought!   This of course meant that I have way more than I expected. .. so now I really can live happily ever after :-D.  Also it is the first time in a while that I have extra money. .. I am so happy!

.... I have just read a post from Radiant Rebecca and I am now radiating!!!  I am feeling really really good and I am really really appreciating that!! I like that too!!! Also yesterday as I have been of late woke up at 1 in the morning and didn't sleep till 5 in the morning... today though I did some crotchet, which is cool... also... now that I have a little money, I think that I will have the laptop upgraded so that I can go back to being able to do things in it... Also regarding money.... a) on the floor this morning, I found like 300KES!! :-) b) I received payment for  throw covers that I am making!! I am feeling also, better about my beliefs in Abraham.. and I am deciding to do the thing I quite to do... find ways to feel good!! :-) and focus on only that... only that, and only do things that I feel super good about... I alike that I am in the office and also... another money saving tip... I got bought for lunch... it was quite nice... ended up being really nice.......

.... I was disappointed that I had to have lunch with someone I am not sure I like... and I remembered that I have been here before.. saying that being in a place would make me happy... and I made peace and had an amazing time.. anyway!!! Also... I am happy today, I am here really... I don't even hate the be-hated people... it is really cool... really cool... I am happy I am here... really happy... also it is almost time to go home!! Woo hoo!!

.... that I didn't have to attend anymore... but my IB kept saying to attend so I did, 45 minutes late... then I got why at the end... there was tea and a snack!!!  basically, breakfast and lunch . :-)... also I was to do some a little boring.. a little could not remember how to... then when I tried to, I discovered that someone else was in the middle of doing it!!! :-) ... then today also the person I thought would take over from me is not that lady I dislike.. so I don't have to deal with her after all!!! Yay!!!! life is a little good... a little good. Also, I have just seen someone who is selling for a whole lot of money the things that I want to make and  I am thinking " I CAN DO THAT!!!! " Also, I have been wanting to go entrepreneurship class, and I have been really aware that I don't have the money.... but there is a free online one!!! woo hoo!!!!  Life feels good... really good... Also there is something that I was really dreading, having to deal with a re...

..... I am fucking angry and I like it... I love it.. I am finally able to breath!!  Also something interesting happened 2 days ago, I discovered  that my gas was over... yesterday I got the idea to check my reserve gas bottle.. and it had gas!!! I felt as though it was the first time that one of these things happened and I didn't have nothing to fall back on... ALSO.. this morning I got a message from my credit card office that they had received payment into my card.. he he he, while I am aware that this is how all these things started, but my life is already  getting better.. it already starting to shape up to take place...

.... I think that people are getting suggestions from facebook to join my group!!!  Happy day!! and dance! Also I am feeling better... much better, really much better....  terrified to face the fear.. so I am not... but a little excited too, which is really cool!! Last week I was in a really weird place, really weird....  Sedona Method was sent to me, and with it came amazing peace.. really amazing peace and by Friday I was already manifesting... I offered to buy drinks for someone without drinks... someone "did me wrong" and ended up having to pay... :-)... On Sunday, my sis gave me all this stuff... perfume, a really cute top... a juicer that has a blender and meat and bean grinder!!! and I no longer have to pay for it!!!!!!! I could not believe it... Perfect....   Also on my birthday.. the 12th I got that buttery yellow and green bamboo that I have been finning...  Also yesterday I did as I was asked, and it went okay.. really okay.. all is well... re...

... I have been wondering where to get money... I found a way... wink wink, nudge nudge... I am not a good person :-)...

... I got a small revenge.. which is mine, only mine, there is this hotel I wanted this meeting to be in.. then someone after asking me which hotel I wanted, gave me the one I didn't want.. I just relaxed and let it go.. then I got this message this morning that the owners of the meeting have decided to reject the venue and that they would on their own go another way... it was really cool, it is not the exact one I wanted.. but it is a much nicer one... I am happy with that.. Also today I got many releases.. many many releases that I am happily downloading for my support... I have sooo many things to release clean up on in general, that I really believe that I really really really need this.. so hence I am really really grateful!!

... excellent morning! I woke up okay even though I slept at 2 in the morning, there was tremendous amount of jam... well.. all of this really started yesterday evening... I managed to get fun booze which was cool, then I walked to a matt and got home.... there were things like realising that all of this cabosh is a result of my vibration, not self created... I was supposed to clean up but didn't instead watched a series, the second one turned out really really great! So great I ended up sleeping at 2.00 in the morning!!!!  I am very hardly awake! Very hardly! This morning I woke up, hangovered, not awake! got some gum and started feeling really good. As in really really good, even without coffee..I drove because walking didn't seem like an option. I listened t the music and managed to get me into a happy frenzy.. the jam was so unusual and so much.. so very much... but still was only 30 minutes late, and just as I walked in, a don saw me and made sure that he said " hal...

.... exceedingly well in the growth of my jobs page... really well, much better, very very much better than before... I can you know do better.... I probably can do even better than this... :-) ( I am so different than before ) ..life is soo good right now.... I have gotten even more jobs even many more jobs... yay!!!!! Also  I am learning soo many things. So many things. So many things, I am learning so much in so many ways that  can assist me in making lots and lots and lots of money...  Also I made some money during my lunch time meditation :-)

... .I made some money.. I am happy that I made that money. Also, a cousin of mine recently got a scholarship, and I am cool with that... I think.. I hope... also I am again feeling a call to go back to the basics, basics which is just find a way to feel good... just find a way to feel good, I am listening to the Sedona Method again and I have been for a few hours and it feels right now, really really good! I am sooo happy that  I am listening again. I am also feeling excited again about leaving and that is really cool.. I am feeling really happy again. Really happy again.. I was getting a little down on me because of my dream, and it was looking like I was going to stay at home doing nothing, but now I know there are thousands of things I can do... thousands.... Oh yeah, and people are fast leaving the organisation... 2 so far... maybe they are seeking joy, maybe just better prospects... Also I can go for lunch, and sleep... ALSO I have just downloaded a  free hand mi...

