Ten Thousand Buttons

.... I have more weight loss to report, today I tried on a skirt (one of the reasons I was late for work today) that Mom bought for me, which at the time was a ridiculous fit, but today it entered and fit well, I even tried on  one of the trousers and the fit was really okay, I might wear it tomorrow although the pot is still equally there, but I discovered that it is possible to hide it with strategically put boobs :-) so I might wear it tomorrow.... also I received a request from an outside client this morning which really I didn't know what I was supposed to do,

... my boss has invited me for  a big as all important meeting... it is probably a mistake but all is well, Things are feeling good, I also got my hair made, and now I feel that it is reasonable. This morning I got a call from my sister about man-ish issues and it went really well... really really well, also my car has issues that I was once afraid to take care of, and now someone else is going to... woo hoo for me, also today I wanted to walk so the car can only be taken care of tomorrow, also, remember that meeting that was stressing me, the one which was to have all those important work people who make life more interesting well, they are not coming, just one, simple person... with simple needs!!! and it is not even 10.00am!!! also with the resources I have I can send all the money that Jimmy wanted even if nothing changes.. even if nothing changes... also I am getting even more strongly that I am supposed to appreciate Jimmy more, so much more.. and also work, and als...

... I remember something funny, I cooked a meal  on Sunday, Creamy Pork in Sour Cream Sauce, and really I didn't like it... not really, and then I had the remains yesterday and they were positively delicious! It is working... It is working.. I am managing to copy the meditations, they have been helping me to sleep.. . today I managed to finish up all my silly stuff, and I am getting all my money tomorrow, plus extra's... and  I also took car home and have parked it for good till Jimmy gets home, on my way back I got a lift!!!! and the car is in better condition than when I gave it out... and now it is time for me to go make my hair!!!!! Woo hoo!!

.... to discover that it is possible for me to do what ever it is that I want. Whatever it is that I want, especially having to do with Jimmy which has always been a sticking point for me, I have always felt like I couldn't clean and change my experience of him in my life, and yesterday for some reason it became clear to me, which was sort of marvelous... also  I have a bit of revenge going on, last week  a colleague manipulated me into booking a meeting for him with the boss, and guess what, the boss  has cancelled that meeting and is now going for another one!!! without my help!! he he he he he., I have just discovered that my victory was empty :-( , the manipulator had already cancelled it prior to my involvement :-( , on the good side, I had taped some meditation stuff and it turned out great, it really helped me out last night when  I was having a panic attack.. so we can effectively say that me, here at Hatred/Rage,  I am doing better. Also My computer t...

..... I think that  I will have a fabulously fabulous day! I have lost a little weight, (according to my clothes) which again I adore, boss in not in so work has reduced, also  there was a meeting to be held next week and now it has been postponed, which is great, cause I really wanted a week off... and I got it.. although things are still in the works, and last night, I felt great about the fact I moved all these people to postpone a meeting cause  I am feeling lazy, it is kind of cool, and I am working on Jimmy and it is getting cool, I am kind of happy, I like that I am getting there and that there is more I work I want to do and it is great! I am looking forward to that. Also I am listening to a really inspiring and amazing... makes me want to 'do' something!  But it is great, I really feeling good!! Also, it has happened, all meetings for next week have been cancelled!!! AGAIN... I am just having the best day and today I am NOT apologising for it!!   ...

... I couldn't wake up... I struggled quite a bit, then in despair I thanked God anyway and guess what I got to walk with that favorite workmate of mine which is cool.. also I managed to make the deposit as requested and that was cool, I got bought for lunch, also I had a fun  lesbianic experience .... ah there is this busty workmate who sometimes when she is talking to you, she comes close, puts an arm around you and sort of presses her boobs on to ya... anyhoo.. in other news, I have been wanting to go somewhere to get some meditation tapes and something has been stopping me and I have come to aplace where I really need meditation stuff and guess what they were a -plenty in Youtube so that is great, also I was needing to ask someone a question, and I had tried on Sunday, you know mentally but I didn't receive an answer, but yesterday I got an answer to my question, for the thing I want to happen, money must exchange hands... which for me was really cool, cause it means that t...

