Ten Thousand Buttons

.. why are my insides against this....

... I have discovered a new solution to a problem I didn't know I had !!! Things really are going well for me today.

is actually improving...!!! I am actually feeling better.. I woke up really early and stuff, I walked and now I am listening to music I like, I am feeling lighter inside which I absolutely adore.. things are going well

Okay so today I felt that the whole effing office is being devlish to me... :-) and there's this girl who is always sort of super great with me and she has to travel and she gave me a hug....A hug can change your whole day!! okay all will be well.

...I heard that my brother was traveling to visit my Dad up country and I haven't seen him for a while so I thought that it would be a good idea to accompany my brother. But since agreeing to go with him, I have been having these sort of anxiety attacks cause of the travel...I could not sleep last night... finally I left my bed and found some solace and rest on my couch!!! I was able to sleep without nightmares... (which was nice) This morning my brother called me at 8.00am to tell me that he could not travel!! That was great!

Today, like the first thing in the morning, I had something really nice happen. I had to go to the office really early and I had left my car parked in the office lot, so I didn't have it, I had fare but the denomination is way too big and the people who work in these systems would have given me a really hard time about giving me back change, but something kept telling me not to take a taxi... cause that was the other option.. so I decided to go to the bus stop and like 5 seconds later before the bus came a workmate zoomed by and gave me a lift I was soooooo happy!!! Then had to deal with Mtn and it was okay... Then the information I was supposed to give to the workmate.. well I don't have to anymore cause someone else gave it to her... happy dance... Then Mtn wants to meet me later and me well I don't want to meet him and I need to go to the Savings and Loan to repay my debt, and you know what the only time I have to go tot he bank is when he wants to meet... happ...

Internet is just back, I managed to feel a little better about my happy rascals, I love that I can listen to Abraham, I love that I sent my boss an sms.... I love that today I am on top of my game!!! I am the best! I love that people are use Abe language to praise me... I love being praised

I also love that I listening to practically a whole workshop of Abraham... I love soo Abraham...

I love that I am enjoying myself. I love that today I will be able walk alone, again, I love that I am still receiving email... from Love.com.... that is cool.. I love that a bird has just come to say 'halo'. I love that my day ish shaping well, I love that soon my boss will go away and i will be free to get as much into the vortex as I am right now. I love that all is going better, I love that Mtn is not here so I can 'work' on him all I want. I love that all the things that I am working on are working so amazingly easily! I have never really worked in the vortex and it is soooo amazing!!!!!!!

Today is about moving from ANGER to anything else... but not down, just up... anything....I will be most grateful...

I have found it!! I have found a way!! I have found a way!!!! I have a way to do this. I have actually found a way to do this. And that is really cool.

.... little furry friend that I met yesterday and how much it broke my heart to part from him.

I love that I am dreaming about fruits!! Especially those that are not in Kenya, I love that I was given advice I know about losing weight, and I love that I listened which made difference because I finally walked... I love that I know now what is wrong with my "site" and all other things, I love that I could do it for me, just me, and no one else. I could do it for the joy of it, for the joy of collecting beautiful pictures and writing things that will be of benefit to me just me. I love that all these things are going well. I love that I am doing well enough to rampage, I love when I feel good enough to rampage, I love that my hair is looking especially good, I love that my hair is looking especially good, I love that I managed to convince me to make my hair and now it is looking especially good. I love that I am feeling this good, I love that I love the colour of my blinds, and I love that I should just concentrate on the things I love. I love that all I have to do is lov...

It is my dominant intent to look for what which I am wanting to see. Abraham Mexico Cruise 2007

Also two things.... a) my contract is being extended!!!! b) there is something I didn't want to do... and a workmate did it!!!! Woo hoo!!!

... My friend finally wrote!! okay I smsed her during the weekend.. but she wrote and as a result I am feeling soo much better... I am experiencing rudeness from Mtn... and I love that I don't care... I love that I have received an sms about having tickets for movie premiere with cocktails... Also I have been receiving driftwood about free money!!! (Love that)... Also everything has been soo aligned so so aligned... ALSO this morning I decided to walk a little bit, you know after reading all those nice stories about all those women who discovered love and lost weight!! So I was thinking about how much I loved me and how I could also you know make an effort and lose weight...!!! Anyhoo I thought about not walking and taking my car but I felt such a strong impulse to walk though I had absolutely no bus fare.. so I walked and as I sweated, I saw the office van pass by me.. and I thought I don't care.. I will get transport... I will get a lift... so I walked on and waited....t...

What am I grateful for this moment.... I am grateful that I only have 3 hours till I go home, I am grateful that I can charge my phone from my computer, I am grateful that I have credit for my phone, I am grateful that I am feeling what I am feeling, I am grateful that I have a phone, I am grateful that I have enough credit to call Olga later, I am grateful that I have a small blog where I can post these things, I am grateful that I am feeling better about Mtn, I am grateful that I am feeling angry in general not about any one thing, which I always appreciate. I appreciate that I know how to move from anger to better feeling thoughts, I appreciate that I can move from anger to better feeling thoughts.. that is a possibility!

.... There's this nice boss, well sort of... I am supposed to know him BUT I don't... well not soo well so I actually ask him who he is... :-( shame on me...

... clicked 'yes' on the hot man and then was informed that someone clicked 'yes' on me... so I really wanted it to be the hotman, but alas no... just some dude who has a nice looking kid.... he he .. I'm glad that I am feeling better...

.. really depressed about a situation at work... really down.. just then a programme that I normally ignore... "Are you Interested..." sent me a photo of a seriously hot and I mean HOT!!!! dude.. I think I will go back to him to just stare at him and feel good about things again... yes life is coming back to me :-)