Ten Thousand Buttons

... in the vortex.. and without the help of my boss!! which was nice... was fairly pissed off sometime back and managed to pivot!! which is a very big thing for me. Also I was having such trouble with a thing the boss asked me to do then, it became clear to me.. very clear and easy... and then I realised that with this one stone I could kill two birds!! very very nice... Also I have recently learnt that I have HBP, and I very much wanted a diet that had alcohol and meat to control this condition... it is important that I bring it down... it is apparently a big bad-ass serious disease... so well I found one... I found one...the Meditterian diet!! losts of vegies but wine and red meat!! and oil galore! :-)... also my beloved colleague loves to eat fruits which is really quite great, and she likes to put the peels or whatever in the bin and normally they smell quite a bit... I have always wished for her to put them in a container or something so that it doesn't smell so much but never...

.... things are quite the rapid fire things are going well...remember the money the money yes the money... it is coming next week, but definitely coming.. I am listening to beautiful music.. and getting reminder that my BF money is also coming.. I am very happy!  I saw him again, in the corridor... sitting on a box... my love.. my stalker love...

Today is 23 rd , I already love my boss, he looks exactly like a man I like very much who I wasn’t allowed to have a crush on... so we will get on swimmingly J ... And there is this young and absolutely beautiful man that I used to love and last week I looked at the photo of him that I had collected ( full stalker mode right there!!) and wondered where he was and if I would ever see him again and today I was quite in the vortex  and I saw him and we had a 15 second fun and excited conversation!! he works in the same compound as me and he was looking delectable!  Today is the first time in such a long time that I am truly inside the vortex... and it feels really great!! Also I wanted to listen to classical music, Handel music for fireworks in particular... and now I have found a playlist on Youtube!! Also I just got a promise from my beloved... he will buy me a telly !!!plasma!    J  Also I adore my new boss... I really totally do... I don't know if it is b...

Today I in a bit of pain, my back hurts... which might translate into a few days off... which might be cool.. .maybe even really cool... Also something quite amazing.. the number of Mini Coopers that are appearing in my life... too bad I don't want them anymore... also there is something.. let us call it a cat.. my friend who is maybe soon to be my ex-friend.. wanted us to adopt a cat  together and soon a cat showed up in our experience, but me I wasn't ready for a cat, and I told the cat, that if it really wanted to be in experience then it could stay but to be honest I wasn't ready for a cat... then the cat went away... all on its own.. without me doing anything... just relaxing and breathing... Also I have been wanting to look better... physically that is, and today I am wearing an outfit I have worn 10, 000 times and looked bad in, but today, the combination is nice and I look good... even on my weight.. :-) very nice... also this morning.. I experienced an absolutely b...

.... that I have manifested 450shs... right out mine no need to repay type of deal.. Nice I think.. maybe just maybe I should treat it well... :-) Also though not a manifestation... my boss is away in the morning... so I have some time to me... also tomorrow the computers here are being serviced so we HAVE TO leave by 2pm! :-).. I like that I am listening to Abraham and liking it.. BTW yesterday before sleeping  I "saw" in my head and this morning I actually saw him today at breakfast... I like that I have things to do so I can be alone at lunch and the fun thing is that I believe the others will be relieved and that is alright..  I like that .. I have a small debt of 80Kshs  my boss offered to buy me something to drink and I feel quite full so I thought I could use the money to pay this debt but I am not feeling this manifestation so I am leaving it as is.. but I am happy to note that the money IS streaming in easily and quickly... woohoo.. Boss is gone so in 4 minutes...

I manifested 10 bob(see left!)  in a mat I paid the usual 20 bob but got change! It was totally unexpected and totally delicious!! I also wanted to have coffee but wanted to spend only 30bob on it and guess what, I got a cup.. I thought I would have to quasi beg for one but I found one just lying around doing nothing and it was clean so I didn't have to wash it which was cool.... Also my dad is getting sent some money by my sister through me.. and a little extra to pay some bill, I figure that I could borrow some of it for walking around money and refund when my refund comes... :-)... I like.. ( a little too much) spending time alone, and guess what...today I don't have a lot of money, so I will go have the el-cheapo lunch without people asking me " why?? !" and read my good book... also yesterday evening, I had this nice experience with a nice white guy, it made me feel good.. and I congratulate me for milking and milking and milking it... also old old men are reapp...

