Ten Thousand Buttons

... I am realising that I am feeling better about me, ( not to mention I have lost a whole lot of weight :-) ) also there was something that has been disturbing me... we normally have tea on Friday's and I am usually the person who collects the money and is sort of responsible for it disbursement.... i.e buying stuff for the tea and what not... For this Friday, I had  a very small percentage of what I needed  to purchase the snacks and what other nots we needed for the tea. I was totally ready to use my own money then get a refund later... but all the time all the while, my IB kept saying all is well, you will not get other donations, but at the same time you will not need it... then, there is a lady I work on this with, I saw her and she reminded me that there was a proposal to forgo the tea and pray for a  colleague who is unwell in hospital, so I decided to go round the office getting opinions... and it worked out, it was agreed that the office forgo the tea.... so I ...

.... there is this group that I started in 2008 on the Science of Getting Rich... ( you know the book) and really in the group there is thing, I don't even think I have written a word in it... -( and in the last few months, there has been people wanting to join, even 2  today!!!!  What the hell am I supposed to do now... I am terrified to accept them and then what?!!!! :-) Also this morning I did the process on MB1 and just now I am reading a process (which my IB is not against, interestingly enough) on how to move forward. Also was just watching this beautiful boy talking beautiful words, which was quite cool, really very cool, I came in really late to the office today (was early to work compound though :-) ) and now as all the bosses are gone, I can also leave!!! Woo hooo!!! All of this really will be quite well. Also some time back, I saw on FB a dude in Kenya who believe in Neville Doddard, and as it is sort of close with LoA I really felt this strong pull to ask him...

came to say "hi' which was really cool.  I am extremely uncool!!! very very uncool! Yesterday, and today I have been thinking that I may require     some alone time to really get into my processes.... but I was thinking that all of this having lunch with other people is getting to me... then today I got really really hungry early and already had lunch,  which means that during lunch hour, I can do other things... which is seriously cool. I am also remembering how MB1 came to me... I was basically living happily ever after... and then he dropped of the sky, into my heart!!! I love that... I also love how he is into me! I love how much he likes me. I like that he is totally into me!! Totally and that is soooo coool!!!  so very cool!  I like that whenever he can, he reminds me about how he is into me, no matter how awkward and weird I am. I also like the manifestations that I am reading... the one about new love, and actual self acceptance... and all the l...

... I have a new follower, :-) and finally... finally I know that everything will be alright... which is really cool, I like that finally things seems to be getting better.. I like that yesterday I connected with someone who looks like a like mind. I like that I can burn all my extra days, and that it is alright.. I like that 10,000 years ago, I had a think with OOC and how I worked on that, and how hard and weird and difficult and awkward and I worked on it and one day we were together and I had the most glorious 2 months of happy, easy, perfect togetherness, I also like how it felt when it felt like when I remembered how easy it was, how perfect it was, how much fun it used to be, how perfect we were.... ALSO... you know what else... I think he checked me out... I think that My Beloved One just checked out my Linkedin .... :-) Life could be improving... which is really cool, I am listening to really loud and beautiful music, which is taking me really far from this place that I am in....

.... my beloved one for a while. I have been thinking that I really miss him, then yesterday I really felt that I should let him go, you know, .. inside my head.. then I did, then today, I have seen him twice... and that is really really cool.... also between yesterday and today, things that I wish for are coming to me... also for the 2nd say I haven't paid for things, and that my dear is kind of cool! :-)  kind of really cool...!!!!

.... :-).... guess what happened today... this whole week I have been getting message that MB1 is still mine and that I should make studies to make this happen... anyhoo, today he had to pass in front of my desk to go somewhere... first time I looked at him he didn't back, then 2nd time he looked at me and I didn't third time, he was approaching from behind and  he made a point to turn his head to look at me, and it was quite relaxed and we exchanged a look for a millisecond... :-)

.... pay me more money.. should I say,  "yes"  :-) Noticed today that still I am in slimliness mode... which is cool, also reminds me of someone who last week was jealous of all the progress I have made while not seeming to be trying much :-) Also someone asked me to assist them with emotional stuff...  :-) ME!!!!  they said it was because the last time I did a really good job!!! Also something interesting that is going on.  I have very little work... which means that I am earning plenty money, doing plenty little... and at the same time,  the people who are responsible for the work are not in, so I don't really even have to do those things that I needed to anyway... Also, I am sleepy, really really sleepy, soon it will be lunch time and I can finally sleep infinitum.. :-)  Also this morning.. I felt a little strongly that my solution would come, and finally that this is NOT it... and finally that is alright... also that it is alright. I have bee...

