Ten Thousand Buttons

... that I got some time back... I have been having some guilt about spending this money, but now that the secret donator spent mine without asking, I am free free to spend theirs!!! Also, this past weekend, I spent a lot of time in meditation thinking about the way it would be great to get a guy who appreciated my body just the way it was, one who may even like my tires, one who would love my mountaneouos boobs, and I did!!! I did I even had my lesbiani experience and it was really great.. I am the one who wanted a whole lot more... :-) also met this absolutely beautiful, boy that I spent the evening staring at... and the fun part... after ward, he spent his evening staring at MEEE!!!!! that was great.. although I wasn't the hottest, it was on me that his eye view... then later at the end, we got to talking and it was fun, and easy, really easy, he kept coming back to talk to me... and it was really great!! Also something really interesting thing... whenever I want joy in my f...

.. I am getting the brunt of my creations... but on the good side I made 0.55 euros in one day!!! that means that for the rest of this month I only have to make 0.01euros to get paid!!! it has been many years but now it is happening. After all this time, now it is happening!!!

... I pretended that every single thing on this earth was great and amazing!!!  I pretended and pretended and when I started to worry I opened fawlove!!! :-) then lunch with Annie, it went really well, I got to tell her fun stories which was really cool. On our way to lunch I notice an extremly hot dude, who looked exactly like Patrick but he was HOT!! so hot I wanted to cry, literally. The lunch was good, and  really good. After the as we were walking back I saw him again, we were looking at each other in the eye and smiling and we did for like 20 seconds from then on my day took off, I had an amazing walk back, I didn't even hear a word of what she said, I was in a cloud.. everything was fine... even the rest of the afternoon was amazing!!

.. I have been feeling money for a while, a few days... I have been seeing money numbers everywhere.. every single where and I had requested that if  I am to get money, then I didn't want  a loan, I also was calculating and discovered that I actually had money for about 3 months clean and clear :-) but that is another story interely... :-) ... Now today, I get a call from My brother about something that we have been working on for a while but we normally got no information about for a  really long time and they said that they would give us back some money and in return we give them a tip!! Woo hoo!!! I can pay part of rent for January!!!! (a large part even) and relax the body in December

.... the God of Heaven has shown me again (and again) that He will take care of me when I leave this place and that makes me feel safe... I haven't felt safe about leaving in a while. I like that I discovered Hale and Kenzi and that they are fun... I like how much fun they are... They totally changed my day!!