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...I was a bit anxious cause manfy was supposed to show but plans were not concrete and I had not heard from him.  I was anxious I will not lie and kept wondering when he would communicate.  I finally got distracted by Castle while having a meal and he did.  He was all apologetic for bouncing me and promised to make it up to me.  I am going to sleep now but I really should find a way to relax about him. 

So this guy... This tender man, this tender sexy man, who really fucks like a God. This beautiful funny lovely man.  He is nice and intelligent sarcastic and funny and tender.  I love that he is tender.  I like that he is incredibly tender.  I like tender.  I cannot believe how lucky I am that he is here with me.  So many things that I want.  He is better than I think.  Really. .. very nice I like better than I think. 

.....I have been having the most difficult time with my manfy .and I was watching Eureka and I got a weird answer to wait cause the answer would come.  So I took a break from wanting to break from him.  I worked hard to find my peace with him and it is so much better than i expected.  We went for a drink and we will be going out again in a bit. .. This is going well