.... really hard for me, really hard for me, really hard and I wasn't really sure what to do, I meditated at lunch, the really long one, and I felt better... then I did the long  Abe process for going down the EGS, then I said in the end I said, I will find an answer, even if it is not this, I will find an answer... and now I middle of listening to Hale Dworskin, and  I am feeling really peaceful, not at all aggressive or angry or anything, and I really like this.  I like how peaceful, so peaceful his  and there is nothing in my insides, there is nothing in my insides, everything is clean and clear... I don't need to do anything...  there is nothing to do.. which is really cool. Also today there was really little to do, and I have managed to clean up this vibration, this vibration that was soo problematic... I am clean and peaceful... really peaceful.. Remembering that Sedona Method also helped me in 2007... with life... really did... and now seeing him... h...

... I am learning  new things and I am experiencing the most exciting I almost cannot believe it. I almost cannot believe it. I almost cannot believe it.... I cannot believe that this thing that I wanted, the thing that I wanted to make teaching Abraham, apparently it is possible to make money out of it. I think now I am getting all of of this information,  all that I  need, to do this, I could actually leave today, right now... right this second. Also something really silly and petty, there is this girl who I had a small tiff with and I haven't been talking to her, she normally sits right next to me, which was a little hard, but I got over many things on Friday and before and guess what she has been moved!!!! She has been moved !! now she is sitting in a place that I never ever have to see her ever again. Also, this past weekend, I met a cousin and we had an amazing morning! Really quite an amazing time... I had no idea how much I was in the vortex. And I really was....

... today was an interesting it was soo exciting, I got to experience passion amazing passion!! Very exciting! Really amazing!! I visited a passion filled company and I experienced a guy that I was just drawn to. I remember that I met a guy who actually darted me, which I liked well enough, but I wasn't drawn to him at all, and I said to me that " this cannot be the only way " and today, there was this guy who said 3 words and I was in!!! I was soo in. The  feeling was palpable it was. At first I thought it was only me, but later I discovered it was us!! Really no pretending.. which was really cool. Also there is this guy in the office who I like. He has sooo many qualities that I adore totally.. today ( till now) he is reaking of booze and I loooove that!! I like that he is fun, he likes to laugh, he is soo intelligent, and we really get on well, the other day I was thinking,  " dude, you are into me... what is your deal!! " and today it was quite evident! We...

... I managed to feel good enough to float for periods, I managed to planner for a bit and that was really cool.. very cool.. also I am watching " Defiance " it is the best thing in the world!! ... I just experiencing the story of this beloved couple who are making millions from their love as in they are doing the thing that they love... Also a beloved person may be moving soon.. maybe mine is also in the works :-) In money news, I might have just earned me some money... that must be for next month ... :-)

.... On Friday, everything went my way including getting season 2 of Hit the Floor after I really wanted it, and the big thing for me was getting the Golden Giant Bamboo from the office instead of having to travel many many miles... Also the weekend, interestingly I managed to do all the things I said I would do... I even started cleaning the house. I managed to make, I have change from  money sent to folks, which means that I have a little extra money!!! Woo hoo!! I managed to get a six second  snooze,... and now it is 4 minutes to home time and I came back to the home in time to listen to Handel's Messiah !!! which was really cool... and interesting, had soo very many encounters with MB1 of March/Feb, 3 today... I managed to

just one moment, and it was sooo cool... then it went away and I have been running after it ever since... also the funniest thing.. I have been dreaming about golden bamboo. ( I am a bit of a bamboo freak right now) and just looking at bambooo pics and picas an dreaming and dreaming, and then yesterday as I was going to the shop I noticed the same bamboo and I picked out a stem, ... then I read up what I was doing, I spent a whole lot of time looking at pictures, really looking at pictures of this plant, then after yesterday I decided that instead of going all the way to machakos to buy this plant I would buy it from where I work..  and it is 500 KES more (and also I had already decided that  I was to be bought today) ... so now I have it,  it is here with me.. something I wanted, really wanted, loved adored it and now it is here with me.... ALSO it is HUGE!!!! really.. and I requested a kindly gentleman to assist me with getting it to a place where I could move it and he...

... have been a little difficult for me, I have really difficult, in terms of vibrations, love, money, relationships, everything!! Then yesterday I got really desperate for money, really really really,  telling me it was the reason why I was sad and desperate, then I told myself that this sadness has been there forever, even before before..  there has been times when I didn't have money, there has been lots of times when I had a lot of money (which is something we should discuss later... wink wink, nudge nudge...) then I decided to just work on the parts that I had control I wrote twice, once in the morning and once in the afternoon, after it all, I just gave up on this whole money issue, and just decided to live with what I have.. I decided to just be happy, just happy for the sake of happy.. and it worked, it really did, I had a good night yesterday, this morning I actually woke up happy, really happy. I carried my cheques ready to cash really little money, but it was alrigh...

... getting me to feel better... I have been on a quest to get more money and now I realise where my error lay.. I was doing action journey more than emotional journey. Today I am trying to for just good feelings, this morning, someone who I have  really nice feelings for said 'hi' to me in a really nice way... it made me feel really good, also right now the thing that I am mostly looking forward to is  talking to this workmate who I like very much... Also I got samosa... I guess it is samosa lunch... :-) also right at this moment, I am very grateful for music technology :-)

.... I have been feeling quite depressed this week. Really sad alone and depressed... and granted I was  doing the feel so much better process.. what got me feeling good was seeing MB12!! :-).... that I feel is funny! And there is much to learn!! Also, I am still loosing weight... I am wearing this dress that only 2 weeks ago I looked pregnant in!!!!! now I am looking fucking amazing! almost flat stomach, thing are feeling good... also MB12 is back... that is really cool... (I should get new names for all of them... I am getting really confused about who is who ... :-)...) I like me... Also My Book of Positive Aspects... the HELB loan - I like that because of it I got sooo very broke, so broke that I wasn't able to afford insurance which meant that I have had to leave my car behind and I have to take matatus and I have to walk, which has helped me loose sooo much weight, so much weight that now I am looking pretty fantastic if you ask me. - I also like it because now I am v...

..... my weight loss... I am smaller... I am smaller and it is real and true. I am even smaller than the period when I was walking 2 hours a day, and eating right no carbs and what not... there is this trouser that I used to wear that was soo tight, that I could hardly breath, but now it is so loose it there is space between me and the trouser, and yesterday, I was able to sit and knit with trouser on, which is something I don't remember the last time I was able to, cause I have lost enough weight for me to fit into the trouser while sitting. Also today I discovered something really interesting, I was admonished for not collecting some documents, then today I discovered that someone had put them in my computer without my knowledge.. as a result, I have them... I kept wondering why I was being requested to check that machine and there was the information....

