Ten Thousand Buttons

.... this morning... the page view on my jobs blog are sooo many today AND at this second they are 111!!! very happy... I have reached 3,500 like I have been wanting... I have been wanting to make things better with Jimmy things have been screwey... and I have been trying and trying and trying and things have not been great... and this morning as I was walking to work, my Inner Being kept telling me to call him.. .over and over and over.. and I kept resisting.. I felt it was such a bad ideas cause I was feeling soo powerless, so eventually I did and he didn't pick... which was cool cause I just wanted at the time a refund then I tell that it is okay if we break up... blah, blah.. then I felt really terrible.. then I started to soothe me... and told me that maybe he was still asleep... then I reminded myself about the well-being of the universe, and soothed and soothed, and as I was reaching into my purse to get fare, I noticed a missed call, I din't check who it was I figured i...

..... my monthly page views is exactly 3,333!! :-) isn't that a wonderful beginning to a morning...  Also I am feeling  good, very good... I spent the night awake but meditating... so I managed to feel better about me, also I was thinking about this and discovered that I have 2 times the exact guy that I wanted... it got proved to me yesterday by Jimmy, he was making noise at me for something... and I realised that he was exactly what I had asked for... I never saw it, I am also starting to see it with Patrick, really he was exactly what I asked for... which is why it worked, which is why it worked for a very long time... also which is why Jimmy is working even though it should not have been working... I have ordered the meditation CD and something on the Economy from Abraham Hicks... liking that... AND I have empty CDs and one other that I can delete and re-record.... so I can have the things I wanted...Also I have been feeling really powerless about the whole Jimmy...

.... Things that are of this morning... I found that I have a new person who has liked my Jobs page on youtube, my average for the last month is 100 pageviews per day, and I remember looking at the stats on Saturday and thought that you know, getting clicks, is not that important, I can find a way to receive money from that site, regardless, it can still work... all this can still work... and at this second, in the last 30 days, my average is more than 100 page views per day... also interestingly, the Abe quotes page is also getting more hit... many more hits, which is really good, I also tried out an idea for advertising and it was really successful, very expensive, but really successful... and that was really cool... I also have other ideas and I  KNOW  it will do well! All this is well, my boss.. you know who will be away for nearly 2 weeks... I wonder who created that... also I thought a few weeks ago that I wanted to go out more... you know spend less time alo...

... I got really high numbers of hits in the jobs page... but in all fairness  I cheated.. I did some paid advertising... so well... but it is really good, also yesterday night I dreamed that the pageviews for the past month would grow to 3000 and at this second it is 3001! :-) and the all time figures are coming close to 10,000(just 37 pageviews left) and I have managed to put it some more jobs, Also there was a time sometime back today when  I was really in the vortex... I also found some beautiful materials for curtains... I am moving more towards red, and also I found a place where I can have them done, in town... I like that I got some information about where I can get the film for my windows... Also I should think about mirrors!! Also I am happy that I am here in the street rather than at home, but I love it when I am there also, I am also thinking about how to get more views still, also now I am looking.... Also I like that when I look at the way people are visiting my ...

... I am feeling better about this morning... it didn't start so well but now it is purrrfect!!... I am feeling good again, I wore a suite that my mom bought me some time back, (which didn't fit before) and someone thought that I bought a new suite... so now I am feeling a little better about my money situation... cause to the naked eye, it looks like I am still buying stuff!! Also this morning I wasted sooo much time getting ready, and instead of snooze  off button and stopped knowing how much time I was wasting  time in the end I left the house really late, and guess what, there was absolutely NO traffic AT ALL!!! and transport was cheaper than usual... (really cool) and when I got off at the hill, OOC was there to give me a lift.... also I managed through processes to pivot... then discovered that though I didn't promote my page so much yesterday I still managed 207 page views... Also I was supposed to contribute to the "tea" today and I was feeling the pinch, ...

on this day, things have started well, I got a reply from Google on how to solve my  issue with the jobs page... so now it seems to be work, also there is a company that I have shares in that had a whole lot of debt and was removed from the stock market.... .guess what... Tuesday evening after my drinks with the friends, I received a message that they are back!! which means that I have money again.. I am feeling good again... I am feeling better.. and I am feeling good again... I am feeling good again... my heart is singing... I walked today and it was alright... I saw my car yesterday the Mini Cooper... black... it wasn't a convertible but it was a beautiful. At this second I am learning exactly why I was requested to be doing the jobs page thingi away from work!! he he.. I am really enjoying the return of my stocks! I am soo enjoying the return of my stocks in the market... in fact the loan I wanted to take... I am also looking at the stocks and they look sooo good!

..... well things are going well, really well, I am feeling good at this second... I have a sign which means Jimmy red Toyota Feilders, I couldn't see them to save my life and today I am getting miss directed in direction so that I see them, I must have seen like 7 in just 30 minutes... that is many right?... anyhoo, also I bought a sausage and the kindly guy who was serving added a little chips :-), also my sister wrote a nice email, I woke up well, I am here, I got a cute dress, the other one is also cute enough, all this will be well, all this really will be well...I have a new friend in facebook, I am looking nice in this outfit, I got bought for alcohol last night... as wanted, I am going out more often, hits hits hits... and today on this holiday... people are actually visiting my jobs page... I love how it grows from second to second... I have done some good work now, it is time to go home.. I like that this day has been good. I like good days... I also got my toilet seat......

