Ten Thousand Buttons

... Well let me start with the weekend, I have been imagining myself having a laptop for work.. .you know my money work, and I had been picturing without the intention, a laptop with a mouse and really fast internet and guess what, boyfriend brought his laptop over to my place to test his internet.. and there I was, with a laptop and mouse, with internet!!!! then had wonderful movie times... with the HUGE screen TV and the surprise DVD player, a wonderful guy... (much more wonderful than I think)  Also I have been feeling myself sliding out of the vortex so I meditated before I slept, then again when I woke up. As I was getting ready I felt me sluggish and lazy and could not get me to do the things I had to do to get ready, and guess what, when I got to the stage the office van was there!!! I was even able to get love and faith into my veins...because of traffic jam!! Really loved that! Then  I wanted to buy breakfast and I thought  I had some coins, then I chec...

... I had no electricity in the morning but I found a trouser that was already ironed and one that fits well, also I got a top that can pass without ironing, and a nice sweater which I ironed with a sufuria... :-) then I managed to really release and be happy... also I heard beautiful beautiful music in the mat that made me cry... then someone won money... also I can focus on beautiful birds.. also it was easy.. also got to the office.. then discovered that I just got some money.. I just got some money and now I am at 40k! only 20 to go... loves it... Also this way too good looking guy that I facebook friended said "yes" and he is pure... he is gorgeous and pure.. PEREFECT.. You will not believe this, I have just realised that all my bosses are not in... at 17 minutes to go.. .got to go home... not feeling well...

... someone I was to give money was giving me lip so now I cut the amount of money I gave her!! which means more money to me! also got some money by work...  and other by Source... (loved the Source source)..  Jimmy called and casually asked for the car.. no manipulation and I just said "okay"  he came by later and we had a great time... easy.. so unusually easy.. of course I had spent sometime meditating before... also I am loving my mom! I am loving my neighbour... I don't mind also that they are complaining a whole lot... something interesting about the Jimmy visit, I kept following him around places... and he was sooo great! Guess what I am at 444 in the jobs site!!!!! Also this afternoon I have had a most delicious conversation with someone who I find delectable. It was a little as thought he was really pumping me for info, and he has been observing me! :-)... knows my car plates.. I liked how we can talk easily... so very easily... he remembers things that ...

.... I post happy things on the abeforum  and people comment, with nice comments... I also like it when I can thank God for things, I also like that yesterday  Jimmy wanted to visit, and for the life of me I could not get into the programme with that, but I said,  "Cool, see you there" then I went home did some meditation and some  releasing and after that I didn't really  mind whether or not he came by. Then he called at about 7.30pm. Then at 9.30pm I called him to wish him goodnight and he said he wasn't coming after all! Yesterday I met someone who helped me to further realise my issue with this job... the lack of structure, the way there are many ways things can work.... and also this morning I was realising that ECF can work... it is possible for me to do this... I can do this, it is possible for me to do this.... Also my boss is going away from now... till next week... from this second till next week.. away from the office that is.... give me some time...

... I have learnt more specifically that if I change my thinking then things changed... I have seen this literally... this past weekend I was stressing about Jimmy not calling me and I very fakely managed to find very little relief and guess what seconds later, he called... I like that my vibration doesn't have to be super clean for me to get things out of it... Today I get to leave early... ish, my boss is going to be away at home time so I am free to leave early... Good news, someone new likes my post... hopefully they can extend it to my page...  I wanted a new friend and now I have one!! Aslo did  I tell  you  I have made one shilling today on my money site? :-).. I love that  everyone is being really nice to me.. I listening to the mostest, Anita Baker!

Two people are talking about me!!!!!  I hope that they are saying good things!! And I am really getting many many hits... many more than yesterday... so hopefully there will be more today... much more than yesterday, I am going home right now... or well soon...

I got to work on time...and found something okay to eat.. I have found some new things to listen to, I managed to not only do a process but also post something on my jobs site... and I am setting goals for me... woo hoo! I also managed to talk well to my Mom, and she said that I was full of shit.. which is cool, I got to have lunch alone.. and I read good news that made me feel better, also, I have been thinking about increasing the average number of page views from 65 of last month by 4 to 260 per day... and so far this month I am doing 25 per day which should give me quite the workout!   Also I had been afraid that

... trying to feel good about my troubles... I understand that they get me closer to God so... thank you... also my boss is away so I can breathe or something like that, also boyfriend is being nice which is nice... also got free lunch, also might get free phone, also half awake... also got 50.00 telephone credit from Jimmy... interesting surprise... very nice.. and also I discovered that  I made .03USD from the card people... which is of course nice.. also so far this month I have made more USD than I made the whole of last month on the job site... I actually feel okay.. I like that ..

... I have found something actually funny... it is ha ha funny... and it is also sweet and romantic and interesting story line... you know the type that I like.. you know... and this morning there was truly cute guy at the coffee station.. I mean hot... nice!! So he saw me and was staring... and I flashed him this really huge smile!! and he responded nicely and I really enjoyed that... also I just discovered that I made some money on my site... also a song I was looking for came to me... also I just made some more money on the money site... Kshs 6.60.. I am have just discovered that I have a problem, and a solution! Time now for home!!