.... this morning I feel really really good. Life feels really good. I spent this whole past weekend making granny squares and other little projects and it was all soo very fun.. especially looking at the really really pretty... I like that this morning I was feeling a little depressed and granny squares and little projects got me back to me... I really love my level of obsession... also my fibre projects... I simply love them...

.... I went for this funeral and it was alright, really alright... it had many ups and some downs, but it was alright, really alright, on the way back I saw these things that made me feel upset, and jealous, and sorry for me, then I went home and had a drink, and this morning I thought about my feelings and how I felt that the feelings were inappropriate last night, this morning I am feeling it is alright, these feelings they are fine, and I can use them to access the things that I want..I am grateful for it, and I know that I can be appreciative of all of these things... and also, this thing that I want, I want it very very much... very very much, this thing that I want, I want it very very much... Also the money has started coming in... this is extremely cool... very very cool. Also this morning, I had a thought, I will do this thing because I have money, not so that I can get money... that made me think a little. and I want this very much... I want this very very much... Just ...

... I think so because (a) I remembered  that someone who has the ability to pay, owed me money, also I got a click, and that means money, also I wanted to borrow money from my sister, and she had the money so now I am alright, I have enough money for lunch and busfare even up to tomorrow... also I have sold the shoes.... I have actually sold the shoes.... now all I have to do is await that money ---- Finally Mulla!!!! I can even tell that person who had to pay me, he can wait!! :-) Finally Mulla!!!! Also I am mucho mucho excitito about the knitting.... I love how much  I love it... I love my projects!! I have just seen a pic of MB12 :-).... just reminds me of how much I am loving life right now... someone has jus Did I tell you that I sold the shoes!!!! AND as I have later discovered for the price I wanted!!!! Also someone seems to be very serious about me teaching her and friends French :-) WHAT!!! Money y'all I could be alright ....

... I have made it to one thousand after trying for so long... for so very long.... I have one thousand people who asked to join the jobs page on FB... I am listening to Abraham, and it is calming, I am feeling better... also I have access to joy, just a little joy and that makes me feel better... a whole lot better... Also I would like to sleep during the lunch hour, and I have no car...  also... remember in 2007 when I manifested money from the ethers... well that money is still coming in... also I have one more person following me on twitter, and they have been reblogging and liking my stuff and what not... :-) Regarding money, I have just remembered someone who is in a position to refund me, who owes me money...  I might have money for money.... :-)....Also I didn't have lunch so I have transport for tomorrow... I was wobbling after lunch then  I happened on MB1# and he assisted to lift me right up! He also behaved as though, he likes me soooo much and me I am...

... I was a little depressed because of my money situation... and how everyone else in my family seems to have their shit together... I got inspired to do the whole process of cleaning up my vibration and I got to feeling soo  much better... I also discovered why I was here... why exactly I was in this place of total brokenness, to get serious about all that money I have been saying I want, :-)... it was soo clear... so very clear... and it felt like a good thing, a really good thing, and I appreciate that... I also felt that it was important, really important and a very good thing that I am here in this money situation... also realised that this path I am on... the love of making and the new yarn and all that they are where I am supposed to be... really and trully they are where I am supposed to be that it is the absolute right thing for me... it is my true path. and I like that, very very much...  also I walked... also  I am listening to good music and liking that.... ...

... many things that are about love and joy for me. Things that are about passion about  love about things that I am interested in. I like that they are my dreams, they are all my dreams. They are my dreams and I like my dreams. I like very much my dreams. Very much my dreams. Today I am discovering that I have the resources, all of these resources. All of these resources. I am also learning all of these neat and amazing things that I am finding really really exciting. Also everything that I want for it is soo easy to get. So very very easy to get. All of it is readily available. Totally readily available. Everything about it is easy and cheap and totally loveable. Also my periods are here!!! totally here and for the first time in a really long time, I didn't go crazy!!!! Can you believe it!! The only thing was Olga and that lasted one day!!!! I cannot believe it!!! I made it without going crazy!!!  It is sooo amazing that the things that are of my dreams my young dreams...

So as you are aware I was having the at-most amazing-inly horrible week before... you know.... then it happened to me that my world was going to good no matter what... that was yesterday, I did some process which worked halfway... then I got left with comedy which was hy-larious!! and it brightened my whole day... a guy I like made me stand right next to  him and he made me laugh! I decided he is MB3... then I tried to get a guy to allow me to go for a trip for one day then he gave me 5 days!!!1 I cannot believe it!!!! I am extremely excited!! really excited!! It solved all my money issues in all its entire...!!! :)

... I have just discovered that I made some money last week, 0.09 euros, and it is the first time I have money in a while, so I am quite happy with it.  Quite happy with it. It feels as though the processes the things I have been working on like they have progress that I am making it. Also I am feeling calm about money, I like that, really very much. Really very much. There is something developing. I don't know if it is something that I don't care about or if it is  a good thing, everyone, including people I do not like very much are not going to be in next week. Which is really cool. Also I have spent all of today just cleaning up on this beloved vibration, and it is getting better. Just better. Just received greetings from someone. I received greetings from a long lost...

... I have been really broke, really really broke!!! I spent my last 500 yesterday. I had very little confidence about the ability of IB to get me money and I have been trying to sell some things... without much success.... and guess what today I was going through a group I just joined I discovered that I have something I someone is willing to buy something that I have!!! I can now buy that wine  I wanted and maybe put a little fuel in the car :-).... I should not give up and keep writing

.... I have been today mostly finding ways to have a good time. I only did things that I wanted to. I even had the whole day to clean up on vibrations, I surfed only where I wanted to, I like that I managed to just do love work. I like that I had good internet, and I like that it has been Abraham  all day all day all day!! I like where I am. Also the meeting that I am manning has ended early Woo hooo!!!! things are finally going my way!!!! woo hoo

... this  morning I am feeling really good. Maybe it is because yesterday before going to sleep I did processes, I wrote and wrote and wrote and this morning even inside my hangover I was feeling pretty amazing... I even remembered to carry a flashdisk that I have been meaning to for a while... so that I could get some music in.... my car....also for the first time I am really feeling like I can make it... what ever it is... also love this love for all of these dreams that I have. I love the very high level of interest in this I wonder that even with this high l should stay... but even in leaving,  I wouldn't leave today now would I :-) ..... also I like very much that I am this interested in these things that I am interested in.