..... I am actually feeling better about being me... also I was right about  yesterday's rally, 226 page views, highest ever on  a single day, and at this second total page views for the sight is 12244! nice, huh! Also yesterday a friend called and I might see her next weekend... only homework... cleaning on my vibration... A friend has just given me a cake for breakfast.... I think that it will be my picture for today, also something that helped my mood much is reading Belana's posting on money... I like how many friends are online today, I like that for the most part the thing that I am enjoying the most is the smell of this cake, not even eating it, just smelling it.. .. and an issue I was following up on doesn't require anymore work... and something weird and interesting... I am more positive when indulging in 'bad' behaviour... drinking alcohol, coffee... I am getting friends on a page that I didn't expect to get friends... it is really cool... sort of like...

..... positively the best day I have had in a while!  Today at the jobs page I discovered a new person has liked the Facebook page... I disappointed my sister but it ended up good, Jimmy was by, and it was nice to see him... even nicer that I ' called ' him... also I was thinking about him and I realised that on paper he is everything I had asked for... EVERYTHING... and at this second I am enjoying the joy of " I cannot get it wrong " !!! he he.. also in other news, I have found another house!! Hopefully it will be something I can like... cause I have been wanting to pay rent and being asked not to... and for some reason today there is a rally at the jobs page, at this second the numbers are much higher than they usually are! Which is really super... Something quite amazing is happening to me at this second.... my lovely colleague is telling me to do what it is that I have been wanting to do... which so really very true Also when I am feeling good, my life is goo...

... I am soo behind in all things... all things... I have some photos that I want to post here but I am not seeing time... Also yesterday I had thought... things are working out... I have enough posts for my jobs site, which is really very cool, also yesterday in fact 3 days ago, I woke up from a dream and got this message to call Jimmy, and it was Wednesday really early in the morning.. like 3 am... and it said, to call Jimmy tomorrow, and  by that, they meant Thursday! Then yesterday came and for the life of me I didn't want to call, but it was on my mind.... so later.. I got the message to only call when I felt good... later after a beer (or 2) I got this urgent call to call him now!!! And I did, and we talked about nothing really and guess what so far today he has called me twice.. after not calling for nearly 3 weeks... so I guess the message was true...  Now I am wondering about all those messages I have been receiving and not paying attention!! Now these ar...

... I saw my dream car in this shape. There it was in front of me, I forgot to mention yesterday, I think it is the reason why I followed the route I followed yesterday, to see this car, and then I saw it again in a programme in the evening, it was also read but a convertible. Also, I have been wanting for the longest time to do something else... many other things for a living and lately I have been trying my jobs page, cause it is sort of fun and it has been becoming successful for me, but yesterday I was feeling particularly discouraged and bored by all of it, and I tried cleaning up on the issue.. I am actually feeling really good about it, really good. I even posted somethings in it this morning and it was okay. Really okay maybe even fun.  I am feeling like I can do this. I can really do this...I really want to do this. Also today... is  the first time in a while, 3 or so weeks that I have more money than  I need. I actually have literally more money than I need....

.... I have woken up feeling good.... I mean really good.. I love this feeling... it is a really good feeling... I can attribute this feeling to a person who caused me to want things again.. also a friend who I lent money over the weekend refunded yesterday night!! So now I have enough money for the today and tomorrow! and now it is 11:55am!! or well it was 3 minutes ago, I am also remembering one day, I wanted to get me a drink and at the same time I was thinking of Jimmy and I agonized so much cause I didn't have enough money for the two, either me or him! I thought about it for a really long time, then eventually decided to buy mine instead of his, and in the end it worked out, so very well for me, I think he didn't show up or something... Also one of my toilet mates is not in so I might get some meditation time... Also yesterday I was thinking about Johnny Bravo, and just now I have seen that someone on my Facebook home page has JB as their profile picture...  Also ...

.... So... I got some money from my jobs page... a little more than yesterday... I kept getting the money feeling.. today someone has made some serious enquiries about my site... I think I might get another follower! I like how easy this is... I just got another interesting job to post which was really cool... my friends are growing AND it they are the ones that want to be friends... also I wish to leave my current abode, I am looking for something cheaper, in a place I can live in... and I just saw an advert for a place... something that is sounding interesting... and at the same time it will be ready when I want to move out of my house.. price wise okay and it is an sq which means fewer people and in an enclosed space and maybe who knows grass!! Yesterday I had an interesting experience, I thought about someone for a bit last week, then yesterday I had this urge, very strong urge to go to a particular supermarket at a particular time and I met someone who wanted to revenge on m...

