Ten Thousand Buttons

I am really enjoying the new phone I bought. I am begining to wonder why I didn't get it sooner.

a) a friend has rejected my USDs so now I get to keep them b) OOC is BACK!!! I do love him! c) I love how much I love the doors to the ports. Dear Lord if ever I was to marry someone, I want to marry someone just like him! d) I also am loving how

... because I'm matching crap in my life! Very funny

I have been a little lazy to get blinds for my window and as a result the sun can be harsh on me in the afternoons. Today though these big ass clouds are infront of the sun so I am as cool as ice!

I have been feeling a little anger but now things are a wee little better. I am thinking now I have to really clean my vibration for real. I cannot stay here any more. So I have been dreaming about the bird!

I'm very happy that a really nice man decided to reduce the amount of work I have to do. Thank you father

... for the Gypsy Kings CD that a friend gave to me.

Hey, this day has been interesting to say the least. I woke a little hangovered and sick... which enabled me realise that if I want to do a thing I have to be obsessed with it, night and day, that is the way I have achieved things in the past and now is no different. Also I woke up critisising myself entered a taxi and they were discussing critisism, and then for some reason I was shocked that my favorite workmate was being nasty, then it all fell in place and life is a little better now. Oh,yeah and something nice, I got to walk a little with a workmate and I realised something I don't walk fast enough!! he he. That was nice, a nice light workout! Very nice

Well not so much a dog rather a nerd.... Anyhoo, today I decided that there was meeting up with OOC2 was going to be fun for me no matter what. I decided that I was going to look forward to it and that it was going to be great and it was better than usual, I was giving him something and he had to touch me to get it... he he Also two birds, and one that I have never seen before came by to say 'hi' Also, jana I managed to get my hair done and while I was doing it I meditated and as a result by the time I got home my vibration was sooo high, I finished watching Constantine and still felt good, which was also interesting cause I saw so many things I had never seen before which was really cool. Also there's this guy I sort of have thing for, I managed to 'call' him which was cool. Also had alcohol and didn't drink. Also this morning, I was soo late, instead of hitting snooze, I hit off so it stopped snoozing and i ended up waking up 10 to work time!! I started by c...

I got to work on time!!! well almost! Then everything has been working soo easily some people are even considering me to be some sort of saint!! a) These letters I have been wondering about when they will go, we got a driver and I discovered that most have actually been delivered!!!!! Woo hoo! No. 1 b) Then there's this meeting my boss has been worried about and you know what we alreasdy got some 3 participants so now we only have 32 to go !! Woo hoo c) I got this amazing status on Facebook that was simply amazing!!!!! d) I was starving then we got tea in the morning, and during it, I got to laugh! and laugh and laugh e) discovered OOC is BACK!!!! f) sat next to OOC2 and talked to him and that was sooo cool I do love him g) My boss' boss was really nice to me. h) I got to help this chick quickly and easily. i ) I might go for that thing.... will see how things go.. j) and you remember that dude I used to completely adore.... well he sort of wrote today!

I have been thinking about a certain guy for a while. I have been thinking that I have been missing him and I really wanted to get in touch with him and everything. And guess what today he commented something on my status, and I replied and we chatted a bit, it was okay. On a good note, I notice that my vibration on saftey is ON!!

Okay my vibration must have been really high up there because I have stuff to report!! Guess what, I was at the supermarket doing stuff I do then, I reached the counter for energy drink and I thought the way I really wanted 3 cans of energy drinks not two like I was buying then I noticed that there was an offer and if I bought one I got one free!!!!! Woohoo!!! I got my small wish!!! Then (two) when I was paying for my bill there was an issue and I had to wait a bit and as I was waiting I noticed a new guy in the customer service table and I really wanted a good look, he looked sooo sweet! Then there was a problem and I could not pay easily by credit card the way it normally is and I had to go to the customer service table!!! Woo hoo!! I got way too embarrassed to stare the way I wanted but it was really good, I felt great and appreciated the vortex feeling I was feeling. All that was really great and I even got to call the people I have wanted to call. That also was perfect!