..... I have managed to clear for the most part my commitments, ALL of them. Also I discovered that I made 3 euros in the last month, and I have been working at half mast. So that is really cool. Also, It was a little miraculous how I managed all the things that I was supposed to be taking care of.... it was cool, I even went to Carol's and it was really cool, that is not what embarrassed me. Also the long awaited loan is now here with me, not yet in my account but it is somewhere in the air, which really is cool

... MB12 is back so there is some happy staring in my future.... also the thing that is exciting is that I am back to earning money on my money blogg, and I am hardly working on it which is interesting.. you see work is a little boring and a little stressful and I am thinking that if I keep earning and having fun on my jobs blog then I may never go back!!!!  It is interesting and interesting!!! also I have 2 requests to join my jobs blog... in 2 days, there is reference about the jobs that I post.... I really should carry these flowers everywhere I go...

There is this huge meeting happening in the compound where I work, as a result there is hardly any parking space, especially the really fun places that we like to park in... now yesterday morning, I noted all of this while I was coming in and took a chance turn at a parking and got someone leaving the sweet parking area. :-) also there is this peace of mind money that I have had to pay... 2 weeks ago I was informed that it was 260, then last week that it was 321 (which increased stress) then finally today I have been informed by the main source that it is actually 260... like I was told before... which means that I have extra spending money for this month... :-) he he he... I am back to earning money on my other job... :-) Also I have been informed about how I will survive in these next many months.  I think that I will work very hard in that regards.. very hard, and  even invest.  :-)

... 33 things to celebrate :-) .. also reading things of the past, that used to make me happy... and good news!!! it is making me happy again :-). Also I am remembering that I do have money. I actually have money, it is not a lot, but it is mine and I have it, and that is so very cool. Also I slept well. Really well. I slept well and I am grateful for that. Also I am learning that the into part is not about a response, it is really about being able to feel. Being able to feel. Just feel. Also recently I had a throwing out of the vortex time, and I did the work, did not think it would work, and it did, and I am really excited about all of this. Really very excited. I am actually happy right now. I am actually happy and pretty excited right now! Also I am applying for a loan, which will assist me to pay off a loan I have to pay off soon. I have been telling myself that I have money, and I do, in some ways, and I  was today assisted to claim for some med money quickly, I might g...

... .he smiled at me today.. and that was the highlight of my day.. he is the first person that I saw today.. and I just knew that life would be better today.. then he smiled at me.. and that was nice, did I tell you he ran to be with me.. that is it, it now time to say goodnight!!

... I had a knee bringing tiff, but luckily I was not assigned work so I got 2 hours to work on it, which was totally cool.  I think I will disappear, go back to my room and just sleep. Have a Saturday, cause tomorrow will be doubtful.... I did I disappeared into my room and had an amazing time watching, " Believe " and I am feeling quite good... It is amazing, I did what I was told, I was feeling crappy, I took a nap and now I am feeling epicly good!!!! Also, my important lesson of the day, cleaning up vibration, is not just sitting with a paper and writing, (though it is a wonderful method and has amazing results) but there are many things to do, I can walk, I can get near water, I can watch a nice series,  I can drink more water, I can even eat food. There are many ways to get a better vibration. There many, many ways to improve a vibration. I also am, experiencing my expectations, I am also experiencing my expectations.... Also, I got another wink from the universe....

.... remembering My Beloved One and how he sort of forced me to find a way to love myself, and be someone who can accept love, and now look at me, I like me and I am on my way to adoration.

... this day is alright... I am feeling really okay about things, I used Sedona Method to clean up ( a little ....  very little) and I am feeling a little better... also I am protesting and as a result other people are doing my work, also someone is delaying me, so there are things that I cannot do... any more... so I will do the things that I can, also  a few days ago, I saw those beloved pens, you know the 12s the ones that I adore while I was buying the 6s... then I felt woiye, cause I really really wanted the 12s, and I had thought they were gone forever, but then there they were, looking pretty and pretty... and everything...  (that made me soooo happy!!!!), and yesterday I had money and I thought I could buy 4, then when they told me the total price, I realised I could buy one more, and I did, and that also made me feel really really good, and later that evening I gifted me, one whole 12 box, for me to use, just so that I am happier... also I had a super dupa fun co...

.... I spent a whole lot of time writing and cleaning and writing and cleaning about My Beloved One . I think that I jumped the gun and moved into action before I got the call and of course had a weird experience...  :-) but today I cleaned up and before I thought that

... with this cold, nice things have happened here to me, well for one thing I have successfully managed to fight off an annoying bitch,  which I think is really cool. I like that  on this day I got attention from two separate dudes I could totally go for, which was really cool, also I got 2 new followers today, also I saw MB1... it is also weird how normal that is, it was. Also something, I noted this old beloved who noticed me and noticed noticing. He was the easy one.. the very easy one,. the pretty and easy one. Also remembering that these people honestly, MB1, the easy beloved ones, they are all mile markers, I am really on my way, just here where I am. I am on my way to my one. I almost cannot believe it! It is really cool

... I am realising that I am feeling better about me, ( not to mention I have lost a whole lot of weight :-) ) also there was something that has been disturbing me... we normally have tea on Friday's and I am usually the person who collects the money and is sort of responsible for it disbursement.... i.e buying stuff for the tea and what not... For this Friday, I had  a very small percentage of what I needed  to purchase the snacks and what other nots we needed for the tea. I was totally ready to use my own money then get a refund later... but all the time all the while, my IB kept saying all is well, you will not get other donations, but at the same time you will not need it... then, there is a lady I work on this with, I saw her and she reminded me that there was a proposal to forgo the tea and pray for a  colleague who is unwell in hospital, so I decided to go round the office getting opinions... and it worked out, it was agreed that the office forgo the tea.... so I ...

