Ten Thousand Buttons

..... I am actually feeling better about being me... also I was right about  yesterday's rally, 226 page views, highest ever on  a single day, and at this second total page views for the sight is 12244! nice, huh! Also yesterday a friend called and I might see her next weekend... only homework... cleaning on my vibration... A friend has just given me a cake for breakfast.... I think that it will be my picture for today, also something that helped my mood much is reading Belana's posting on money... I like how many friends are online today, I like that for the most part the thing that I am enjoying the most is the smell of this cake, not even eating it, just smelling it.. .. and an issue I was following up on doesn't require anymore work... and something weird and interesting... I am more positive when indulging in 'bad' behaviour... drinking alcohol, coffee... I am getting friends on a page that I didn't expect to get friends... it is really cool... sort of like...

..... positively the best day I have had in a while!  Today at the jobs page I discovered a new person has liked the Facebook page... I disappointed my sister but it ended up good, Jimmy was by, and it was nice to see him... even nicer that I ' called ' him... also I was thinking about him and I realised that on paper he is everything I had asked for... EVERYTHING... and at this second I am enjoying the joy of " I cannot get it wrong " !!! he he.. also in other news, I have found another house!! Hopefully it will be something I can like... cause I have been wanting to pay rent and being asked not to... and for some reason today there is a rally at the jobs page, at this second the numbers are much higher than they usually are! Which is really super... Something quite amazing is happening to me at this second.... my lovely colleague is telling me to do what it is that I have been wanting to do... which so really very true Also when I am feeling good, my life is goo...

... I am soo behind in all things... all things... I have some photos that I want to post here but I am not seeing time... Also yesterday I had thought... things are working out... I have enough posts for my jobs site, which is really very cool, also yesterday in fact 3 days ago, I woke up from a dream and got this message to call Jimmy, and it was Wednesday really early in the morning.. like 3 am... and it said, to call Jimmy tomorrow, and  by that, they meant Thursday! Then yesterday came and for the life of me I didn't want to call, but it was on my mind.... so later.. I got the message to only call when I felt good... later after a beer (or 2) I got this urgent call to call him now!!! And I did, and we talked about nothing really and guess what so far today he has called me twice.. after not calling for nearly 3 weeks... so I guess the message was true...  Now I am wondering about all those messages I have been receiving and not paying attention!! Now these ar...

... I saw my dream car in this shape. There it was in front of me, I forgot to mention yesterday, I think it is the reason why I followed the route I followed yesterday, to see this car, and then I saw it again in a programme in the evening, it was also read but a convertible. Also, I have been wanting for the longest time to do something else... many other things for a living and lately I have been trying my jobs page, cause it is sort of fun and it has been becoming successful for me, but yesterday I was feeling particularly discouraged and bored by all of it, and I tried cleaning up on the issue.. I am actually feeling really good about it, really good. I even posted somethings in it this morning and it was okay. Really okay maybe even fun.  I am feeling like I can do this. I can really do this...I really want to do this. Also today... is  the first time in a while, 3 or so weeks that I have more money than  I need. I actually have literally more money than I need....

.... I have woken up feeling good.... I mean really good.. I love this feeling... it is a really good feeling... I can attribute this feeling to a person who caused me to want things again.. also a friend who I lent money over the weekend refunded yesterday night!! So now I have enough money for the today and tomorrow! and now it is 11:55am!! or well it was 3 minutes ago, I am also remembering one day, I wanted to get me a drink and at the same time I was thinking of Jimmy and I agonized so much cause I didn't have enough money for the two, either me or him! I thought about it for a really long time, then eventually decided to buy mine instead of his, and in the end it worked out, so very well for me, I think he didn't show up or something... Also one of my toilet mates is not in so I might get some meditation time... Also yesterday I was thinking about Johnny Bravo, and just now I have seen that someone on my Facebook home page has JB as their profile picture...  Also ...

