Ten Thousand Buttons

I was having such a hard time feeling good this morning because well I was having a hard time. Then I did a focus wheel thinking, really honestly that it would not work but it did!!! Woo hoo! I was even able to do a BOPA and RoA and actually started feeling good!! Then I was barely finished with that then my office mate mentioned that someone might be going to the complex and I have been needing to go and had even though and had been planning to ask someone if they were going so that I could get my ass there..... Anyhoo.... my work-roommate asks this lady if she is going and she is and I get to run to join them, then we go and even though the ATM there is not working, there are no lines in the bank soo woo hoo! No2 and then I go to pay off my debts and I find that they have not yet been served so I will not keep them afterall !!! Woohoo!! No. 3 then the guy we were going to pick up originally buys us a GREAT lunch !!!!!!! Woo hoo!!! No. 4!!! And now I am back in the office and I...

just wanted to mention because... I have been not posting here.... but today I noticed how great I felt after reading what I have been writing here and it helped me turn downstream and I liked that and I want more of this

Big bossman is away and so is no. 2 No. 3 is around but cannot access what I am up to and 3.75 is in a presentation... so you know what?!! (not that it would matter.... but) tis time for games and Abraham!! fun times!

Today I have been noticing that I really need to clean up on my vibrations and in all honesty I do not feel like it. But at the same time I really want to feel good. Then I remembered that I don’t necessarily have to clean up on anything in particular, I can just look at other things and feel good about those.... Then I decided to look at old posts here..... I am already feeling better. Also, first thing today OOC1 came to say ‘hi’ which is way cool!! Also.... this morning, as I was awaiting transport to go home, I thought about the free ride to the office and really wanted it, then I enter the bus and a colleague is there and he feels pressured to pay my fare, then...  then we find a colleague who has stopped to be of assistance to someone and she ends up being of assistance to us by giving us a ride.... I effectively ensuring I had a fun filled free ride!! I am very happy that I am still in the vortex! Now from Friday.... a) I had money which is in USD that I can convert to our mon...

I love that that OOC2 smiled at em today

Really loving me right now, I love how I always manage to get songs I want on Youtube, i love how I have been . I love that things are getting better. I love that I am feeling a little better. I love that I am feeling better about me. And I have all these things that I am feeling good about. I love that I am feeling this good about me.

The greatest thing also is to allow me to be here where I am at this time

Did I tell you the story about the way the man I like is here to stay and the man I don't like has gone away!! Well that is true and has been for 3 weeks. Loving the universe right now!

I just remembered something interesting that happened this past weekend on my way to home, I took the bus and I thought the dude who was taking the fare was fairly sexy.... I was sitting at a place and at some point the seat next to me fell empty and I thought how much I wanted him to sit next to me... I tried to tell me to forget about it, but I could not, I just smiled and let that pass... and after about 15 seconds he sat next to me for the longest time!!! That was really cool

I like how this trouser fits. I love that my waist is smaller, so it fits better, I love that although I woke up late, I still managed 10 minutes of the Billy Blank Celebrity workout this morning. I like that I am remembering all these songs that I love. I love that I got a lift this morning. I love that I am feeling better. I love that I saved a banana from yesterday so now I can enjoy it. I love that. I love that I have found a house that I like. I like that I have discovered what ails me... I love that I am actually doing what I am supposed to be doing and that is great! I love that I am here.... I love that all is well. I love that I have a project....

I just remembered something interesting, many years ago I was doing a job that I felt needed a lot of inspiration so I liked to listen to songs that would encourage me to .. you well, go the distance.. so I collected them and they came to me really easily and at the time I thought they came from the same source.. but now when I tried again to look for the same music, it was soo difficult to come by...

...that has been playing in my head and I really wanted it in my list of songs for You Tube... I didn't know the name or the artist, so I just searched blindly and then I told me I'll just click on the first result of the search and after 3 I got my song!!! Woo hoo!! Oh yeah and my boss loves me again!! Ooh oooh and the first person from the office I saw today was.... OOC.... Ooooh oooh and I thought OOC2 might not be there and he was!

You know what I believe? I believe all this will be very very very well.

Guess what! Guess what!! guess what! I have been needing to renew my car insurance.. and this year insurance has gone up many percentages, and I had tried to get a quotation from a company that I thought was cool but it was soooo expensive, so I thought all will be well..... then I thought maybe my old company will send me a reminder about paying... and maybe I could pay for a few months and I can pay again, cause honestly I could not 'see' where the money would come from. Then last evening I received an sms saying that I needed to renew my insurance soon! in 2 days. Then I call them today and they say that my insurance premium DIDN'T GO UP!!! I cannot believe it!!! and you know now, I have enough money to spend on my new suit, hair, shoes, clothes for next weekend... life is soo good.. and in addition I have been giving people money left right and centre, this could be a nod from the universe...woo hoo!!!! Also I am feeling much better about my boss which is serious...

OOC (one that is) got me gum like I wanted. That is sooo cool. It is almost as though he wanted to please me.... as in do something just for the sake of making me happy, and I love that cause it feels food. As for this other guy I love who is being an ass, well thing is to tell him to go have fudge with himself.

So what has been my experiences these past few hours? This morning, there is an email I was supposed to have sent to my boss and I thought I did and discovered that I didn’t and later he expressed his dissatisfaction with all this. And yesterday I got these curtains in a colour that he had specifically said not to get! And of course the things I have been thinking about I have been seeing the manifestations, these have mainly have had to do with fear of loosing my job and such and now I cannot seem to do anything right. It has been months I think.... Anyway I don’t know. It could be all that dreaming I have been doing about going away to the beach...... Anyway, today I couldn’t do anything right even if I tried. I lost a post it that has to do with a document that is supposed to be signed... I left the office and was caught, and the reason I was leaving the office didn’t happen in the end.... ( as in I didn’t succeed) ... basically everything I was trying just was not working... ...

I love that we have been having great fun with the "Finger of God"

i kissed a boy that belonged to another girl. I never really felt guilty about the whole thing. So now recenty I got her a date with a man I really liked! I am not sure if I am paying back on me... they seem to like each other.... All is well....

What am I grateful for this afternoon, a) I finally got my blinds and now I can work in the afternoons without direct sunlight in my eyes and uncomfortable heat, and best of all it goes with everything. Also they are the colours I wanted. Which is even better than the ones I wanted. b) May leave early today!

I have been feeling bad about setting up a funky friend with someone I am into, and I spent a whole lot of time judging myself and feeling bad about me and everything. But now I have allowed me to be where I am and that is good cause I am feeling really good about me. I am grateful I am feeling good about me right now.