This day... ohh this day

oooh this day... this day... first of all for the first time in a really long time I woke up at 5 in the morning and meditated both Silva and Abraham... then I did some Sedona work (so you know it was serious) I was very upset about something that had happened yesterday... and I wanted really wanted to be clean on that... later I didn't really manage at all. Not really at all.

Back to office, working not really clean.. but at least rocking an awesome breakfast... I worked hard and managed to finish a whole  a lot of work that I didn't think that I would finish. I managed to even do a TEC I only thought I could manage on Monday.

This afternoon started weird, really weird and hard and alone and someone who did an amazing thing for me, he carried the telly for me. He is amazing he always helps. And then I got a nice ride to the venue. A nice conversation with a nice person who really believes.. It was nice.. then we get to the venue I try to write, I really try to write, and I try  and not get far... then the painter shows up... he talks and for the life of me I find him sooo incredibly irritating!!! I think he is doing his best, and it works it is well, I start enjoying his story and start listening to him.. I even saw cats... and someone feeding them... on purpose.. It was great,... then I go back to the party and they are sitting looking helpless and I talk to my boss get things rolling I am standing looking like I am in charge.. soaking in all the credit... I wasn't on fire but I did okay.. really okay... then this amazing guy... I mean AMAZING guy just took over the meeting and did as always an amazing job, and he just really rescued me. He was amazing and everything he was supposed to and there was so much laughter and light great things which was cool, I almost didn't even care for all the bad things.. which I put down as trying to control the uncontrollable.. then it ended, having happened totally amazingly.. totally amazingly, then I had to get back to the office... cause I had to send an invite to send, and I thought I had stuff to finish and in any case I had to return the telly to the office anyway... so the boss says boo! and I say I am going back to the office, by then I am soo wired, so full of energy... I am looking for transport back to the office.. then I am frantic, I need transport, I didn't organise for transport back.. as always.... I ask the boss of the transport organizer, I tell him, I need transport back to the office.. the telly has to go back to the office and he says... I am going back to the office.. then I give hugs to people who rescued me... and beloved No. something is touching me like crazy... it is fun.. really fun.. then other lover says, are we going?!!! all really serious.. and the great guy takes the telly to the car I get in, I strap on my seat belt, and we get going... and it was amazing, we talked a lot, and he is soo much more impressive in person , he is God soo many things I want in a person.. also he is really saved, AND he kept touching me also.. also, the whole way we had the greatest conversation, the greatest conversation... he is soo many so many things I want, so many of them are so many things I want in a guy, he is sooo beautiful he has the greatest smile and beautiful eyes, and he really likes me. I like that he has always liked me even from the beginning, in this weight, even in this weight, he has only known me at this weight, and he has always liked me, always, I like that he is always magic, always been magic, always magic, always he likes to look into my eyes and make my life easier, always always magic. I like that he is actually pretty, gorgeous smile, funny, likes smiling, likes laughing, I like that he is a real dude, a real dude, a real dude, a guy that can tell you to do things.. I love that I am the one who pulled away but that he has always been steady, I love that he is always been steady, I dress like a shoe, soo fat I am pouring out of clothes.. I loved the other day he couldn’t help but look at my boobs.. I like that he likes me. I like that when he left he made a point to say  “bye” to me in a way... in the way. I settled down and just did the work I needed to do. Most of it, I even applied for leave and everything.. I loved this day... it ended up pretty great!! The most amazing day... with a most amazing guy.

I love how he brags, I love how he brags, I love how he is, even his pot, I love his pot. I lot I love his size I love his eyes, I love his intellect, I love the person that he is, I love the person that he is, I love him. I think I may be in love with him. I think that I am in love with him. I love him. I love him.. all this really will be well