... I was starved in the morning, having had no breakfast and everything, but I had instant noodles in the office so I had that, and I shouldn't have worried because there were cookies to 'taste'.... Also I am putting on this outfit that is okay but in the morning I almost changed into something else not because the outfit was fitting too snug decided against it. Now I have been moving around and the dress 'expanded' a bit and now it fits soo much better

Okay so this guy, I like him. I love that I get on so well with him. I love that I can laugh sooo easily with him and that is sooo cool, I love that I love things that I love. And in a continuation of the money I have been getting today, well he gave me a free ride... he is my taxi dude, Great dude! Reall vortex dude!!! Aaah fun times!

OOC2 I had forgotten about you! My Ozygen! I met you in the stairs and I love how you wanted me to acknowledge you and I did because it gave me pleasure, and I love how it gave you pleasure. I loved to see the twinkle in your eye. mmmmhhh! perfect!

Also today the sun has not been too hot so I got my wish to be cool this afternoon! :-)

I'm happy that that I am happy.

This morning I started by intending that this day would be good. So here are the good things that have happened so far. a) for the first time in a really long time I was on time for work. b) some replies to letters I have been wanting came c) I managed to get a lift to the complex! d) once there I discovered that the money I had applied for had been approved and was already in my account! e) managed to pay part of the loan for this month!!! ( really love that) f) managed after that to get the drink for my good friend, and also those noodles I love so much (plus also now I dont have to pay her anymore cause I got her the drink g) Also the office issues have been solved, my boss talked to that other boss and now everything it seems will be fine h) Oh I forgot I managed to do some work on more self love which is really cool I can see also that some parts of my vibration are a little off, but I know now and will promptly work on them!! Happy dance

I am grateful that at the time I wanted to get tea Mtn was away in and when he came to talk to m I was on the phone, so those are the beginings of a good day!

I'm receiving a whole lot of driftwood and that is sooo wonderful!

Today I looked at a website I have been trying to make money out of and today I discovered that it has had many many hits, though I really haven't been 'working' on it the last week or so.. and Oh yeah, I also got just a little bit of money! A very bit, but mine all the same!! :-). So that is my button for now!

So these are things that are happening a) I had to reply a letter refusing to do something with someone, and I managed to be positive about it, which is really cool b) I got to spend 6 seconds with OOC2 which was really nice, c) I might have a date with this guy I really love. I love spending time with him and he suggested that maybe we could spend time together next week which I cant, so well, it will have to be today! I am soo glad he waited till I was well. Also next week he will not be there!! d) That mission is basically running itself. e) I'm also loving the fact that I have gum stock and endless supplies of really strong coffee! I have not had a break for a while. My brain will not break!

I'm a cougar!

There's this guy in the office who is sort of my crush. Anyhoo, I was walking into their office and I straightened me so that I would not be all giggly, then I find him hidding a huge smile behind some papers, when he saw me come in!!

I really am feeling better today. Okay, so up to this point, what has been happening a) I got my annoyance just the way I wanted it and I managed it well, I still am feeling really good. b) I had an issue, I had made a mistake in a numbers document... then it was not solved and I wondered if it would get me in trouble and you know what, no one noticed and I have been given an opportunity to solve it which i thought was cool. Also I sort of managed to work through intense feelings right there and that was sort of cool. NOW I MUST do my processes or else this day is BURST!

It is very extremely wierd to me that i have had such a hard day and now that everyone is gone everything is very easy, I am actually happy. Things are easy and light. I have been here before.. interesting, funny even!

I am feeling much better. I actually pivoted and to add on to that, the people who have making my life hard are going away at least for tomorrow!! Woo hoo!! I love that I can actually feel woo hoo! it has been 2 long days without woo hoo!!! Love being able to be in the vicinity of woo hoo!!

What if all this was alright? What if these feelings would dissipate on their own? What if I could let my larger self deal with this. What if all this was just a russe? What if all this bad stuff was really good? What if I could 'see' the goodness of all this bad stuff? What if all this was well? What if I had asked to have, or go, or be something and this was the way? What if all this was well. What if all this was well. WHAT IF?

My workmates have decided to teach me again, the art of loving, and patience and feeling good no matter what is happening around you. Well it is day three and well now I am just asking for the strength of God because all else has failed. Anyhoo, the good things that have happened so far are a) A friend sent me a nice note that made me laugh, b) Two (not one), two birds came to visit me at the same time. That was really nice, made me feel like, you know what I can do this! :-)

My good friend mentioned to me the other day that she likes my friends, that all of them seem to be very allowing of others, and I thought yes, that is something good about me. Definitely!