Well I have discovered that someone who is step one for me is leaving for 2 days... there is this song I have been looking for forever... it is a really beautiful song called " hallelujah " originally by Leonard Cohen I have been hearing it from a neighbours ring tone, today I finally found it.. and now I am looking for a version I can vibe with :-) ... Also I had such great resistance to doing some work... my boss who normally disappears for hours and hours came back early... the 2 things.. I felt " forced " to do it, then warning shot... colleague came with something belonging to her, meaning that she was on the way.. so I managed... barely to finish it before she noticed I hadn't done what she requested... also I feel cured.. of some of my ills :-) also boss left early and all those that would otherwise keep me here are gone..  so it will soon be time to go home...

... I realised this morning that all things were alright... I was feeling weird  and thought that things were really bad, but in this morning I realised that although the lights went off just as I was getting up to start getting ready ( shower, iron, make coffee) I realised that I could heat water on the gas, the coffee in the microwave was practically ready, and I had the possibility of getting clothes that do not need ironing... so all was really well, I even managed to get to work at a reasonable time... also I had a free weekend away from pressure from all sectors... I got to spend Friday, Saturday and  Sunday ALONE!! that is practically a miracle... a hated cousin is visiting my sister so I don't have to see her till the end of the month! or if I do, really few seconds... and car driving was super duper easy... and I made an experiment with meats, and it was really great!  Also if I want a break from boyfriend all  I have to do is think negative thoughts.. Also ...

Well I am happy to report that the good people at Abraham-Hicks have put more available years on their downloadable recordings... that makes much more available recordings for me.... also there is something a little screwy about the Youtube today and it was really pissing me off... and I found a way to soothe that... so in the same way I might be able to soothe Jimmy.. also getting the message that I don't have to twist myself into a pretzel to make him happy... and I can leave!

... last night I got my seats....!!!! Also I  managed to sort of sleep well... and I have been thinking that I have thought about before, are here with me and are as I thought they would be... so it is now time to think of even greater things...:-) Also I got the chairs... and my boyfriend might be back with me... I like that... I am alright financially... I have just managed to soothe something... also I wish to tell you story.. I am thinking something interesting... at work... I still have the same experiences as before.. but now I love them... I really do.. I love being at work!! :-).. I have just been looking at these Celtic knot bands.. and I am really thinking that I really should watch the Lord of the Rings again.. and also Harry Potter... from the beginning it is speaking to me like it is important... might help...:-) Also I am thinking now that all this trouble with Jimmy... it is actually the gateway to things being really quite fabulous!! Also something...

... I am dealing with crap again and that is wonderful... I will be soo freaking ecstatic when I move this, when I move from this feeling.. I will be ecstatic, and in the meantime I can say "thank you" to  my Gods for bringing to me  this contrast... something new to work with... Also last Friday I lost some money, KES 200 and I thought about it for a while then decided that it was alright.... I thought I might have dropped it and was not really comfortable with that.... but I let it go... and guess what... yesterday afternoon, I was looking for something else inside the draw where the money was (originally) and there it was... it just sprung into my experience... :-) very very nice... I even had enough money to pay the kindly cleaning lady.... My chairs are ready... I was afraid this would happen!! they are ready and I am not sure I have money... :-) I went to the bank and got money which is fabulous... the lady at the shop says that she can get me transport.. ...

.... I am really very excited that I have all these books to read... I have the 'Thank you" book and the print out and all the other books that I have that I want  to read... you see I have finished the first book that I bought  " The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intent" and the funny thing is that now I get it... although at the time of the reading ... Also now I am getting friend requests... I am thinking that now it is time for me to look for THE HOUSE... and it is going to be sooo much fun!!! So

.... is starting well.. something I thought I would have to do and I got news that I would not have to.. which was really cool.. also at this second I am thanking God that I have a scarf to enable me feel a little warmer... Now I have to thank God... I have discovered that I am angry... and I am having angry reactions... time for a clean up!... Also good news, there is a Kentucky Fried Chicken place in Nairobi!!!!  Hot water is mostly back... created this past weekend nice times with sister and boyfriend....  I just made USD 0.09 on my site... tere tere tere... also this past weekend I had comfy dibi dibi... I have been praying about it :-)

... I had an interesting evening... I walked 2 km in heels, something I didn't know I could do...  and still milking the money my sis gave me.... rescue money, and my overtime form got signed really easily and this morning I discovered new money on my US account :-).... USD .07 :-), new free money...  and I am still dreaming about my painting.... I am sooo going to love my painting.. and I also have been seeing other beautiful paintings..... just hanging out there in the world waiting for me to buy them and hang them in my house... Got something new to buy.. :-) I am listening to Tigrou! :-)  and reading mini-manifestations... Also this morning the Abe book I have been reading was really really easy to read. supa dupa easy...  I have gone through many pages, quickly and easily, in the morning at home, at breakfast... also I had wanted lunch money and I have just discovered that although I have to borrow it, I do have it :-)... I will now have no worries at lunc...