.... there is this group that I started in 2008 on the Science of Getting Rich... ( you know the book) and really in the group there is thing, I don't even think I have written a word in it... -( and in the last few months, there has been people wanting to join, even 2  today!!!!  What the hell am I supposed to do now... I am terrified to accept them and then what?!!!! :-) Also this morning I did the process on MB1 and just now I am reading a process (which my IB is not against, interestingly enough) on how to move forward. Also was just watching this beautiful boy talking beautiful words, which was quite cool, really very cool, I came in really late to the office today (was early to work compound though :-) ) and now as all the bosses are gone, I can also leave!!! Woo hooo!!! All of this really will be quite well. Also some time back, I saw on FB a dude in Kenya who believe in Neville Doddard, and as it is sort of close with LoA I really felt this strong pull to ask him...

came to say "hi' which was really cool.  I am extremely uncool!!! very very uncool! Yesterday, and today I have been thinking that I may require     some alone time to really get into my processes.... but I was thinking that all of this having lunch with other people is getting to me... then today I got really really hungry early and already had lunch,  which means that during lunch hour, I can do other things... which is seriously cool. I am also remembering how MB1 came to me... I was basically living happily ever after... and then he dropped of the sky, into my heart!!! I love that... I also love how he is into me! I love how much he likes me. I like that he is totally into me!! Totally and that is soooo coool!!!  so very cool!  I like that whenever he can, he reminds me about how he is into me, no matter how awkward and weird I am. I also like the manifestations that I am reading... the one about new love, and actual self acceptance... and all the l...

... I have a new follower, :-) and finally... finally I know that everything will be alright... which is really cool, I like that finally things seems to be getting better.. I like that yesterday I connected with someone who looks like a like mind. I like that I can burn all my extra days, and that it is alright.. I like that 10,000 years ago, I had a think with OOC and how I worked on that, and how hard and weird and difficult and awkward and I worked on it and one day we were together and I had the most glorious 2 months of happy, easy, perfect togetherness, I also like how it felt when it felt like when I remembered how easy it was, how perfect it was, how much fun it used to be, how perfect we were.... ALSO... you know what else... I think he checked me out... I think that My Beloved One just checked out my Linkedin .... :-) Life could be improving... which is really cool, I am listening to really loud and beautiful music, which is taking me really far from this place that I am in....

.... my beloved one for a while. I have been thinking that I really miss him, then yesterday I really felt that I should let him go, you know, .. inside my head.. then I did, then today, I have seen him twice... and that is really really cool.... also between yesterday and today, things that I wish for are coming to me... also for the 2nd say I haven't paid for things, and that my dear is kind of cool! :-)  kind of really cool...!!!!

.... :-).... guess what happened today... this whole week I have been getting message that MB1 is still mine and that I should make studies to make this happen... anyhoo, today he had to pass in front of my desk to go somewhere... first time I looked at him he didn't back, then 2nd time he looked at me and I didn't third time, he was approaching from behind and  he made a point to turn his head to look at me, and it was quite relaxed and we exchanged a look for a millisecond... :-)

.... pay me more money.. should I say,  "yes"  :-) Noticed today that still I am in slimliness mode... which is cool, also reminds me of someone who last week was jealous of all the progress I have made while not seeming to be trying much :-) Also someone asked me to assist them with emotional stuff...  :-) ME!!!!  they said it was because the last time I did a really good job!!! Also something interesting that is going on.  I have very little work... which means that I am earning plenty money, doing plenty little... and at the same time,  the people who are responsible for the work are not in, so I don't really even have to do those things that I needed to anyway... Also, I am sleepy, really really sleepy, soon it will be lunch time and I can finally sleep infinitum.. :-)  Also this morning.. I felt a little strongly that my solution would come, and finally that this is NOT it... and finally that is alright... also that it is alright. I have bee...

... I am trying to focus my mind.... the interesting dude gave me a healing look again.  I like healing looks :-)... even if they don't last they heal the soul.  Also of late I have been receiving free credit in exchange of me doing some polls, this means that I get free credit money... which is kinda cool :-)

.... manifestations of others, as I do to keep motivated.....and for some reason all the 4 that I had access to and read were about the same situation as MB1.  As in totally reassuring me that  there was nothing to worry about, and that it was totally doable... which is totally cool..  I especially liked the one that talked about the L1 seeming to hate the subject.... :-) Also today I am totally sick!!! I have this fever, and aching bones, and,  tiredness, and sleepiness. I think that it is so very cool that I work here.  Also I as I slept during my nap... you know because I am sick... I discovered that I have to change my mind about work.  The way I have been working on me, to a point that I find me actually pretty... And today I found a love  for my beloved blog.. that earned me milllions.... :-) he he he he

Can you believe it... my BP is normal... without a " lifestyle change " I am thoroughly excited... also I have just discovered that My Beloved One is staying on... he was to leave soon but he is staying on... I am not really sure how this will help me but I am feeling good about it... also yesterday I was playing eye games with this dude... it was the same thing, I got a call to look at him, and this time I didn't turn away because of fear, and it was alright... also the difference is that I didn't make it into something it wasn't ... but also I didn't turn away for fear..  Also I have been finding me increasingly pretty which I am enjoying... Also, I think that my coming out of debt thing is my money thing for the month :-)....because I have noticed that I have also been getting other monies... also other monies...  I like that all of these things, all of them they are well.   Also for some reason today I am reading posts about signs for getting  g...

.. I am realising that these things with MB1 are my creations. They are creations of me. I am the creator... :-)... it is time to create  new things.. totally new things.... Also guess what, I have just seen MB1... again just by chance... wasn't look for him, just happened.. I was passing somewhere and so did he... I want to think that it is not me.. :-)  but all the same it is really cool... no? Also there is this other guy, totally unavailable to me... but I was just thinking how easy that is... no  complexes, just simple... almost into his arms... reminds me of how things are supposed to be.... really :-)  Also I had a way to stare at him without him seeing me which was fun... Fun and easy is always better... I always recommend fun and easy... soooo tomorrow!!!