I am again reminded of the fact that bad things are good. I know this. I have always known this, but sometimes I forget. BUT for now I will forgive me and just try to enjoy flowers!

So what good things are happening today? a) Well I had coffee it the house so I could have that today. b) I had breakfast, I had some pastry that I took with tea in the morning which was cool c) I got evidence of greater things to come. Things that are flourishing d) I managed to get those things for the boss that I wanted to and at the same time got me some diet coke and most beautiful salt and pepper set in the world! e) I love that I am looking at all these things and I KNOW that there is nothing for me to do here. Beyond this that I am doing there is nothing else for me to do. f) Also I love that today I am in anger, yesterday I was in despair, in hopelessness, but today I am in anger. So I can say I am moving up!! :-) g) Also yesterday I was in such a bad place and then I met a butterfly. A most beautiful one that kept me company and made me feel so much better h) Finally, I can drink hot water. I prefer hot water to cold but normally in the afternoon it is sooo hot I cannot drin...

I have been having a fairly difficult time in the office, I know as everyone is annoyed at me all the time, it is definitely me. I can 'see the disapproval reflected back in their eyes' so today I say to my God, look, things there are bad. I am looking for a sign that I am on the right path. I am looking for something that will let me know that all this that I am doing ' is not all for nothing' so today I get two rather nice signs a) I get 4 hits on my this blog, because it is my absolute favorite! b) Happygrl from my favorite (only) forum says the way she got driftwood just by thinking simple happy thoughts. Thing is they are very very simple, and even me, I can list easily many many things that happened to me that were happy and simple and great, I don't have to go on a rampage of all things that are wrong. Things are good and I really am affecting people's lives positively. I really am. All really is well. Really well. I will allow it to be. All will be we...

I have been having well.. WC problems and have been having resistance to actually sorting out the problem, but now my house guests took it upon themselves to solve it! I feel so much less resistance to that. Anyhoo, this is a much easier way to solve this problem. I am much happier. Isn't that cool!

Also I wanted to mention that I purchased something big for my house. Okay not sooo big but big enough for me to get all excited..

I was just thinking how hungry I was then I got a call that the fruit and sandwich guy had come.... woo hoo!!!

I have had a total of 3 birds visit me today!! I think it is a good bird day. I will try to enjoy the rest as much as I enjoyed the 1st three!

It has become PAINFULLY obvious to me that I don't spend enough time with me, and especially loving, AND especially loving me. So this week, from this Monday for 5 days, make an effort to be more loving to me, to find a way to look at me and feel love and if that is not possible just manage to find things I can look and feel good!

Now maybe it is time for me to list all the things that were good this past weekend. My friends came for my party, and it is interesting only the ones I really like came and the others could not make it... happy dance... I had a wild time! A really wild night! I don't know yet what I feel about that... I discovered that I am just fine the way I am and my decisions about baby pat were actually okay. Nothing wrong with me, nothing wrong with him. Also, I might prefer living alone... it is a possibility, after a while I just want everyone to disappear, Also I met JAG again this past weekend... it was wierd I really thought I'd never see him again. Also a bird has just shown up to say 'hey'!! FAB!!!

I slept really okay last night. It was one of those nights I got to bed an really really slept well most of the night. But this morning I have woken up a little sleepy which is really interesting. So now I opened a drawer and got gum!!! So I have that at least. Also I have serious access to coffee! Also the girls at my place are getting me a plumber! So I don't have to get one! I'll be sort of without stress for a one and a half days. I feel though that I should work on my vibration it is a little low...

Yesterday I was thinking of changing my mind about the thing I am having later today, then I remembered that I had been trying to send out an sms for the girls to confirm whether or not they would show up... I had saved the message for a few hours and got distracted by a movie I was watching and didn't send it for a few hours. Then at some point at 1 in the morning I press the wrong button and it goes out and I am thinking "CRAP!" I didn't want to confirm a thing that I am changing my mind about... then I get a confirmation that it was sent to the wrong person.... woo hoo!!!! Then in the morning the wrong person sends me a message saying, "huh?. I explain everything and from the way he is talking I can tell he wants to continue this conversion so I do... Then a few hours later he asks me out for bite!!! I'm happy!!! I have a date!! tis the 2nd one this week! Okay I forgot to mention the 1st one.Mostly cause the other one is with Tiendrebeogo!! He is a c...