... the money I needed came through and I ended having the weekend that I wanted to have... also I have received so many hits this past week... it was really good, I think I broke some  records or something... I also received some money from this, I managed to do some work on my jobs site which super!! I put a few jobs that I found and the hits started already going up, by much which is really exciting! Still about money, I got all the money I needed to indulge in all my bad habits.. I even had enough to lend someone who is in a similar position. Also I got to work sooo early!! at 7.15am!! managed to get some work done!! Yesterday I was watching a series   and saw this exact car!! Beautiful huh... It is now 11:55 am... I wasn't feeling so hot this morning but I ate and walked and now I am feeling really really good ... then I checked out my jobs site and guess what!!!! Dough!!! and hits hits hits galore! I am enjoying this.. I really am enjoying this... it is...

.... but that is greatly appreciated.. hits continue to rain my way!! Loving that very much!! Yesterday I went to pay my part credit card bill and  I was not charged the extra charge they were supposed to.. then later I got extra fries... for free!! I am also feeling really good about the French school and loving the fact that I can afford it 100%.... also there's a chance that I might be able to quite my job.!!! and the transport is cheap!!! I made a mistake and  sent an email to someone I was not supposed to send to...and it came back, the account no longer exists.. GUESS WHAT... the money.. ALL the money has come through!!

... I already have good news... I received good mail from my sister... I have a plan for leaving this beautiful place I am in, also some new likes my jobs page  on Facebook!! my page view are many... still, also I am still receiving views on this page.. Yesterday evening I had the most amazing evening... I called Jimmy, it went better than I expected, had a wonderful time at home... did some stuff... also I might have a chance to travel and study.... twice!! my new boss is not yet here so I could go!! woo hoo... I just found a school that might be affordable to me... This Saturday   I have a commitment to walk for about 18 kilometers... I was supposed to see my sister that day also to go out, so I was wondering how to tell her... I have already bounced her twice... guess what... she called and I saw her missed call... and when I called her, she has something really important that has just come up so we cannot meet after all!!! I have been thinking about looking for a sc...

I am finally feeling better. I am finally feeling better... Also people were nice to me, ALSO I have job openings to add on to my jobs site!!! :-)  And I have even more friends!!! More views to my page!! Happy Happy!! Also New source of Jobs!! Woo hoo! I like that I am feeling this good. OOC was by, also less than one hour to go before home home home time!!!  I like that I am enjoying my time here, I like that I am enjoying my time here.. I am enjoying my joy... also there's this lady she is older than me, she is not really pretty and she has a beautiful man who is prettier than her!! I want that... also I am very very grateful that I have all these tools, I don't need these things to feel good, but I am enjoying having them!!!  Thank you Source... for all this!  Also I have been wanting to visit my sister for a while and now I have a way to save a little money and visit her...  I love the way I am feeling right now... I love the way I am feeling right now, I ...

Yesterday I got more hits in my jobs blog, than I ever have had in my whole life!!! 211!!!! ( and I am at 888 for the month)this AND... I made money!! Also I had a very vivid dream about a future person in my life. He was good looking and we came together really fast, I did some gutsy things, he thought I was with someone else, I showed him that I was with a girl friend, and he insisted on showing everyone that I was with him, at some point we were with this beautiful girl with beautiful, delicate features and small hands, he took her hand, she was next to him then he looked at the hand, let it go and took mine, later he asked me to be his girlfriend, I mentioned that we were in different towns, he said he didn't care, he wanted commitment from me... he's English was good, he had money, he was good looking,  and I liked very much was how quickly we came together, and how comfortable we were, I was inside his arms... it was nice. Interesting, I have been thinking about someone a...

.... to feel good about my money situation in relationship to my savings... which are little!!!  Hits have for me in all sites gone UP!!! and I like that, also I managed to walk in the morning, I managed to access some money to pay for fare, I have been keeping up with correspondences, and people have been replying to my messages, so no need to call them. Which is already super cool!! I just received a job which I have posted x3 already, I have a pic for today... well 3 days ago but it is available still, I like that Friday driving was really easy, I like that I have nice feeling thoughts in my head!! I like that in some subjects I really know what I am supposed to do, I like that I am softening a little on the subject of Jimmy, I am happy that I managed to go to Pauline's... I like that I went when I was feeling better before I went... I like that hours are moving fast today... money is coming my way... the more money has come!!!!! Can you believe it! I have now Kshs 5,000 mo...

.... FANTASTIC!!! Maybe it is the coffee.... but I am drunk in love and I am loving that so much... it has been a while that I was in the vortex this long... you know what happened is that I went for a meeting I didn't what to go for... I am not really invovled in it, and people  like to insist that I go soo... anyhoo, I spent the time cleaning up on so many subjects... Jimmy mostly and now I am not even thinking about him... I am just feeling sooo good... I love this feeling... I have missed this feeling... I want more and more and more and more and more.. and now I am listening to train... she's on fire...and it is sooo amazing!! Also I have a date with Mr. Kivindyo!! I am really loving that... also I have jobs to add to my jobs page and that is really very cool!! It is my most visited site.. that has produced 99.999% of the money I have made through Google adsense... I love that I love that... I love the freedom I have I love the freedom... and the hits... they are up!! I lo...