... I like that I woke up feeling good. I dressed in dress that felt the most good, and I appreciate that. I managed to pay electricity. I have had a really nice breakfast, also the peace I read this morning was in fact admonishing me for something that is me..  and a betroubled one... also I will be seeing My Beloved One this afternoon. Key is to enjoy.  There is also someone who I like in the office, and I like that most of the time, wherever I look... there he is.  also in new news, I ran, I actually ran yesterday... the walking didn't seem enough... also I remember my joy at seeing an absolutely beautiful man yesterday... and I like how much I am appreciating the Pinterest and how individualistic it is. I am appreciating how exceedingly cute I look today... I am appreciating that I can finally run...  I went for  a meeting that reaffirmed my belief in God and the knowledge and assuredness that he brings.  Also I saw MB1 but it wasn't in the meeting ...

... this morning as I entered today,  I saw My Beloved One... AND the other cute guy.... and today My Beloved One was not being himself... interesting that for the second time in two days, I have met him by chance... as I was passing by.. and he was also passing by at the same time. Also did I tell you that I have found a way to get out of debt!  I like that very much. I like that I wanted to get out of debt and it seems like I will be able to do it. Who even knew it was possible.  I like that I have here with me, coffee. It finally 12.34 and I can go do my word tracks. I am really on my way to getting out of debt and that really feels good.  Also,  you know what I am really pretty!! and that is amazing... Also, there is this pretty dude, and I like that every time move or turn or do anything he is right there! Which is fun and great. Also I just remembered yesterday when I was having a conversation in the afternoon, there was this beautiful blue butterfly...

... there was this dude, who, which makes me smile, in the inside and the outside and he is here looking at me and making me do the same. Also, on Friday, I had an instinct not to do my exercises at the office and wait till I got to Wangechi's and we went for a long walk and it went soo very great! So very great, she has a dog that I adore and I just got a pic... she is adorable!! the best really. Then there is something that I have been wanting, to go out with someone who wasn't me :-) and I did, and I had lots of fun. I danced a lot. and I like that. I also wish to dance a little... okay a lot more... a whole lot more!!! This Sunday, again it was time for me to make my hair. I had a little money most of it having been spent on Friday... but also there was the money  sent... to be sent to Mom... I drove around Nairobi, all around Nairobi, looking for a place to eat, that was quick and beautiful... I failed, finally settled for a Steers cheese burger, which was al-right... ...

.... is feeling like such a good day. today is feeling like such a cool, mighty ass cool day. I am super dupa happy, mostly happy. I am thanking God for my lot, working at appreciating it for real which you know is important. ... Also I really wanted very much to have cash this weekend. I have some cheques but I didn't to cash them. I have some money in my credit card but withdrawing was going to be a little expensive, but I was asked to buy something for the office and had cash for that, so I put that payment on my card and kept the money, so now I can carry on with my plans to make my hair and nails and what not :-).... also I am probably imagining it but this sort of handsome guy sort of noticed me and that is really cool! :-)  I am learning how to appreciate for real, my past loves... I am soo very close... Also I really want to walk.. I really really want to walk... It could be all the coffee, but I want to walk and I like that very very much.

.... I had a dream, and this dream felt good. Really good. I was pregnant. A few months but I really wanted this baby. I really wanted this baby. I was soo happy that I was pregnant.  I had another baby an older one, about 3 or 4 years old and I wasn't taking care of it. But with this new pregnancy I felt me wanting very much to take care of the older baby boy. But I couldn't because of all these years not taking care of it.... translation?  In my dreams my children are work, my job the thing that I do for a living... when I dream that I am not taking care of my baby, it means that I am not doing a good job at work, but pregnancy!! this means that I am on my way to something new!!!! :-)... also  I want that new thing, and I am looking forward to taking care of it, to love it, (I already do) :-)  Also the older baby, it was haphazard, it wasn't planned, it just happened to come to me, maybe that is why I didn't like taking care of it, and always for as long as I c...

 ..... - The trip to the office was super smooth and fast, 20 minutes!!!  -two bosses are still away and the one who is here is the one with little work.. so I can carry on with my classes; during work hours!!!!  - there is someone that wanted to meet with me, and the whole thing was irritating to me, and I calmed down a little and now he has disappeared so now I can go back to my plans :-). Also (this is the next day BTW) - On Sunday while in Dar, I went for a walk in the afternoon, and it was really really cool, I liked it an even found that dress that I liked very much ( I looked rediculous, but the important thing is that I found it) then I remember at some point IB said to go back but I said just a little further....   Then on my way back as I walked I realised that it was getting dark, and as fast as I could walk I couldn't get  back to the hotel on time, keeping in mind I wasn't even really sure of the name of the hotel....  Then I walked for...

... today someone told me specifically that I am looking better... that I have in fact lost weight. That I am looking so much better than I did before... ( I have been thinking that so I am glad someone else can see... or can they?) Also I know it is true because this trouser that I am wearing today, when I bought it, it was soo tight, and as stretch it didn't matter but now actually there is some space... which is exceedingly cool!!! Also the people I am to work with mostly travel and they have little work so now I can go back to masomo... :-)  I like that I am crying at how beautiful a song is... Also I am reading an old post about something that was happening to me and I couldn't believe it was happening to me. Again the same thing is happening, courtesy My Beloved One... At lunch I  managed to feel a little better again. Also I slept at 1.15am and I am awake and alive and enthusiastic!!! I went to look for work and it wasn't there!! I was to walk some one wh...

.... the thing that is happening is that as always I am having an amazing day...soo all of this morning i have been in meetings and once I finished there was a security thingi that had a fun end.... also me and beloved beloved had eye games, I kept turning to look at something  and I did that about 4 times till I realised that that is where he was. AND once our eyes actually met!!! I like about him that he gives me a whole lot of reassurance... which I like, view my security issues, also I managed to get the money I wanted to send out, and today I got information about this place that I want to go... that I really want to go to, and today by chance I got all the info I need to have an AMAZING time!! Also this afternoon, there is something interesting happened, there is this successful SAian entrepreneur who said, you have to do what you want, no matter what others say! BTW pretty is sooooo pretty... and I said I wanted to see him, if he is thinking of me.. and I did :-)   ...

.... I am having to hold for a lady the job with my old boss, and you know what, I maybe able to leave much earlier than I expected.  Which is seriously COOL!!!!! And maybe even earlier than that.  It is also the first day that I am using my super cute water bottle!!! And news news, it is really super dupa cute!! Also  I will soon be getting a pay raise and not only that, there is a supa dupa lumpsum on its way to me too!!!  I did some work on it, and at the time I was working I managed to bring that guy that I adore into a place where I like him and I don't mind just being the one who loves on my side and I totally got that thing of being one through whom, love flow!! which really is supa dupa cool... also listened to Abraham this morning and I got some things I didn't used to get before.  I really love that. I also have been changing parts of me. And I really love that. Also did I tell you that I love love love this nail polish colour. AND My sister is coming ...

