So.... Today

So today....today.... Today I woke up at 5 am 5.15 to be precise.....  I made calls that I was supposed to. ., they ended up useless...I couldn't get back to sleep. I tried for nearly 2 hours.  I finally got up had the uncomfortable discussion. ... I was sooo sad.  Drove... without fuel money.  I was following this  pull this pull.. ( I have not had this pull for a while)  I went was told things...  I listened and they sounded good.  But something said to told me to  keep looking ask everyone if they wanted the machine.  It was fun,  it was okay.  It was really okay. I was having such fun.... such fun, even the noes were okay.  I wondered about that.... how was  that even possible.... I was having  fun, then someone who doesn't even knit, she just got way too interested. . She asked questions. .. but she called girl one who confirmed that it worked.  And worked.. it was weird. It worked so well.... made me feel bad about  not really Learning the things to learn. Made me realise, is that I have to find a way to do this. I have to find the way to learn this.  Gary today said to do 50 hours a week. 50 hours can be done.  50 hors can be done.  Also I might need to go to a class. ....  The girls they handled the machine  with such ease. Such ease.  They made easy work of something  that was soon hard for me.  I got that I got that I have to find someone to teach me the things that are.  I have to go deep. Really deep. I have to listen GaryV.

Now I have been able to pay the debts.  All the debts.  ... Most debts. Been able to pay one... can pay 2 tomorrow. I was to pay today, but system is down.