Ten Thousand Buttons

... I just have been having a difficult time in the house... room I moved into... it has its stuff. .. then a few days ago the poker went off. I had a few ways of getting to sleep.. One of which was thinking about puppies and the other thinking about a scene in " Being Erica" where there was dude who was in love with a chick and she told him she hurt him first.... and they kissed. And I could remember all the emotions I felt when I watched this scene..... ... then day two of no electricity. ... I really sleep in my noisy boisterous neighbour inspires me to clean house... and as it is so little it is easy.... though it is in the dark and I cannot really see what I am doing.  After thinking about all the anger that I am thinking of I sit outside to write all these things that I am thinking... then the loud boisterous neighbour runs down stairs and suddenly I have power!!!!! I almost cannot believe it. My anger prevented me from enjoying it then but I really am now.. Later he ...

So today I woke up really late... especially for me especially of late. ... I just sat and listened to Abraham for a while. It was fun. It was video so it was great. .. I don't have my nice working heater only the busted one... which to be honest I wasn't sure it was working.  I tried it and it worked great!  Then I started to look for  clothes to wear... I wanted to wear this dress and I got the idea to open this one box.... and there it was! Showering and dressing  was cool.  I even managed to clear some things and make more space for me. Which is cool. Got out bought me back pain meds made my way to Buru Buru.. got the person who cleaned my shoes and charged 30 bob... got my sausages, was  not charged for fare... (woo hoo!!!!!) I came to Gigiri and discovered that I had not been booked in.... so I figured that there would be a miracle that would enable me get in.... when I reached the gate, there was a kind lady walking in the Guest of Honor... so I g...

......I a  back at Ngara. I have been for 2 weeks. It has been really good. Really good. This past week I have been inside the vortex just to be inside the vortex.... but yesterday for some reason I was so outside.  Then some money came in.... real money... that I can do stuff with.... real stuff... There is some work to do but that is alright. ... I understand really what to do.  I am feeling again that I can do this. That I can live here and live well too. That all of this can be all right.....

.... this day... it started so amazing... yesterday....  I was sad.. really sad... so amazingly sad... and discouraged... I fixed up some stuff  and I got home to?.... cupcakes... and cookies... :-) so amazing!!!  Oh yes and ICECCREAM!!!!! AMAZING!!!!N And They were soo light and sooo delightlfull... her is a pic.... I was up all night... ALL NIGHT.... till about 8 am... watching basic crap... but really good crap... I am soooo Adicted... seriously.. it is like a disease... ARE YOU THE ONE... ... I am soo addicted... so very addicted and I was soo happy that I had 3 episodes never been watched... oooh heaven.... reall  heaven.....  Then I started watching, " Republic of Doyle " it is sooo fun... and by then it was already morning... like 8 am.... then I slept... and during my sleep I dreamed that Mr. Will Smith, was really into me... there was a time we were doing it in  a moving car, on top and it got blown up, and we didn't ..... we hid insid...

... I discovered that I am not the only one who like the avatar shows..... sort of crazy about it though..... also the people who lived here left lots of cup cakes...... lots of cup cakes. ... and some cookies... They all taste amazing...... and I am not a cake person

I am really sick.. not feeling well ..... but on the good news. .. I have 100 likes on my new page... my first milestone

I got a discount on the work I am doing then I got into an accident. ... my fault and the other driver waved me on!!!!!!!

So today I woke up late or early... or whatever. ... managed to provide good support.  I got to town in record time. Felt good, really good today.  I did all the things that I was supposed to.  I paid all my bills ALL MY BILLS!!!  Including rent!  I finally got the opportunity to leave town at almost 3pm.  I wondered if I would manage to get to the school on time.  The traffic was amazing! !!! None what so ever!  I got there in time,  with time to spare. I was able to clear all things and even was fun and entertaining!  I really wanted the stuff that I wanted from my sister. ... even the money! !!!! I even managed to get the money all the 5kg from last week.  All the money from last week! !!!!!!  Also,  my sister gave me the stuff that I wanted. .... I am excited really excited! !!! Also guess what! !!!!!! My beautiful, beautiful bamboo has a new shoot!!!!!!  A perfect new shoot !! That is perfect and gorgeous!...

... I had really been wanting to get a break. .. really ... then Thursday and Friday. .. boy 'sick' so no work.... ....I got the break that I have been craving... then Friday. .. I go to this place and I just listen to Abraham and make notes.... it was so perfect... such a perfect day.... such a perfect day

So this day. ...yesterday actually I prepared all my trash on time... I put all of the pieces together and arranged them all neat and tidy and put everything together. I left for a bit and when I got back someone had  removed some of the trash. It made me feel bad.  I picked  everything up and put it inside. I told me to remind me to put the alarm and wake up at 6 am and put the stuff outside. .. I forgot. .. maybe because of the drinks... BUT this morning I woke up. .. I looked outside and there was light and I told me that there was no way it could be early enough to make it to the pick up and I WAS!!!! I really was. .. I couldn't believe it!  I was so happy. .. so very happy! !!! And that was my miracle of the day! !!!

....... I was really hungry and was really thinking about what to eat. I thought about the breorwores. . I went to the shop and my friend the friendly guy that I like who darts me from time to time. . I  found the ride to Hawi's really weirdly easy.. really. .. I was on my way to the school when I realised that I have 2 men in my life who I like very much. ..who like me the way I am crazy hair fat old with white hair.... just me and I like them... I really do like them.... with a purity...

