Ten Thousand Buttons

... woke up, put water, managed to halfway meditate... (also noticing the odd thing that when I sleep with TV, things go bad, when I sleep with meditation, things improve... ) relations were good, I woke up in the middle of the night and horrific thoughts on  and read Prison to Praise and it really calmed me, even enough to go back to sleep and in the morning things were cool, hits are coming in WITHOUT my help in the jobs page, also I had a delicious 7-10 minutes with this guy from the office who is fast becoming my favorite workmates, it was soo easy and light and fun.. I think he actually likes me.. and on this day when I was looking good!! :-) and the thing that I thought was mandatory and was stresssing me turns out to be optional!!!!! woo hoo and 2 hours overtime!!!!

... I checked from yesterday that I got some money... I even got a new idea on internet that could be useful. also I have lost a little weight... Some old clothes are fitting better... :-)

.. and really it felt like it is all over.. then I talked to him this lunch time and he was nice, for the first time in such a long time.. and I actually have been feeling better so much better, he even sort of apologised to me.. a little ... he even did something for me

.....got it and all bosses are gone so I can go to!! this early!! too!!

... because I think I have escaped something.. anyhoo, I should not have been going there to begin with.. it reminds me of last week... I got lots of money from boyfy, and bought some clothes I look good in.. also I discovered today that he weight I had lost, remain lost, till now... also I have finished writing 2 reports... woo hooo to me!!!

.... surprise for me... yesterday I had a sort of  'vision' about a blue cheese burger.. and guess what Cyrile gave me a K this morning for lunch... so guess what.. my surprise to me is to have the blue cheese burger for lunch!!!!! and it was wonderful... also my jobs page has just earned a little money... though really there was no click.. also jobs again are coming easily and again people are joining my page... which is just perfect!!  also, I have received like 10,000 jobs.. he he he ..and 2hours overtime!! I am on a role!!! might even travel!!

... my jobs page is becoming regular... as in the hits are coming even if I don't advertise or try to get people or hits... :-)... maybe it is time to try a little.... also got some money from Cyrile after seeing sign... then just seen birthday greetings from Abraham-Hicks... also in the midst of doodling I solved a problem I was having... also there are more jobs  that are still valid than I expected... I am even getting  request to post on my page!! :-), also, something nice.. for the first time in a really long while I was smaller.. yesterday, I felt a fatty "stone" in my boob while I slept and today no... also the fitting of the dress I am wearing is soo much better.. also I am feeling like I can walk much faster than before.. and I think I will walk a little.. I like that... also I am finding that the things I have been doing are working... also, I woke up this morning  and instantly started criticizing Cyrile, then for the first time in a very long time I ...

... I got my credit for the month... so now I have some credit... for me!!! also I got a good conversation, also feeling a little better about my life.. I was just thinking about the way everything is shitty, but that is really ok now, I am not feeling great but now  I am feeling better. I am thinking even if my life is about to end, doesn't mean that I have to cry about it. Also things always seemed shitty before with Cyrile but they always have worked out so maybe all will be well.                                                                                                                                          

... at lunch time nothing was working my way cause of many delays... then I discovered that, actually everything was working my way!!:-).. alsi