.... well actually cloudy and freezing... but it is a good day... and I am feeling nice and stable... yesterday I realised something interesting.. I no longer have to worry about giving things away... especially money, cause it comes back after a while... and also I have been learning more and more about money and appreciation, which reminds me I just received some money from my sister... it is a repayment, but also a receipt, No? and also, I am keeping a promise that I made...which is nice... and also this evening... my painting!!!  this evening I get my painting Something interesting about yesterday evening.. I spent sometime with OOC and it was nice.. he was really easy, really nice... it reminded me of all the things about him that I appreciate... and I remembered how easy it was to think about his positive aspects, I got to experience them yesterday and that felt good, it helped me a lot when I was trying think of the positive aspects of Jimmy, cause sometimes that...

..... first of all this past weekend I managed to finally get my curtains... and they bring much, much joy... and I have already put in the orders  for the lovely below chairs and a sideboard... things are alright... alright... and I have just realised something silly, there is this song which is one of my most favorite at the year called " Mast Mast do Nain " which is Indian... I started liking this song about 6 months ago... and now I live in mostly Indian neighbourhood :-)... Also before she traveled a while back, my boss asked me to do something last week, which I am doing now... Also something annoying that is actually something good, a lady friend called me like 7 times to invite me for a thing... a motivation getting your life back on track etc etc... she was very very excited, she had attended such a session and loved it... she had attended such a session and loved it!!  So there are people out there who are doing what I want to do and people are loving it!!! Also...

... I talked to Jimmy and sort of made up after a fight and he decided to come see me yesterday evening... I was nervous and terrified... I am not sure why. I kept seeing signs that he was on his way.. you know , ten thousand 070s... everywhere I went...  I decided to not give it to the terror and  seriously soothe myself.... I did all in my power... what worked well... very well was the ABC game.. it worked really quite well, I tried looking for chapatis for the green grams.. but I couldn't find it with good reason... :-)... I got home, and the first thing I did was to meditate... 1st time in almost a year... and I felt calm.. .just then  he shows up with a friend!!!! I got irritated... very irritated!! then I welcomed him and his friend and disappeared into the kitchen and started saying " thank you " and soothed and soothed, and imagined fun times, and a glass of wine.. things started looking up... and amazingly we had such a good time... really good tim...

well the first thing is that the number of unread emails in my inbox was 444 in the morning :-). And I am managing.. I got  into the office compound really early and enjoyed a nice breakfast.... also it was 11:44, I called the insurance guy and he is okay about the terms that I want... :-) he will also help me write a letter... I didn't know what to write in it... I also discovered, that something I had forgotten do to, doesn't have to be done till tomorrow... he he he I spent a little time to think about what I wanted a nice meal, and a nice walk after.. the meal was simple and delicious and the walk afterward was equally fun!

... I woke up feeling a little weird but  I was happily reminded of  " thank you " and started feeling better. I managed to finish all things early and like by 7.25am and the steering got stuck... so I sat there starting doing some low key "thank yous!" and then  I got the idea to call Auto Assured and surely they sorted me out... I was very happy... then I got to work a little later than previously anticipated and I got to redeem myself a little, you see yesterday my car was super dupa dirty, today  I got it cleaned and this guy I know who saw me yesterday, was there and he saw the bright new clean car and it felt kinda good, breakfast was nice... nice... got nice things and this morning I just got news that maybe a payment has been received from my insurance company... also learnt new things which is good for me... Also this morning I was re-realising that these interesting contrasty things that I am experiencing are evidences of my vibration, of my thoughts... ...

... I have started the music and now on que is CREED !!!!! I love their music and especially... " Say I ".. also right this second I am feeling really grateful that I worked soo many evenings this past week... enough for enough extra money for next month.... I am also feeling particularly good that I already have curtains, and I am want very much to make a double chair that looks like this... it is my great hope that I will enjoy this greatly... Also I really wish to dedicate this week to cleaning up on the subject of other people, especially my Mom and Jimmy.. I am also feeling grateful for paint editing which is just the coolest thing ever! also yesterday I forgot to mention I saw this amazing bird... it had blue wings, just at the tip... and it was big-ish.. like a 4 week old chick... nice... loved watching it fly away... Also I saw this past weekend the new Harry Porter movie... which really made me feel like I wanted to re-watch the old ones... I also like that hot water...