... I am trying to focus my mind.... the interesting dude gave me a healing look again.  I like healing looks :-)... even if they don't last they heal the soul.  Also of late I have been receiving free credit in exchange of me doing some polls, this means that I get free credit money... which is kinda cool :-)

.... manifestations of others, as I do to keep motivated.....and for some reason all the 4 that I had access to and read were about the same situation as MB1.  As in totally reassuring me that  there was nothing to worry about, and that it was totally doable... which is totally cool..  I especially liked the one that talked about the L1 seeming to hate the subject.... :-) Also today I am totally sick!!! I have this fever, and aching bones, and,  tiredness, and sleepiness. I think that it is so very cool that I work here.  Also I as I slept during my nap... you know because I am sick... I discovered that I have to change my mind about work.  The way I have been working on me, to a point that I find me actually pretty... And today I found a love  for my beloved blog.. that earned me milllions.... :-) he he he he

Can you believe it... my BP is normal... without a " lifestyle change " I am thoroughly excited... also I have just discovered that My Beloved One is staying on... he was to leave soon but he is staying on... I am not really sure how this will help me but I am feeling good about it... also yesterday I was playing eye games with this dude... it was the same thing, I got a call to look at him, and this time I didn't turn away because of fear, and it was alright... also the difference is that I didn't make it into something it wasn't ... but also I didn't turn away for fear..  Also I have been finding me increasingly pretty which I am enjoying... Also, I think that my coming out of debt thing is my money thing for the month :-)....because I have noticed that I have also been getting other monies... also other monies...  I like that all of these things, all of them they are well.   Also for some reason today I am reading posts about signs for getting  g...

.. I am realising that these things with MB1 are my creations. They are creations of me. I am the creator... :-)... it is time to create  new things.. totally new things.... Also guess what, I have just seen MB1... again just by chance... wasn't look for him, just happened.. I was passing somewhere and so did he... I want to think that it is not me.. :-)  but all the same it is really cool... no? Also there is this other guy, totally unavailable to me... but I was just thinking how easy that is... no  complexes, just simple... almost into his arms... reminds me of how things are supposed to be.... really :-)  Also I had a way to stare at him without him seeing me which was fun... Fun and easy is always better... I always recommend fun and easy... soooo tomorrow!!!

... I like that I woke up feeling good. I dressed in dress that felt the most good, and I appreciate that. I managed to pay electricity. I have had a really nice breakfast, also the peace I read this morning was in fact admonishing me for something that is me..  and a betroubled one... also I will be seeing My Beloved One this afternoon. Key is to enjoy.  There is also someone who I like in the office, and I like that most of the time, wherever I look... there he is.  also in new news, I ran, I actually ran yesterday... the walking didn't seem enough... also I remember my joy at seeing an absolutely beautiful man yesterday... and I like how much I am appreciating the Pinterest and how individualistic it is. I am appreciating how exceedingly cute I look today... I am appreciating that I can finally run...  I went for  a meeting that reaffirmed my belief in God and the knowledge and assuredness that he brings.  Also I saw MB1 but it wasn't in the meeting ...

... this morning as I entered today,  I saw My Beloved One... AND the other cute guy.... and today My Beloved One was not being himself... interesting that for the second time in two days, I have met him by chance... as I was passing by.. and he was also passing by at the same time. Also did I tell you that I have found a way to get out of debt!  I like that very much. I like that I wanted to get out of debt and it seems like I will be able to do it. Who even knew it was possible.  I like that I have here with me, coffee. It finally 12.34 and I can go do my word tracks. I am really on my way to getting out of debt and that really feels good.  Also,  you know what I am really pretty!! and that is amazing... Also, there is this pretty dude, and I like that every time move or turn or do anything he is right there! Which is fun and great. Also I just remembered yesterday when I was having a conversation in the afternoon, there was this beautiful blue butterfly...

... there was this dude, who, which makes me smile, in the inside and the outside and he is here looking at me and making me do the same. Also, on Friday, I had an instinct not to do my exercises at the office and wait till I got to Wangechi's and we went for a long walk and it went soo very great! So very great, she has a dog that I adore and I just got a pic... she is adorable!! the best really. Then there is something that I have been wanting, to go out with someone who wasn't me :-) and I did, and I had lots of fun. I danced a lot. and I like that. I also wish to dance a little... okay a lot more... a whole lot more!!! This Sunday, again it was time for me to make my hair. I had a little money most of it having been spent on Friday... but also there was the money  sent... to be sent to Mom... I drove around Nairobi, all around Nairobi, looking for a place to eat, that was quick and beautiful... I failed, finally settled for a Steers cheese burger, which was al-right... ...

