Ten Thousand Buttons

.... that I didn't have to attend anymore... but my IB kept saying to attend so I did, 45 minutes late... then I got why at the end... there was tea and a snack!!!  basically, breakfast and lunch . :-)... also I was to do some a little boring.. a little could not remember how to... then when I tried to, I discovered that someone else was in the middle of doing it!!! :-) ... then today also the person I thought would take over from me is not that lady I dislike.. so I don't have to deal with her after all!!! Yay!!!! life is a little good... a little good. Also, I have just seen someone who is selling for a whole lot of money the things that I want to make and  I am thinking " I CAN DO THAT!!!! " Also, I have been wanting to go entrepreneurship class, and I have been really aware that I don't have the money.... but there is a free online one!!! woo hoo!!!!  Life feels good... really good... Also there is something that I was really dreading, having to deal with a re...

..... I am fucking angry and I like it... I love it.. I am finally able to breath!!  Also something interesting happened 2 days ago, I discovered  that my gas was over... yesterday I got the idea to check my reserve gas bottle.. and it had gas!!! I felt as though it was the first time that one of these things happened and I didn't have nothing to fall back on... ALSO.. this morning I got a message from my credit card office that they had received payment into my card.. he he he, while I am aware that this is how all these things started, but my life is already  getting better.. it already starting to shape up to take place...

.... I think that people are getting suggestions from facebook to join my group!!!  Happy day!! and dance! Also I am feeling better... much better, really much better....  terrified to face the fear.. so I am not... but a little excited too, which is really cool!! Last week I was in a really weird place, really weird....  Sedona Method was sent to me, and with it came amazing peace.. really amazing peace and by Friday I was already manifesting... I offered to buy drinks for someone without drinks... someone "did me wrong" and ended up having to pay... :-)... On Sunday, my sis gave me all this stuff... perfume, a really cute top... a juicer that has a blender and meat and bean grinder!!! and I no longer have to pay for it!!!!!!! I could not believe it... Perfect....   Also on my birthday.. the 12th I got that buttery yellow and green bamboo that I have been finning...  Also yesterday I did as I was asked, and it went okay.. really okay.. all is well... re...

... I have been wondering where to get money... I found a way... wink wink, nudge nudge... I am not a good person :-)...

... I got a small revenge.. which is mine, only mine, there is this hotel I wanted this meeting to be in.. then someone after asking me which hotel I wanted, gave me the one I didn't want.. I just relaxed and let it go.. then I got this message this morning that the owners of the meeting have decided to reject the venue and that they would on their own go another way... it was really cool, it is not the exact one I wanted.. but it is a much nicer one... I am happy with that.. Also today I got many releases.. many many releases that I am happily downloading for my support... I have sooo many things to release clean up on in general, that I really believe that I really really really need this.. so hence I am really really grateful!!

... excellent morning! I woke up okay even though I slept at 2 in the morning, there was tremendous amount of jam... well.. all of this really started yesterday evening... I managed to get fun booze which was cool, then I walked to a matt and got home.... there were things like realising that all of this cabosh is a result of my vibration, not self created... I was supposed to clean up but didn't instead watched a series, the second one turned out really really great! So great I ended up sleeping at 2.00 in the morning!!!!  I am very hardly awake! Very hardly! This morning I woke up, hangovered, not awake! got some gum and started feeling really good. As in really really good, even without coffee..I drove because walking didn't seem like an option. I listened t the music and managed to get me into a happy frenzy.. the jam was so unusual and so much.. so very much... but still was only 30 minutes late, and just as I walked in, a don saw me and made sure that he said " hal...

.... exceedingly well in the growth of my jobs page... really well, much better, very very much better than before... I can you know do better.... I probably can do even better than this... :-) ( I am so different than before ) ..life is soo good right now.... I have gotten even more jobs even many more jobs... yay!!!!! Also  I am learning soo many things. So many things. So many things, I am learning so much in so many ways that  can assist me in making lots and lots and lots of money...  Also I made some money during my lunch time meditation :-)

... .I made some money.. I am happy that I made that money. Also, a cousin of mine recently got a scholarship, and I am cool with that... I think.. I hope... also I am again feeling a call to go back to the basics, basics which is just find a way to feel good... just find a way to feel good, I am listening to the Sedona Method again and I have been for a few hours and it feels right now, really really good! I am sooo happy that  I am listening again. I am also feeling excited again about leaving and that is really cool.. I am feeling really happy again. Really happy again.. I was getting a little down on me because of my dream, and it was looking like I was going to stay at home doing nothing, but now I know there are thousands of things I can do... thousands.... Oh yeah, and people are fast leaving the organisation... 2 so far... maybe they are seeking joy, maybe just better prospects... Also I can go for lunch, and sleep... ALSO I have just downloaded a  free hand mi...