.... So... I got some money from my jobs page... a little more than yesterday... I kept getting the money feeling.. today someone has made some serious enquiries about my site... I think I might get another follower! I like how easy this is... I just got another interesting job to post which was really cool... my friends are growing AND it they are the ones that want to be friends... also I wish to leave my current abode, I am looking for something cheaper, in a place I can live in... and I just saw an advert for a place... something that is sounding interesting... and at the same time it will be ready when I want to move out of my house.. price wise okay and it is an sq which means fewer people and in an enclosed space and maybe who knows grass!! Yesterday I had an interesting experience, I thought about someone for a bit last week, then yesterday I had this urge, very strong urge to go to a particular supermarket at a particular time and I met someone who wanted to revenge on m...

... the money I needed came through and I ended having the weekend that I wanted to have... also I have received so many hits this past week... it was really good, I think I broke some  records or something... I also received some money from this, I managed to do some work on my jobs site which super!! I put a few jobs that I found and the hits started already going up, by much which is really exciting! Still about money, I got all the money I needed to indulge in all my bad habits.. I even had enough to lend someone who is in a similar position. Also I got to work sooo early!! at 7.15am!! managed to get some work done!! Yesterday I was watching a series   and saw this exact car!! Beautiful huh... It is now 11:55 am... I wasn't feeling so hot this morning but I ate and walked and now I am feeling really really good ... then I checked out my jobs site and guess what!!!! Dough!!! and hits hits hits galore! I am enjoying this.. I really am enjoying this... it is...

.... but that is greatly appreciated.. hits continue to rain my way!! Loving that very much!! Yesterday I went to pay my part credit card bill and  I was not charged the extra charge they were supposed to.. then later I got extra fries... for free!! I am also feeling really good about the French school and loving the fact that I can afford it 100%.... also there's a chance that I might be able to quite my job.!!! and the transport is cheap!!! I made a mistake and  sent an email to someone I was not supposed to send to...and it came back, the account no longer exists.. GUESS WHAT... the money.. ALL the money has come through!!

... I already have good news... I received good mail from my sister... I have a plan for leaving this beautiful place I am in, also some new likes my jobs page  on Facebook!! my page view are many... still, also I am still receiving views on this page.. Yesterday evening I had the most amazing evening... I called Jimmy, it went better than I expected, had a wonderful time at home... did some stuff... also I might have a chance to travel and study.... twice!! my new boss is not yet here so I could go!! woo hoo... I just found a school that might be affordable to me... This Saturday   I have a commitment to walk for about 18 kilometers... I was supposed to see my sister that day also to go out, so I was wondering how to tell her... I have already bounced her twice... guess what... she called and I saw her missed call... and when I called her, she has something really important that has just come up so we cannot meet after all!!! I have been thinking about looking for a sc...

I am finally feeling better. I am finally feeling better... Also people were nice to me, ALSO I have job openings to add on to my jobs site!!! :-)  And I have even more friends!!! More views to my page!! Happy Happy!! Also New source of Jobs!! Woo hoo! I like that I am feeling this good. OOC was by, also less than one hour to go before home home home time!!!  I like that I am enjoying my time here, I like that I am enjoying my time here.. I am enjoying my joy... also there's this lady she is older than me, she is not really pretty and she has a beautiful man who is prettier than her!! I want that... also I am very very grateful that I have all these tools, I don't need these things to feel good, but I am enjoying having them!!!  Thank you Source... for all this!  Also I have been wanting to visit my sister for a while and now I have a way to save a little money and visit her...  I love the way I am feeling right now... I love the way I am feeling right now, I ...

Yesterday I got more hits in my jobs blog, than I ever have had in my whole life!!! 211!!!! ( and I am at 888 for the month)this AND... I made money!! Also I had a very vivid dream about a future person in my life. He was good looking and we came together really fast, I did some gutsy things, he thought I was with someone else, I showed him that I was with a girl friend, and he insisted on showing everyone that I was with him, at some point we were with this beautiful girl with beautiful, delicate features and small hands, he took her hand, she was next to him then he looked at the hand, let it go and took mine, later he asked me to be his girlfriend, I mentioned that we were in different towns, he said he didn't care, he wanted commitment from me... he's English was good, he had money, he was good looking,  and I liked very much was how quickly we came together, and how comfortable we were, I was inside his arms... it was nice. Interesting, I have been thinking about someone a...

