Ten Thousand Buttons

... and it went weird...she basically told me I didn't have a real shot and that it was doubtful that I would get the job...OK cool...but something happened when I was there..I discovered that it is important to continue with things..very important to not give up on things.... someone started a sight and now has an office in Dusit2 and mine I am just let mine lie...I currently have access to 31,000 Kenyans I could be working with and I am not...I am just looking at me and feeling sorry for myself. Aso, I started thinking about employment...I can work with the things that I have instead of things that I don't have...continue with my world instead of looking for things that are outside me. Also..I am still in a bubble...a bad bubble but a bubble all the same.

Someone sent me a link to join a platform that deals in forex that had USD 30 already loaded. I was so anxious and of course had no idea what I was doing ..finally, I just hit an x and stopped all trading and I made some money! 24cts!! I made 24cts!!!! That is 100% free money! 100% free money!

I am feeling better. I am feeling soooo much better. I have been feeling so afraid of everything lately. Today was a good day. I wrote twice. And each time I felt actually better..  (It has been a minute!!!! I am happy that I felt better than when I started. That feels good. Really good. Also one of the puppies chose me as a favourite... He adores me. He always follows me everywhere. Today he actually relaxed in my arms and started to sleep.. That was solo cool. ...I had to let him wake up cause I was cooking.... But I appreciated the love. Also today I listened to Laura.. It was weird. It was really good. It helped me with a few things. Spaces I had about places I have..perfect.