.... really hard for me, really hard for me, really hard and I wasn't really sure what to do, I meditated at lunch, the really long one, and I felt better... then I did the long  Abe process for going down the EGS, then I said in the end I said, I will find an answer, even if it is not this, I will find an answer... and now I middle of listening to Hale Dworskin, and  I am feeling really peaceful, not at all aggressive or angry or anything, and I really like this.  I like how peaceful, so peaceful his  and there is nothing in my insides, there is nothing in my insides, everything is clean and clear... I don't need to do anything...  there is nothing to do.. which is really cool. Also today there was really little to do, and I have managed to clean up this vibration, this vibration that was soo problematic... I am clean and peaceful... really peaceful.. Remembering that Sedona Method also helped me in 2007... with life... really did... and now seeing him... h...

... I am learning  new things and I am experiencing the most exciting I almost cannot believe it. I almost cannot believe it. I almost cannot believe it.... I cannot believe that this thing that I wanted, the thing that I wanted to make teaching Abraham, apparently it is possible to make money out of it. I think now I am getting all of of this information,  all that I  need, to do this, I could actually leave today, right now... right this second. Also something really silly and petty, there is this girl who I had a small tiff with and I haven't been talking to her, she normally sits right next to me, which was a little hard, but I got over many things on Friday and before and guess what she has been moved!!!! She has been moved !! now she is sitting in a place that I never ever have to see her ever again. Also, this past weekend, I met a cousin and we had an amazing morning! Really quite an amazing time... I had no idea how much I was in the vortex. And I really was....

... today was an interesting it was soo exciting, I got to experience passion amazing passion!! Very exciting! Really amazing!! I visited a passion filled company and I experienced a guy that I was just drawn to. I remember that I met a guy who actually darted me, which I liked well enough, but I wasn't drawn to him at all, and I said to me that " this cannot be the only way " and today, there was this guy who said 3 words and I was in!!! I was soo in. The  feeling was palpable it was. At first I thought it was only me, but later I discovered it was us!! Really no pretending.. which was really cool. Also there is this guy in the office who I like. He has sooo many qualities that I adore totally.. today ( till now) he is reaking of booze and I loooove that!! I like that he is fun, he likes to laugh, he is soo intelligent, and we really get on well, the other day I was thinking,  " dude, you are into me... what is your deal!! " and today it was quite evident! We...

... I managed to feel good enough to float for periods, I managed to planner for a bit and that was really cool.. very cool.. also I am watching " Defiance " it is the best thing in the world!! ... I just experiencing the story of this beloved couple who are making millions from their love as in they are doing the thing that they love... Also a beloved person may be moving soon.. maybe mine is also in the works :-) In money news, I might have just earned me some money... that must be for next month ... :-)

.... On Friday, everything went my way including getting season 2 of Hit the Floor after I really wanted it, and the big thing for me was getting the Golden Giant Bamboo from the office instead of having to travel many many miles... Also the weekend, interestingly I managed to do all the things I said I would do... I even started cleaning the house. I managed to make, I have change from  money sent to folks, which means that I have a little extra money!!! Woo hoo!! I managed to get a six second  snooze,... and now it is 4 minutes to home time and I came back to the home in time to listen to Handel's Messiah !!! which was really cool... and interesting, had soo very many encounters with MB1 of March/Feb, 3 today... I managed to

just one moment, and it was sooo cool... then it went away and I have been running after it ever since... also the funniest thing.. I have been dreaming about golden bamboo. ( I am a bit of a bamboo freak right now) and just looking at bambooo pics and picas an dreaming and dreaming, and then yesterday as I was going to the shop I noticed the same bamboo and I picked out a stem, ... then I read up what I was doing, I spent a whole lot of time looking at pictures, really looking at pictures of this plant, then after yesterday I decided that instead of going all the way to machakos to buy this plant I would buy it from where I work..  and it is 500 KES more (and also I had already decided that  I was to be bought today) ... so now I have it,  it is here with me.. something I wanted, really wanted, loved adored it and now it is here with me.... ALSO it is HUGE!!!! really.. and I requested a kindly gentleman to assist me with getting it to a place where I could move it and he...