.... this morning and can you believe I am feeling great, I have energy I am awake... but I have a feeling that that will change soon...so I got coffee.. to go with my egg, which I am sooo enjoying...  Work has began!!! I am feeling happy that finally I have work, lots and lots.. which is good , also I am seeing a nice idea.. lost train of thought.. also  there is this thing I have been having to do, and guess what.. it might no longer be necessary to do it, which is really great

... In the night I had heart palpitations and I therefore decided to lots of water and finally decided to do a whole lot of meditation and today when I woke up I was all fresh, and clean and clear.. it was really great.. Also today rave reviews  from my outfit of today, and someone told me that I look like I have lost weight (which is great!), also remember that person I have sort of been trying to avoid, now he says he is coming at the end of next week!!  This is a further postponing of 2 weeks, after the last postponement of 2 weeks...  and it is interesting, I am feeling okay-ish very-ish about him coming over.. I am also noticing that really he is not here.... and also the heating of heads... also something weird and interesting, I am feeling better after the lunch time walk, then I had noodles  and some fish which was great!

it looks like I am on my way to that 70€!!!  I can hardly believe it. .also that information... I am getting more information about the possibility, I am also very exatic to note that I have actually lost weight, it is not a dream or a rumour, some weight has been lost!!! ( today I got the guts to check with an actual tape measure), I have received my first confrimation that things might work out for me....

.... I woke up at about 1:00 am in the morning... and couldn't fall asleep again till about 4 in the morning.. and during this time for the first time in a while I made good use of my time, I meditated, thought about things  and something came to me, I have been trying to set up a meeting for my brother with someone rather difficult to get to and guess what I got a perfect answer.. I will try it tonight... I might even let you know.. also I commented on something the lawyer said, and the good lawyer replied in a very nice way.. also you remember that guy I dreamt about who I was informed might be experiencing difficulty because people not liking him because he is earning...and is favoured...and and.. well he just said 'hi' to me... also some other thing I learnt during my weird awake hours.. is that even this will be fine so ' why worry now? ' Also that beloved I love, loves me... :-) I love it when beloved love me! BTW it is no longer a rumour I have lost weight!...

... I walked for the 2nd time this week, I also have found another recipe for chicken cacciatore that I like.. so that will be dinner!!!! Woo hoo!! Cannot wait!!! Also something odd, the shirt I am wearing seems smaller than the last time I wore it... in fact it is not opening in the front like it usually does... he he he and again I am DREAMING about the chicken cacciatore.. this is very very good.. someone out of  the blue decided to go to the nice shop where they sell good wine at nice prices... it is late and now I head for home, with soo much, soo much to do  yet!

..... I ended up working sooo late, and honestly  I like the work I did, it was good. Also I was soo lighted up  I couldn't sleep so I ended up day dreaming about things I want which was kind of cool, I really felt like it was the first time I was really me for the first time in a while..there is a manifestation page I have been avoiding reading and now it is open in like 3 tabs (he he he) so now today I finally give up and discover that it is something I really needed to read... there is work to be done... which is great cause I love work.. and finally  I have music... internet is back! I did  something I was not sure of, and now it worked great, also I thought I would be bossless this afternoon, and I heard my boss say that he would not go for a meeting he was supposed to, then I asked a none related question and it seems he will go away, and considering the time, he might not be able to make it back.... woo hoo!!! also I was to organize a rather difficult travel ...

... Guess what!!!! I have been feeling money for week!! weeks and weeks.. and today by email I was informed that my partial payment of my insurance cheque is ready!!!!! or will be ready in a few days.... I am on my way to riches!! also yesterday morning, I dropped a coin and didn't know where it was, and today, someone picked it and gave it to me... it was there all of yesterday and people just past it and left it there for me!!! Also did I tell you that a kindly gentleman told me that something I organized worked like clock-work.. also I am remembering that I once taught someone  a work thing.. me who is supposed to know nothing!! .. also just now, I was thinking I would have to go  the bank to get some money for lunch, then guess what...  just realised that, that money for the boss that I have been keeping, well I still have and I can use it cause I used my own money for milk for him.... also BTW I remembered to get milk.. also I have been thinking ...