.... is feeling like such a good day. today is feeling like such a cool, mighty ass cool day. I am super dupa happy, mostly happy. I am thanking God for my lot, working at appreciating it for real which you know is important. ... Also I really wanted very much to have cash this weekend. I have some cheques but I didn't to cash them. I have some money in my credit card but withdrawing was going to be a little expensive, but I was asked to buy something for the office and had cash for that, so I put that payment on my card and kept the money, so now I can carry on with my plans to make my hair and nails and what not :-).... also I am probably imagining it but this sort of handsome guy sort of noticed me and that is really cool! :-)  I am learning how to appreciate for real, my past loves... I am soo very close... Also I really want to walk.. I really really want to walk... It could be all the coffee, but I want to walk and I like that very very much.

.... I had a dream, and this dream felt good. Really good. I was pregnant. A few months but I really wanted this baby. I really wanted this baby. I was soo happy that I was pregnant.  I had another baby an older one, about 3 or 4 years old and I wasn't taking care of it. But with this new pregnancy I felt me wanting very much to take care of the older baby boy. But I couldn't because of all these years not taking care of it.... translation?  In my dreams my children are work, my job the thing that I do for a living... when I dream that I am not taking care of my baby, it means that I am not doing a good job at work, but pregnancy!! this means that I am on my way to something new!!!! :-)... also  I want that new thing, and I am looking forward to taking care of it, to love it, (I already do) :-)  Also the older baby, it was haphazard, it wasn't planned, it just happened to come to me, maybe that is why I didn't like taking care of it, and always for as long as I c...

 ..... - The trip to the office was super smooth and fast, 20 minutes!!!  -two bosses are still away and the one who is here is the one with little work.. so I can carry on with my classes; during work hours!!!!  - there is someone that wanted to meet with me, and the whole thing was irritating to me, and I calmed down a little and now he has disappeared so now I can go back to my plans :-). Also (this is the next day BTW) - On Sunday while in Dar, I went for a walk in the afternoon, and it was really really cool, I liked it an even found that dress that I liked very much ( I looked rediculous, but the important thing is that I found it) then I remember at some point IB said to go back but I said just a little further....   Then on my way back as I walked I realised that it was getting dark, and as fast as I could walk I couldn't get  back to the hotel on time, keeping in mind I wasn't even really sure of the name of the hotel....  Then I walked for...

... today someone told me specifically that I am looking better... that I have in fact lost weight. That I am looking so much better than I did before... ( I have been thinking that so I am glad someone else can see... or can they?) Also I know it is true because this trouser that I am wearing today, when I bought it, it was soo tight, and as stretch it didn't matter but now actually there is some space... which is exceedingly cool!!! Also the people I am to work with mostly travel and they have little work so now I can go back to masomo... :-)  I like that I am crying at how beautiful a song is... Also I am reading an old post about something that was happening to me and I couldn't believe it was happening to me. Again the same thing is happening, courtesy My Beloved One... At lunch I  managed to feel a little better again. Also I slept at 1.15am and I am awake and alive and enthusiastic!!! I went to look for work and it wasn't there!! I was to walk some one wh...

.... the thing that is happening is that as always I am having an amazing day...soo all of this morning i have been in meetings and once I finished there was a security thingi that had a fun end.... also me and beloved beloved had eye games, I kept turning to look at something  and I did that about 4 times till I realised that that is where he was. AND once our eyes actually met!!! I like about him that he gives me a whole lot of reassurance... which I like, view my security issues, also I managed to get the money I wanted to send out, and today I got information about this place that I want to go... that I really want to go to, and today by chance I got all the info I need to have an AMAZING time!! Also this afternoon, there is something interesting happened, there is this successful SAian entrepreneur who said, you have to do what you want, no matter what others say! BTW pretty is sooooo pretty... and I said I wanted to see him, if he is thinking of me.. and I did :-)   ...

.... I am having to hold for a lady the job with my old boss, and you know what, I maybe able to leave much earlier than I expected.  Which is seriously COOL!!!!! And maybe even earlier than that.  It is also the first day that I am using my super cute water bottle!!! And news news, it is really super dupa cute!! Also  I will soon be getting a pay raise and not only that, there is a supa dupa lumpsum on its way to me too!!!  I did some work on it, and at the time I was working I managed to bring that guy that I adore into a place where I like him and I don't mind just being the one who loves on my side and I totally got that thing of being one through whom, love flow!! which really is supa dupa cool... also listened to Abraham this morning and I got some things I didn't used to get before.  I really love that. I also have been changing parts of me. And I really love that. Also did I tell you that I love love love this nail polish colour. AND My sister is coming ...