I manifested a lift this morning in a very comfortable, luxurious, abundance type car. (much like yesteday's) and the person was very happy so the ride was easy and fun.

Okay so I am always told that I am supposed to love my contrast and I guess to an extent I really can... Today I experiencing a desire that someone outside of myself approves of me.. Yes that is it. I want this person to approve of me. So now it is time to as Abraham would say, unravel it. It will be so much fun to unravel this. Oooh it will be way too much fun to unravel this. I think I will learn to love my contrast.

Of late, well more like yesterday, I wanted some sort of evidence that my money is coming to me, and this morning I experienced 2 people that have recently received large pay increases... its on my way

As you know... my thoughts about Mtn are not yet where they should be, so whenever I avoid him, life is sooo good. I was avoiding getting coffee which I need desparately because it is just outside his office!! Finally, it is more important for me to be awake than avoid him so I just go and you know what, he is in Jay's office, so I don't have to see him. Isn't that great!!!! :-)

I wanted drinks, I want drinks for my thing on sato, but to be honest I didn't know how I was going to get them considering my issues with the car...So this morning, this lady friend of mine has to go shopping for alcohol in general and she is going to buy for me!! Good things are starting to happen!!

I know you will not believe it but I have just finished putting up the first part of my curtains. I know where to get a really small nail that will help me with the nets. I will figure everything out eventually. I really think all will be well. All will be really well. Currently I have this small curtain that I will be able to have a set. I am really think it will work out okay. I also have some extra curtains to cater for that space in the kitchens. All this will turn out really well. All this will be really really well.

This afternoon, I went shopping and though I didn't get what on my way back I got a lift! I liked very much getting that lift.

OOC is back, YIPPEE!!!! I love it when he is around.

I'm still feeling a little angry about everything. I know where it is coming from and... anyway and because everyone is pissing me off, it could only mean that the problem is with me! ... One could say this is a good thing seeing as I am creating consciously my reality but at the same time..... ooh I don't like the feeling of anger... but I'm reminded of baby pat and how long I spent pissed at him and I know , I KNOW, I can get over this. My righteous indignation will not improve things nor make me feel better, I will just create more of this. It is time to feel better.

I have been feeling pissed at all people all the time at everyone. So this morning, I got at it again and I know if I am still pissed, then I will continue to be pissed .... I feel better. I really feel better. All is getting better

Okay this one I am really borrowing cause, although I know it in my head I didn't use those words (thanks cd111). Anyhoo, right this second something bad is happening BUT I am feeling sooo much better about it. I am waiting to see the reason why and I know it is good. I know it is very very very very very very good. I'll give you the update when it shows up.

I'm thinking of revamping my original blog into something that can actually sell. Okay I am just trying.. wish me luck in any case

I like my boss, I really do, but sometimes when he is here, I get to work late and sometimes I prefer to not. Like today, and you know what, he is not here right now, which means I get to go home early.... or maybe not, there are some things I really need to take care of before I go home.

(he he I've written this header before) Anyhoo, I managed to go pay bills again, but this time came back on time ( loved the shortcut I found) Also someone besides me noticed that I have lost nearly 500g! Also I am feeling much better about everyone which is really really cool.

I hear this boy will be blowing more than 10m a week! That is what we call in my language DRIFTWOOD BABY!!!! Fab day all

I forgot to mention just how great my body is looking. I have actually lost a little weight I think... I didn't even have to arrange my boobs into my bra :-) Ooh, I'm feeling so much better.

I am going to feel better. I will clean up my vibration. I will not be lazy with my feelings. I will work at feeling better. I will do this! I will do this. I will love them. I will feel good about me. I will seek relief. This will be good. This will be good.

:-(. It seems so far I am only creating what I am feeling. Only thing is that I am not feeling so great! :-(

I'm really grateful that I am not the only one that visits my blog he he he

The Material I need for my blogs are coming in fast and furious. Which is really cool. Oh yeah and cause its early I get to walk home, I even have the shoes and everything.

Good things that are happening today: Well the lady luck forgave, (she's a wonderful chick) I managed to pay rent, came back boss wasn't there to notice that I was 20 minutes late, the appointments are happening quickly and easily, and finally remember I really wanted to revenge on this chick, well I did but the revenge kind of burst in my face, so obviously I have to laugh... he he he.... Anyhoo, just goes to show you that revenge is the Lord's.....