.... I am floating. I am floating I love floating. I love floating. I thank God, that there is possibility for floating, and I love that manifestation is soo much better than anything I could have created physically or on purpose. I love LoA!!! it is the best. I like that I really really wanted to have a female, rampaging, good newsing companion to do something with and I did I got one, and we went for a long walk yesterday and it was one of the coolest things I have done in a while. I like how much I am straining with this ridiculous idea. But in my defence at the time I thought it was such an amazing!!! Also, I picked up money from the ground!!  it is starting again. Life is getting good again!!  You know something cool I was able to do a whole focus wheel all by myself. Alone all by myself. I believe that I am getting good at this. You know something interesting, I am doing a better job with Luca than I was doing before. Much better, and I am in a training, and st...

Rampage of Appreciation I like that she is funny. I like that I am sort of having a good time. I like the reading that I did this morning from Radiant Rebecca and I like how it inspires me. I like that I am I am feeling good. I like that I have lost a little weight. I like that I am really looking good in this outfit. I like that I could buy it. I like that I can hepa and go to the SACCO and get some money. I like that I type so fast. I like that last night for most of the night I got to listen to meditations so I am doing really well. I like how playful she is. I like that I am not imagining this. I like that I am not imagining this. This is not my imagination. I like that I like his eyes. I like that I am liking soo many things about him. I like that he is really the prettiest cat in the litter. I even like that he is already making me all nervous and conscious and I don’t know what to do with myself  I like the excitement that that made me feel. I like that this my ima...

.... to me yesterday. I was in a restaurant and there were these loud and obnoxious women were sitting next to me in a restaurant.  They were really getting to me, they were annoying, loud, annoying and to be honest I was sort of getting jealous of them :-). I did a short clearance of hatred and guess what, they stopped talking so loudly!! I was shocked, really shocked at how fast it worked. My headphones have repaired themselves!! they are now working perfectly!! Also this morning there were 2 things that are really urgent and important that had to be cleared today. I started thanking God, and one got postponed to Thursday giving me more time to do them!! Woo hoo  I am feeling better. I have had to work later than I expected and  I am listening to good music and it makes everything alright. Very much soo and now it is time to go home and pay my debts. I am very happy that I have the ability to actually pay my debts!!

... is that I am feeling freer now. I am feeling free inside my heart. I am feeling loose and what not inside myself. Guess what is happening today.  I am going to attend a training. There is a training to be done and I am in it.  And I can because of my new jobbo!! That is really quite cool. I also just discovered something interesting about a guy I think is really cool, and that is really cool.

... a work course that I am supposed to complete for work!!! I love that I have now I am starting the second one... wish me luck!!! also a nine year old boy ( reference to how much younger he is than me and not his actual age) has been behaving like he likes me, and the silly ( of me) thing is I am beginning to look at him like that!!  I think he is like 5 or 8 years younger than the guy I used to date, (who was 8 years younger than me) Did I tell you that I found a page that a sort of sight that only has focus wheels!! also today I have downloaded many videos for Abraham!!! So now I at least have something to listen to tomorrow morning!! I also have really little time between between now and going home!  really little time 5 Minutes. Also today, my whole vibration fell because of something that happened and I realised that 17 seconds had passed and now I was down in the dumps!! Then I went for  a walk and things got much better!! much better.... Also all of th...

..... I am listening to passionate people who love the things that they do and are f*&%$#ing rich!!!  I like how cockie, confident, passionate, fun, funny sense of humour, adoring what they do,  they all had this I must do this thing about them, that was really really cool. Also some time back I had to renew my lease, and honestly even up to now I am having thoughts about things about it... but I actually was given advice that I could negotiate the rent downward, and I did and I will not get the 10% increment that was due. 

.... I have right now, in cash, enough money to last me 2.5 months. In CASH!!!!  I was just thinking that some time back, I didn't even have enough money for the month that I was in, and now, I have enough money to last me 2.5 months,  and I am talking about living large... at least my large!!!  :-) life is very good. extremely good!!!   Yesterday I bought me a tablet, it was cheap, totally China, but it is cool, cause I just want it mostly to play,  I don't need it... and I totally love it!!!! totally love it! I want to use it for Tumblr, pintrest, and Abraham, mostly. Yes that is it, just for fun, my fun!!!  and to watch videos that inspire me, you know from Young Rich!!! and just make me happy and pappy!! I just want to be happy and pappy!! Also I was just thinking and for the most part, I don't mind my old men, I can even think of positive aspects of those old men. Even, Jimmy!! Even Jimmy.  I even like my last interaction with him, I was calm, I...

I received a somewhat threatening email, basically threatening my job situation, and it terrified the crap out of me. I tried to call the person to make clarifications and apologise, and the person would not take it. On Sunday I could not sleep in the morning as I do, I just thought and thought, I tried to distract myself, and it worked sort of.. I  was informed to wait, and I waited as long as I could then I tried to call and again, I sort of got at threat and I panicked. I managed twice to soothe me, but it didn't last. I thought about letting the whole job thing go and just start this my new life, I even wrote a letter to just leave. Then I started to watch fawlove, and I felt really good really good for the first time all of today, I watched many youtube comedians and it really changed my mind, then the none  hanging me to dry solution came through.  In just minutes, just minutes of me calming down it got sorted and was all solved.  

... I made it to be at work more or less on time.... more or less.. I was running really late... but I remember thinking  all would be well and that there was no need to rush  and then my ex-bosses driver came and gave me an extremely elaborate story about how he got extremely late!!Managed to keep my vibration steady even with boss being himself... also this morning I woke up in a panic, filled with terror and self hatred, so I did one hour of listening to meditations and I calmed down enough to love me again.. and I love that I love me again. Also I am thinking (me being deep here) I am realising that I made a point to be happy last month with Luca, no matter what was happening, and now as I leave him, I am still happy! and I think as I stay happy in that new role, then even my leaving will be happy and what will follow that will also be happy. Remember that chick I was really into, the one that confused me for one whole weekend, well she is here today... and I think she...