.... there is this document I have been wanting from a different office, and they were not showing a lot of enthusiasm about giving sending it to me... they even suggested I arrange to have it picked myself, this morning I open my email and the very first one is that very letter.. Woo hoo!!!! I also got to learn many not so great things, like what people think of me and that is not going so great... :-( But on the good side I got to learn about how to learn about this wonderful organization in which I work.. You will not believe, you will not believe, everything is working as clock, ever since I calmed down, everything is working as clock work.. much to my happiness.. also I have just realised that I don't have to change emails to be able to send emails from the different accounts I still have my love for recipes.. I find it fun to try out really really new things.. weird ones that are also fun..

... the very handsome guy from yesterday....oh he was soo nice and gracious and good looking and smiley!!! :-) ah fun times... and also I found something I was looking for, also I am looking at an old blog, and it looks fantastic!!! Really fantastic!! Also some time back I tried to put an advert in a certain notice board, and it took forever, and all the details were wrong, but yesterday I sent my details for an the add is already up!!! and now I am endulging on my favorite current obsession... recipes!!!!! :-) I also have  a new  date stamp!!  it is soo great, so easy to use, and clear and clean!!! I have also discovered something odd, when I am having fun in office it sometimes not for work.. I am also learning new things.... from OOC... that was fun... Did I tell you how wonderful the other website is looking?!!!! I was here sitting, sad cause my boss was making me stay in the office twiddling my thumbs and I finally relaxed about the whole thing, h...

... that internet might be back, also I am having a good day and I am enjoying that so far and it is going well! I am enjoying that I am feeling good today,  I went for a walk that felt good, also for a change things worked for me, of late the lucks have not been with me, but today, a few minutes ago, it was with me.. finally, my boss had asked me to do  call someone who was coming for a meeting to come in early, and I forgot for 49 minutes... and when I finally called he said he would be by in 26 minutes... then someone called me and told me after 11 minutes that he was already there!!! Exactly when he was supposed to.. also today I finally got the office credit.. and before I had requested for 100 shilling okoa Jahazi credit and I had used only Shs 31 of it. I tried just now to load up and guess what.. it refused!!!!  I basically got saved! also something I have been enjoying doing of late is beginning to pay off, the recipes... I am having a l

... I have skype :-)  on my computer...

.. a recipe for garlic chicken.. I want to try out this evening, or something like that.. .. hey!! Do you remember that magical seed I used to chew for slimliness, I discovered today that it may have something to do with my mood, as in I have been weirdly depressed and sad the last 2 weeks, and they are the 2 weeks when I wasn't on this magic bean, and I restarted today and already I have lots of energy.. (I had been really working hard at home, cleaning things and stuff, then noticed my reduction of energy suddenly)  , also my new comp has automatic skype so now, I am skype loaded... I had told me I would find a solution, and here it is, I am feeling good again.. I actually am, I sent my babe a message, I am even trolling the internet for recipes to make stuff for him :-) yes, I am feeling me again

.... feeling better I am maxi listening to Tigrou, and it actually makes things feel better and honestly I like that... I really like that.. In a moment of  panic last night I picked up my clothes  from the line and a few minutes later it really started pouring..  and now it is time for me to go home... and I feel really good about that...

... I have just learnt something, is finally working, I have also learnt something, I am about to get caught working / not :-) , Also I am going back home to enjoy my Sunday (hopefully), Also yesterday I met someone, I have known for a long time who makes my heart sing, which is great, the meeting with cousin went well, did my hair and only 1/2 happy with it, this morning I managed to pivot on something, I am also getting somethings I wanted done.. so now boss is here and I have to run!!! Bye now wish me good Sunday