Ten Thousand Buttons

... I talked to Jimmy and sort of made up after a fight and he decided to come see me yesterday evening... I was nervous and terrified... I am not sure why. I kept seeing signs that he was on his way.. you know , ten thousand 070s... everywhere I went...  I decided to not give it to the terror and  seriously soothe myself.... I did all in my power... what worked well... very well was the ABC game.. it worked really quite well, I tried looking for chapatis for the green grams.. but I couldn't find it with good reason... :-)... I got home, and the first thing I did was to meditate... 1st time in almost a year... and I felt calm.. .just then  he shows up with a friend!!!! I got irritated... very irritated!! then I welcomed him and his friend and disappeared into the kitchen and started saying " thank you " and soothed and soothed, and imagined fun times, and a glass of wine.. things started looking up... and amazingly we had such a good time... really good tim...

well the first thing is that the number of unread emails in my inbox was 444 in the morning :-). And I am managing.. I got  into the office compound really early and enjoyed a nice breakfast.... also it was 11:44, I called the insurance guy and he is okay about the terms that I want... :-) he will also help me write a letter... I didn't know what to write in it... I also discovered, that something I had forgotten do to, doesn't have to be done till tomorrow... he he he I spent a little time to think about what I wanted a nice meal, and a nice walk after.. the meal was simple and delicious and the walk afterward was equally fun!

... I woke up feeling a little weird but  I was happily reminded of  " thank you " and started feeling better. I managed to finish all things early and like by 7.25am and the steering got stuck... so I sat there starting doing some low key "thank yous!" and then  I got the idea to call Auto Assured and surely they sorted me out... I was very happy... then I got to work a little later than previously anticipated and I got to redeem myself a little, you see yesterday my car was super dupa dirty, today  I got it cleaned and this guy I know who saw me yesterday, was there and he saw the bright new clean car and it felt kinda good, breakfast was nice... nice... got nice things and this morning I just got news that maybe a payment has been received from my insurance company... also learnt new things which is good for me... Also this morning I was re-realising that these interesting contrasty things that I am experiencing are evidences of my vibration, of my thoughts... ...

... I have started the music and now on que is CREED !!!!! I love their music and especially... " Say I ".. also right this second I am feeling really grateful that I worked soo many evenings this past week... enough for enough extra money for next month.... I am also feeling particularly good that I already have curtains, and I am want very much to make a double chair that looks like this... it is my great hope that I will enjoy this greatly... Also I really wish to dedicate this week to cleaning up on the subject of other people, especially my Mom and Jimmy.. I am also feeling grateful for paint editing which is just the coolest thing ever! also yesterday I forgot to mention I saw this amazing bird... it had blue wings, just at the tip... and it was big-ish.. like a 4 week old chick... nice... loved watching it fly away... Also I saw this past weekend the new Harry Porter movie... which really made me feel like I wanted to re-watch the old ones... I also like that hot water...

.... today I saw an old friend.. which was nice.. I managed to do what I hoped to do today.. also discovered beautiful music, it is raining and I can go home!! woo hoo!

... is that I have managed to pivot.. I actually did.. I had to do an amazingly long process but I finally managed... I got me some wine... people in facebook are being very nice to me today... and then... earlier I was sent to buy lunch for boss and she was buying me a soda... and then guess what the person at the till gave me KES 500 extra change by mistake.. .my  boss made me return it :-) then I got a burger... most of a burger to eat...someone had brought for my boss and she didn't want it...

... I didn't want to go for the tea because I wasn't feeling so good... when  I got back to my seat guess what had happened.. my nice colleague had brought me samosas..... 2!!!!Also I got some driftwood... I dreamed that I was part of an LOA group! Also this morning I managed to carry my egg and remove it very easily and was even able to hide it easily! I am having a glass of wine in the office... I calmed down and Jimmy called to confirm today.. which was nice... but I must say that I am doing a great job, because it is only when you become assured that assurance will come.. so I can congratulate myself for forgetting to worry! :-)

.... I managed to calm myself on the issue of Jimmy... I managed to calm myself, I managed to calm myself and and calmed myself enough and he called.. :-), also last night I woke up in a complete and total panic, my heart was pounding and I was terrified... and guess what many " thank you "s I calmed down enough to be able to go back to sleep which I really appreciated. Also I had wanted very much to have an egg sandwich for breakfast, there were no lines, it was quick and easy... I even managed to read a whole chapter from my book, quickly and easily... and even though I didn't have alarm this morning, I managed to get to work mostly on time... I am feeling soo much better... things are actually working out for me... I am managing.. things are working out okay... I am focusing on things that feel good, which is nice, also I am 70 for 70.... I also like  that this day is feeling good.. also I saw that movie with the blue Mini Cooper (this one) and it was even cold in the ...

... Things that I am feeling good about today... I am feeling better about things... I am feeling better about life and about my workmates, and the ones I still have issues with then I am working at it, also today I have written down all the things, and they are many, that I have to do. And already I have done sooo many. Now I am doing something I find a little difficult, I like that I was early enough to have breakfast, and I also discovered that it is possible to have coffee and eggs in the morning, boiled eggs, that is, also yesterday, at night, very late Jimmy called, and that was nice... I am appreciating hot water in my life... Also I found easily a vid on the success of my office.. and just had a nice tasty, also maybe I have found a way to make my life insurance thingi easier to do and even less expensive. I am sort of extatic that Will Smith talks like me... interesting... actually this guy is sort of amazing... it is nice to see LoA working soo amazingly!!! Today something ...