... have been a little difficult for me, I have really difficult, in terms of vibrations, love, money, relationships, everything!! Then yesterday I got really desperate for money, really really really,  telling me it was the reason why I was sad and desperate, then I told myself that this sadness has been there forever, even before before..  there has been times when I didn't have money, there has been lots of times when I had a lot of money (which is something we should discuss later... wink wink, nudge nudge...) then I decided to just work on the parts that I had control I wrote twice, once in the morning and once in the afternoon, after it all, I just gave up on this whole money issue, and just decided to live with what I have.. I decided to just be happy, just happy for the sake of happy.. and it worked, it really did, I had a good night yesterday, this morning I actually woke up happy, really happy. I carried my cheques ready to cash really little money, but it was alrigh...

... getting me to feel better... I have been on a quest to get more money and now I realise where my error lay.. I was doing action journey more than emotional journey. Today I am trying to for just good feelings, this morning, someone who I have  really nice feelings for said 'hi' to me in a really nice way... it made me feel really good, also right now the thing that I am mostly looking forward to is  talking to this workmate who I like very much... Also I got samosa... I guess it is samosa lunch... :-) also right at this moment, I am very grateful for music technology :-)

.... I have been feeling quite depressed this week. Really sad alone and depressed... and granted I was  doing the feel so much better process.. what got me feeling good was seeing MB12!! :-).... that I feel is funny! And there is much to learn!! Also, I am still loosing weight... I am wearing this dress that only 2 weeks ago I looked pregnant in!!!!! now I am looking fucking amazing! almost flat stomach, thing are feeling good... also MB12 is back... that is really cool... (I should get new names for all of them... I am getting really confused about who is who ... :-)...) I like me... Also My Book of Positive Aspects... the HELB loan - I like that because of it I got sooo very broke, so broke that I wasn't able to afford insurance which meant that I have had to leave my car behind and I have to take matatus and I have to walk, which has helped me loose sooo much weight, so much weight that now I am looking pretty fantastic if you ask me. - I also like it because now I am v...

..... my weight loss... I am smaller... I am smaller and it is real and true. I am even smaller than the period when I was walking 2 hours a day, and eating right no carbs and what not... there is this trouser that I used to wear that was soo tight, that I could hardly breath, but now it is so loose it there is space between me and the trouser, and yesterday, I was able to sit and knit with trouser on, which is something I don't remember the last time I was able to, cause I have lost enough weight for me to fit into the trouser while sitting. Also today I discovered something really interesting, I was admonished for not collecting some documents, then today I discovered that someone had put them in my computer without my knowledge.. as a result, I have them... I kept wondering why I was being requested to check that machine and there was the information....

.... this morning I feel really really good. Life feels really good. I spent this whole past weekend making granny squares and other little projects and it was all soo very fun.. especially looking at the really really pretty... I like that this morning I was feeling a little depressed and granny squares and little projects got me back to me... I really love my level of obsession... also my fibre projects... I simply love them...

.... I went for this funeral and it was alright, really alright... it had many ups and some downs, but it was alright, really alright, on the way back I saw these things that made me feel upset, and jealous, and sorry for me, then I went home and had a drink, and this morning I thought about my feelings and how I felt that the feelings were inappropriate last night, this morning I am feeling it is alright, these feelings they are fine, and I can use them to access the things that I want..I am grateful for it, and I know that I can be appreciative of all of these things... and also, this thing that I want, I want it very very much... very very much, this thing that I want, I want it very very much... Also the money has started coming in... this is extremely cool... very very cool. Also this morning, I had a thought, I will do this thing because I have money, not so that I can get money... that made me think a little. and I want this very much... I want this very very much... Just ...