... I am grateful that for my 8,000KES... it made me feel like I could get 800,000.. it really dìd. I like that I slowed down my boss to my level, I like that there are 171 days left.. which is really cool, I also managed to hepa today and have a little lunch by mysala!

... I  have been wanting a new phone for a while. I have been wanting something modern enough to be modern and not shame me (yeah I know, something to work on.... ) and not break my bank.. and I did, and the decision was soo easy, I walked into a place and I just saw it, and it matched me, the price the modernness.. :-)  even the beauty of it... it didn't break my bank and it is really everything that I wanted.. it is also soo pretty.. It is my favourite play thing, absolutely beautiful and great, and all of these things that I absolutely adore it :-)!!! Also, two people threatened to visit me and my house looked like the remains of a bomb hit!! But something kept telling not to even clean the house, not even a little.. :-)... not even a little :-) and guess what, they both didn't show up.. Also on Sunday,  I noticed someone walking behind me. They kept stopping when I stopped and I could tell they were slim and male and a few inches taller than me, but for the life of ...

... I had been invited to a bash and I really wanted to let it all go, all of it I really didn't want to go, but my Inner Being was very insistent. I even tried going without making my hair and make-up but my IB would not have it... so I went.. with fresh hair and fresh clothes (boots and all) and honestly I was just a little bored, okay more than a little, but it went okay, I connected with a increasingly amazing guy, who has many positive  aspects that I appreciate, I like especially the seconds that our eyes locked... and he liked it...much!!! which is nice... really nice.. Anyhoo time passed and he started to talk to someone else and ridden with jealousy and my already boredom I left in protest!!! :-)   But I wasn't ready to go home ( and I needed to sober up a little)  so I went out dancing in Black Diamond, and saw Erica, and as always she was lovely!!  I actually was the first person to dance and dance I did for a little while then people started to dance.. an...

... God made a situation that could have been really bad, really okay. Also

... I have been aching for a cat, and one is available!! :-) ... Just read a passage that made me feel so much better about everything.. so much better...  Also now it is 8.42 and today has been an amazing day. I am not exhausted and it also seems like I worked well today... :-)

.... I was crossing the road with my car, and there was a whole lot of traffic, and there was this mat driver I noticed that he was stationary on the side I wanted to go to, and then that he was signaling to me, and then that he was trying to help me cross, he stayed there, ignoring la population behind him until I made it!! It was sort of miraculous, I couldn't believe it was actually happening to me.. and it was, it really  was. :-) Also, this morning I had an interesting dream. I had lunch with Dan, and he basically asked me to have sex with him as the first thing we would do to kick off our relationship and thinking about it, in the dream it wasn't odd. We even met other people who we didn't the intentions to.... we went to his room, and I remembered as we went, I searched inside myself to see if I was in any way forcing myself to do something I didn't want to, and my conclusion was that I wanted to and to go ahead. So we got his room and started kissing and stuff...

... There is this dude  I met many moons ago when I was feeling particularly good, and amazing about life and me and things... and then we were supposed to meet and then my vibration fell from the face of the earth and Patrick and Jimmy came back into my life, then now, I have been watching Faw Love (http://fawlove.tumblr.com/) and guess what Mr. Man who liked me when my vibration was high, just got in touch... he he he... It is amazing how fast these things work!!  Now got to home... early!!!!

... I have 22 followers on twitter!!!! Can you believe it!!! Also, my boss, ( my beloved, really beloved boss!!) is a hard task master... well not so true but work with him is a whole lot... a whole lot... BUT I have managed to reduce my work, totally appropriately with him, and I foresee reduced rate work for at least 2.5 weeks!!!!  I almost don't believe it but I do, because I am this awesome!!!! Also I am still loosing weight!!! I am still loosing weight!! It is really nice, my clothes fit so much looser; there is this necklace that I bought sometime back; which whenever I tried it chocked me... greatly but today I am wearing it and it is okay.. I think that is due to my thinner neck!! :-)  I really really like my boss, he is an amazing guy!!! and this calendar is soo beautiful... also yesterday I bought the pens... the pens that I wanted the ones that last One Whole Day!! BTW the shoes, that were trying to kill me before, they fit better.. :-) much better... can you believ...

.... I am looking at a whole lot of Shane pictures something that is bothering me felt better.  Also  I remember meeting (experiencing, more like)  this Shane look alike, I remember not being able to take my eyes of her, I remember  watching her walk  and loving it, I remember noticing and she liked that she had cut her hair (and it looked even more like Shane's. I remember we were in the middle of something super important and I made her laugh and she did. I remember loving that whole experience it was great!. I also remember yesterday talking to him and suddenly my whole life is was just better, and being this in love with him and having that be amazing!! I love that after that most of my fear went away and I even now know where that whole fear came from. I love that I got this amazing calender that is gorgeous and amazing  and happifying! This morning I have received an invite to a National Day of a country by the ambassador!! Guess what else I am manife...

... by Google... I have finally earned enough to get paid.. and I will in a few short weeks!! This is the 2nd time I am getting paid for something that I did with my hands. My idear

Milking all this money that I am getting... there is money from these sights :-), then there is money from Ochieng, then there is overtime money, then there is the other money from Ochieng, and ALSO  I am learning this new cool stuff that I could use for my thingi el thingi!!!  :-) Life is soo very good

I had a dream yesterday, it was the usual, it was my getting chased dream, the one that means that I am not giving all that I can in the office and that they are disapproving of me... when I woke up I was informed that there was a second part to that dream, that, although they are in disapproval, I was in a position of power i.e. there is nothing they can do about their disapproval... Also some time back I dreamt about this guy, he was good looking and rich and short and dark and we were together ( or some such) he was friendly and really liked me, talking to him was easy (it was a social occasion and there were so many people there mostly (in fact I only saw) women) He was only coming to talk to me, which was really cool, at some point even his dad came to say " hallo"  to me... and at some point he had to leave to get something, and he came by to let me know that he was leaving for a bit but would be back (aawww!!!)

... I have been receiving declarations of love.. and today, I am going to earn soo much money!!!!  it is really good, to earn lots and lots and lots of money,,,