... I was feeling quite awful.. I decided to take today and 2 days next week off, then a workmate mentioned that she wouldn't be in today and at the time I was feeling like the whole world was coming down on me and so I decided to take yesterday afternoon off, and it amazingly a wonderful idea... really totally and completely wonderful idea. I feel as though I changed totally what I had been thinking and intending today to have a fabulous day and it started really great... this morning... I noticed a presence behind me, a big white guy, I noticed also that there were other people between myself and him but I could not feel them, meaning they were not staring at me... then finally I saw who it was... it was a guy who looks like an actor, the Harold Krenshaw guy from Monk.. he is very well built and he looks sooo nice.. I have noticed him staring at me before...  and was soo sweet, letting me pass in front of him and stuff.. you know.. 'you first', with a smile and all, we ev...

.... Just re-discovering that I am not really as creative as I think I am... :-) he he, anyhoo, last night I called Jimmy at around 8pm... and by that time my insides were literally screaming for me to call him, and when I did, he didn't pick up... then I got another  urgent message to call him as I am walking to the office after breakfast.... so I called again and he didn't pick again... then he called later... I was on another call, equally successful, and I think that at the time I called the conversation really went well, I was well and so was he...

.... is 777 I have just viewed the 777th view of this blog which is great! and also I thought about a calender.. Yesterday also I put up a picture that someone gave me... and it actually made my whole living room look better,   the whole room! I cannot wait to do rest of the room!!! in beautiful burgundy.. and I want to say " Thank you !!" for all the contrast... I want to appreciate my contrast... I want to appreciate things that hurt from which my joy comes from... Also I have been reading my books... it is sooo great that I am here... it is sooo great that I am here so that I can read my books... and do things in the evening...  I am remembering the € that I picked up.. ( did I tell that I picked up euros from the ground... well not quite but close... I am remembering how much I wanted to see giraffes, and I really really wanted to see them and I did, and I fed them and stroked one and even stalked them a little,  and also the loving tortoise that made me think of men ...

... I just got a banana.... what is happening is someone gave me a banana... and this morning I saw from a distance the most beloved Mini Cherished, and I remembered that my contract has been renewed,  and just now realising how easy it is to post things... also did I tell you that during this past weekend I bought some boots... very very cheaply and they fit great, they are from Brazil, so the style is amazing, and they are the like these ones from SERENITY!!! :-).... yep I have the serenity boots!!! Me!! :-) I really wanted to protect some money I had and I asked my IB and he suggested something and didn't take it back!! That almost never happens! Almost never.... I am not sure... but it could be that I have found it, but then again maybe not... but I think I now know where to make my Louis Medallion chairs... and interesting thing is that people not only know what they are but also know where to have them done!! :-).. Listening to nice music... loving it.... loving how good I am...

... first of all realising that I keep using the same heading over and over again... I am the same person I guess... also got a little money on my jobs site, also someone called me at 22:22 and it was Jimmy which is good right?.... also got some information I was looking for quickly and easily... also all this morning I have been working hard concentrating on my job which is good for me.. really good.. also today I was playing with posting and I learnt how to format things without too many changes, also I am working well, also something... also I am doing well easily, also suddenly my relationships are succeeding easily, also I got the renewal to my contract, I had been wondering about that but now it is here... things are good.. also the new way to post... amazingly easy... super dupa!!!also did I tell you that the number of people who like my page is increasing... I think that absence brings forth fondness, also something nice that is happening... my workmate is busy so I ca...

.... today I have a chance to say " THANK YOU!!!! " for my contrast...  and something nice has happened, something really nice... those kind people at the Foreign Ministry have acknowledged receipt of a letter I sent them... ... they never do that...  that was nice... Also last night I made the most amazing fish.... really nice and amazing fish... really nice and amazing fish... and I have some left so I will be able to  enjoy it again...

..... has so far started well,  I a m feeling good, working hard, I managed to pivot on an important issue, also I am working at enjoying the thing that I do for a living... carrying my car and jogging and walking and things like that... overall, life is good, but considering all this maybe it is just easier to walk home, no? On related issues, my new boss will start work on 11 July and come to new office (here) on 22 August :-).. I have just discovered that my money at has come x 2... as in money from the insurance and that guy that owed me money...has paid, now I can happily furnish my house, that will be done this coming weekend... The electricity where I work has been going off and on interrupting work for a while, so I got the last available UPS connection  :-) and because of the interruptions now I get to listen to " Should I go " by Brandy again... and again... :-)

5 July 2011 Yesterday morning I saw this beautiful bird, absolutely beautiful, it had an orange red neck and blue sparkling striking blue head... also I woke with this amazing hangover... so obviously I knew that that day would be good.. and the day was pretty good, I spent the day arranging my stuff and I did it really very well... also I have some pics of Kenyan meats that I am finding particularly exciting right now... and I am enjoying that I am finding them fun... also thinking that today is the day for learning about procurement... it is a good day to learn about procurement, today is a good day to learn about procurement... all this really will be well.. good things of this morning, managed to get my coffee and samosa, also happy that loos are available and the bank is available here.. the bank is available here..   Guess what is happening to me today.... I am reading procurement... MS502 and guess what else.. it is not too terrible... GOOD news.... it seems that there is a...