Ten Thousand Buttons

... I am feeling better about me, also something major happened yesterday that I thought would drown and go under it, but I am feeling good now, even thanking God a little for those things... Also something interesting..2 men from my past have manifested, and there is this guy I get on with who for some reason has been trying really hard to get my attention... I must be in love...

.. I recently manifested many many pens, some of which write amazing!! Also yesterday I made a wonderful amazing meal  and I absolutely loved it, also many days ago I downloaded some Brahma Kumaris Meditations,  and was not able to get them into my phone the last time, and this time all of them without any issues, all of them, I get to  do my new meditations.. (I am very happy about them)

.. I am grateful that  I have something to work on, I am grateful that I was full of panic and I got soothed in the middle of the night, I am grateful that I have this job, I am grateful that things are actually okay, I am grateful that there is someone who is irritating me and I am learning how to be okay  with that, I am getting back inside the vortex, really inside the vortex, feeling the good feelings that, also I am beginning to get grid work thingi..

.. that is today is going well, I have been having a cheque that I haven't cashed for a while, and now I wanted some money to pay off things and at the same time I didn't want to go the SACCO and also needed the money before lunch time today. But the boss had a meeting at 10.00 and a driver happened to be available to take me, then I got to the bank and there was no one at the counter, processes went on quickly and I was able to get back to the office at exactly 11.00am like I wanted. Also I had been wanting for a while to have at least one day away from the office, during the week and I have been managing... last week I was away on Thursday.. sick, yesterday, away funeral, next week Tuesday, labour day!! Also I had a wonderful evening with Cyrille, very nice..

.... like a week ago I was in complete crisis, Cyrille was on his way back and I was supposed to live with him and for the life of me I could not stand him!! I tried all the things I knew, but nothing changed I had an ache in my heart, and finally I sort of gave up  and the answer sort of came, (a) meditate much more (b) say " thank you " about the specific things you have issues with, and I did as much as I could, and we were not really in contact, then on Thursday night, he called to say he was at the airport, for leg one, which meant it was just a matter of time before he came back, and I panicked, but I kept trying, and now though it has been not without contrast, it is working well, really well, I am even beginning to work on the other things about the relationship that were issues, you know.. him.. my family and him... and I think it might be working.... :-) also I was at hospital yesterday and my blood pressure is down to normal levels many points without the significa...

... There is this dude, many years ago ( last year) that I had a crush on and it seems he maybe coming to work with us... (Interesting).... also you remember the thing I was for, for my mom, well what I was supposed to get was something that would cost 3,500!!! but when I got to the shop, it turns out it works and only costs 200 shillings!! woo hoo!! also that thing that my mom says will not work, can work, and it really reasonably prized.. much more than the solution she is seeking, and this one is also permanent!! Also all those things that I thought I needed to spend soo much more, and it seem cost soo much less, and I even have the name of a plumber... also, also I think I got a solution for the toilet seat... also car is ready and it will be delivered at home.. which is cool, I don't really have strength to go all the way to get it...:-)

... something that is developing is that I have car repairs to do, and I really believed that it would cost a bomb and I was informed that it would cost 10k less than I expected, which made me want to shout!!! then it will be ready in not today, which is very cool cause I really want to go to town today to run some errands, also I managed to have lunch with sometimes un-appreciated one and it went well... I even paid :-) also 5 minutes to HOME!!!!

.... many months ago,someone had irritated me greatly!! Instead of thinking about them, I decided to think about the food I had just bought, it was red hot chilli samosa, and kebabs, and I spent such a long time dreaming about how wonderful the meal would be and how I would enjoy it, those thoughts are the ones that kept running over and over in my head, and filled my head with the dreams of a wonderful meal and it turned out to be one of the best little fast food take out meal I have ever had!! :-), I also  think I am managing to get a solution for my toilet issues...  :-) also something funny happened today, a big-ass bossman caught me in the middle of a boogie woogie session

.. I left the house, then after being called back for 200 metres, I went back home and I had nothing to read, cause I was going to have an omelet for breakfast, I had some time..... Then I thought to carry the " thank you ".. then guess what the very first story is about my exact issue, I am very happy to say,  " thank you "!!!!  I flexed my muscle today, I actually flexed my muscle and it worked, not all the way but it worked, I got a scaredy call from someone and I wouldn't pick from fear, then I calmed me down and it went okay... And  i r

... yesterday I was on the phone in the matt, and I realised after getting off that I had not paid the fare...  he he he more money to me!! Oh yeah,  Mom got an internet phone so now I no longer have to know about American politics!! Also yesterday Mom, wanted to me feel sorry for  a really powerful man and I ended up giving her this enthusiastic preaching session, that she was not only not ready for but did  not appreciate!! he he, very funny for me... I finally got my revenge!!!! was very happy with that... also this morning, I felt and thought really good thoughts of my Magnificent Man!!! I like that I can feel this!!! :-).... also I was just listening to Abraham... I am very upset, and at OOC I can record that the last time I was upset at him was in 2010 or maybe 2008!! so it is possible to not be upset with someone for 3 or 4 years!! also something interesting, there is this company many years ago, and then everyone I know had lost all faith, then they were dr...

... is not an easy day for me, things are just the way they are and it is sort of not easy for me... I may require to read things from before. Also I am remembering on Sunday, there is something I didn't want to do with someone, and I thought up all these lies, then I couldn't think of any any more, and when I called to tell my lies, the person I was calling was not available even after I called her twice, which gave me enough time to get into the matt and away... also remember that I was able to tell my brother info from my IB... well it was interesting to note how accurate it was...

This morning for some reason I am feeling that my good feelings are more important, much more important than other things... I got up this morning could not decide what to wear for the life of me.. I settled for something and then changed my mind which is really great! and the result is that I am looking really good! I am enjoying this good look! Also my boss is away for the week!!! He has left for an all day meeting and he is on leave tomorrow till Tuesday!! and BTW I can take that day off!! :-) ... also this morning, I was really really late.. but I got a lift from one of my favorite people in the world right now, (BTW did I tell you OOC made me feel really good and special) and we talked and talked, and we even shared an umbrella and because it was soo tiny we had to be really really close... it was soo great!! really great!  Also I made a really delicious meal  last night, made of things that remained from before... also I had a good night's sleep, for the first time in su...

... also I am looking forward to all the sleeping I will get to do soon, also there is something I have been wanting, to pack my car in the back so that I am free to walk to and fro work, and today I managed, I went home at lunch time and managed! Also I noticed during the weekend that I looked to me to have lost weight.. and now it seems that the rain will pour.. I certainly hope soo. It is BTW.. pouring.. I want to inside my bed, alseep! I have a small prayer if it comes true, thank you God, if not thank you God, it is well

...  Friday, I had  a wonderful time everything went may way.. everything went my way, I even started to go home and was detained for 1,000KES... then Saturday, everything went to hell, which is as it should be, and that is going well, mostly, also I dreamt that someone gave me back that key, also on Sato after my experiences, my brother threatened to come see me and asses the damage, I was sooo panicked, at some point I even woke up in a sweat of fear that he would show up, then something  told me to calm down and not even think about it, and guess what, he didnt!!!! woo hooo!!! Also that dude I love, he invited me to sit right next to him... for like 30 minutes... :-) Otherwise have a fabulous evening.. I am having wine and pork or chicken.. :-)