.... to feel good about my money situation in relationship to my savings... which are little!!!  Hits have for me in all sites gone UP!!! and I like that, also I managed to walk in the morning, I managed to access some money to pay for fare, I have been keeping up with correspondences, and people have been replying to my messages, so no need to call them. Which is already super cool!! I just received a job which I have posted x3 already, I have a pic for today... well 3 days ago but it is available still, I like that Friday driving was really easy, I like that I have nice feeling thoughts in my head!! I like that in some subjects I really know what I am supposed to do, I like that I am softening a little on the subject of Jimmy, I am happy that I managed to go to Pauline's... I like that I went when I was feeling better before I went... I like that hours are moving fast today... money is coming my way... the more money has come!!!!! Can you believe it! I have now Kshs 5,000 mo...

.... FANTASTIC!!! Maybe it is the coffee.... but I am drunk in love and I am loving that so much... it has been a while that I was in the vortex this long... you know what happened is that I went for a meeting I didn't what to go for... I am not really invovled in it, and people  like to insist that I go soo... anyhoo, I spent the time cleaning up on so many subjects... Jimmy mostly and now I am not even thinking about him... I am just feeling sooo good... I love this feeling... I have missed this feeling... I want more and more and more and more and more.. and now I am listening to train... she's on fire...and it is sooo amazing!! Also I have a date with Mr. Kivindyo!! I am really loving that... also I have jobs to add to my jobs page and that is really very cool!! It is my most visited site.. that has produced 99.999% of the money I have made through Google adsense... I love that I love that... I love the freedom I have I love the freedom... and the hits... they are up!! I lo...

I got a really good joke from a friend, also I have also received so many more hits that I have in a while... a really long while, and the money I earned yesterday, I discovered it was more..... and my sister paid me, so I was able to clear some debts, I have taken my meds, someone noticed that I lost weight and finally I have  a video I took this morning... only I have just discovered that I tilted my phone wrong so you will have to tilt your head to see it :-(... anyhoo here it is... there was a burst pipe  and the water it was jetting up  water soo high, it looked a little like at water fountain... only this was not on purpose... but it was very pretty and became my rather bad vid.. well it is not as bad as I thought. he he Also there is this meeting that I was asked to set up and for some reason I couldn't get myself to do it, and guess what.. it has been cancelled!!! Woo hoo!! I was wondering about that... I got phone credit today.. also a colleague went to the shop...

....already I have 4 hits on my Abe page...and that is a good thing, also this morning made it barely to the salon and got my hair straightened, so maybe I could braid it later... or something like that.. also the hair itself was styled by a  stylist so it is looking fairly good, I finally have milk tea... (woo hoo.... so now is breakfast time) also this morning in the mat the conductor had the choice to give me change with an old note but instead he chose  the newer note to give to me... isn't that fabulous!! I got some money....!!!! I got €.0.80!!! from my jobs site... thank you very much Father!! I also just found a sofa bed that I like... I might change a few things.. but it is really what I want!!! What do you think? Great, huh?! I just love this life!!! Also I have just appropriated a folder.. happy me.. I  managed to do my feel good meditation.. and my sister promised to send me money this evening... isn't that cool... also I just remembered how I could top up my a...

.... are coming my way... gosh even this site is popular!! which is cool... it is something I have wanted for a long time... and here it is... also I didn't get treatment last evening...  I actually didn't get treatment, I went to see the 'doctor' but they couldn't figure out what was wrong with me.. so now I have to go back later... also today is my 444 post which is cool... very cool. also, remembering the thing.. BTW yesterday and the evening terror...well, I tried to take a cab and it damned near impossible... then a mat shows up, I thought they would charge Kshs 100 they charge 40... and then when in town the mat came to a stop, a complete stop for about 30 minutes.. and even when the adjacent vehicles would move this mat would not.. so I got off and started walking, and because I have already done this many times, it was easy really easy... all the unsafe spots were safe because there were soo many people also walking, and I could also walk between the car...

.... where 1 is just okay and 1000 is fabulous.... :-), my stomach feels so very flat today and I had a look at it today and it looked sooo much smaller today... even while sitting!! I feel rather happy about that... also my toilet mates are not in so I am free to spend more time there... it is now.12:22pm... I have this DVD player with screen which I am not sure I want to get rid of immediately and at the same time I feel I want to live without it for a bit... so I am not feeling very well.