... wanting for for a while more money... ( a lot more money)  but not really wanting to change my life... In fact  I have been wanting a little to do less... 😀😊..😁.... I have been wanting to be self pleasing. I have been wanting to earn money and I have been getting more crochet orders. . Only the g is that I haven't been wanting to do the work!!!! Yesterday I felt that I should relax, really relax, and that I will get that person that I want... who actually wants to do the work. .  I put out some adverts and last night someone contacted me... I didn't respond.  Today she called me!!! She is also  is really good. .. A little expensive but it is cool... really cool... I have also been contacted again.  I feel good about putting out even more adverts. .. love

.... I was in a matatu... it was a nice matatu... with space and music... just the way I like them and guess what the ride was free... really free.. and I thought... this is the first time in a while that I have taken my free money... I actually took the free money... Yesterday I got this seriously torn 50 Shs note... really torn right down to the middle.... then guess what... today I bought my colored pens ...... they look exactly like their covers,... they are sooo very beautiful... really beautiful... ... I love soo much how beautiful they are... I like that they are sooo beautiful; they write like pens.... perfectly like beautiful neon coloured fountain pens.... so perfect...  I like looking at what I have written... and just enjoy the total multi colour thing... love it... Also today I finally managed to get the money that I have been getting as discount into the Nakumatt Card which is really very cool....also something else.... I got the Reaper.. you know the TV series...

Guess what! !!!!! I have a cousin let's call him Burton, I felt very betrayed when he accepted the invitation from my mortal enemy 😊.. anyhoo he did and apparently the visit didn't go as  thought it would it went really badly for my mortal enemy.... I am so happy! I got my REVENGE! !!!!!! Also... today I talked to someone I feel light love for. .. and he was nice... being nice and loving and real... it was really nice... really nice

... I had an interesting day... I had a made an order for something and when I had  no desire to get out of the house and loo for the money I needed to pay for all of this.  Then they came to deliver ... I thought okay. .. then thought through God.. All of this will be  fine.... then it turned out that the materials I had were inadequate.. .. then I started to talk negotiation. . .. and it turned out that the work could not be done... I talked to all and everyone and everyone was in agreement  I almost couldn't believe it!!!!!!! I didn't have any money and I didn't eventually need any money... so cool.. so cool... so very cool..  I had been watching sense8 and it got me in this sense of mind... I guess God was working his miracles .....

So this day ended up really cool. Really very cool. I ended up having everything that I wanted.  Even up to now with this black out. I am here reading up on things that will make me feel good about me. So much Abraham! !!!!! I spent a day basking and the end results were amazing! !!!! I am even reading more that finally money dropped from the skies. Finally money fell from the sky for me. Finally I have money that I have been dreaming about. The money that falls from the sky..... really very cool. Really very cool.

So this day. .. This day I left home quite late. I reached the office where I was to buy the glass. It was so easy to get to the office. I asked for a parking near the ATM. And I did. It was near really near. Really  near. Then I went to  pay for the parking, it turned out to be free. I could not believe it.  Not To all. Not at all. I cannot remember the last time I got free parking.  Then I went to the place to buy the glass. I asked IB which way to go. She said left, I had wanted  to go right. I was so sure right was the proper way to go. But left was so perfect. So very perfect and so easy. Cars went out of their way to give me space.  The information was easy.  Really easy.  They were even nice. I went and got the Windows fasteners for way cheaper than than I thought they would be.  By 150%!!!!! Getting to the next place was easy. There was this serious serious jam. At some point I hoot. Ask someone which way are you going? He says right...

You will not believe what happened to me today.  I went to this thing and I really  didn't want to go.  Then I had a drink. Decided to power through it. I was very energetic and happy and I tried to be happy.   It took a while and today I really tried really tried to have a good time.  It wasn't working. ... not really. ... I went to talk to these nice ladies and it turned out okay... I decided that I liked that girl. I decided to go for a walk and it changed my mind. I saw KBF. ..W It was so great... I remembered great things about Manfy. .. really nice things like how I could talk to him.  How much fun he was. How amazing he was. How much I liked him. ..... then I realised that I had a crush on one of the girls. ... The big one.. I don't know. .. I was too crazy to be near her... she is so something that I like. . Really. .. really... I want her in my life. Really do..... I noticed that she gave me a look when she was leaving. .. I like that she not...

... I woke at about 10th,  which was so much earlier than I expected. I had breakfast then went  home, watered some plants then got very serious inspiration to go to  the  UN about the SACCO loan issue   when I got there I got bitch slapped by  the cop that was there. I realised that it was because of my crappy vibration. . All that maharaja that I was getting ... and I knew it had to be me.  Then I was there being frozen, then suddenly I saw these people that I know and managed to get in.  It was alright.  The bank was nice really nice.  They gave me assistance I  many ways.  They added my  passport to my account then they allowed me to change they allowed me to transfer funds to the SACCO and I managed to talk to the really  cute guy. I couldn't believe my luck! At the SACCO they were also very helpful. Gave me options I had not thought of.  I now have paid off the my loan till like 3 months into the futu...

...I was a bit anxious cause manfy was supposed to show but plans were not concrete and I had not heard from him.  I was anxious I will not lie and kept wondering when he would communicate.  I finally got distracted by Castle while having a meal and he did.  He was all apologetic for bouncing me and promised to make it up to me.  I am going to sleep now but I really should find a way to relax about him. 

So this guy... This tender man, this tender sexy man, who really fucks like a God. This beautiful funny lovely man.  He is nice and intelligent sarcastic and funny and tender.  I love that he is tender.  I like that he is incredibly tender.  I like tender.  I cannot believe how lucky I am that he is here with me.  So many things that I want.  He is better than I think.  Really. .. very nice I like better than I think. 

.....I have been having the most difficult time with my manfy .and I was watching Eureka and I got a weird answer to wait cause the answer would come.  So I took a break from wanting to break from him.  I worked hard to find my peace with him and it is so much better than i expected.  We went for a drink and we will be going out again in a bit. .. This is going well